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    Friday, Apr 25, 2008 12:39AM / Standard Entry / Members only

       Hello,Everyone I am doing good on my lifesyle change and I have now lost 30 pounds and I have still stopped smoking.I am no longer a grumpy person I am actually laughing alot these days. I have more will power than I thougt I did. I am trying to get my husband to stop smoking also but he says no,He doesn't want to.But I know when he is ready he will quit. My doctor who I swear looks just like Jet Li! says he's proud of my weight lost and said dont give up.Like I was actually going to give up.NOT! There is one thing that bothers me.It said on his medical chart(poster),that if you stop smoking and loose wieght your blood pressure will reduce.But mine got higher.I never had a problem with high blood pressue before but now I do.He seems to think it's stress related. I will be celebrating my 10th annaversary friday april 25th.The day before Jets birtday.I dont know if it will last another 10 years or not. We have been argueing alot lately.Which always ends in me packing my stuff. I am really ready to walk away from him.Everyone's like you've been together 10 years, why leave now.well because I am not happy for one thing and even my kids cant stand him.And he's their father.My daughter asked me why don't you just leave him? The last time I tried to leave him, he put a gun to his head and said if I left he would have nothing to live for.So I stayed.I wonder what would've happened if I had left.I would be happier but not at the expense of someones death.Or would he have the nerve to do it. I just don't know what to do I feefl like Im being forced to stay in a marriage I don't want to be in. Well I guess i will write later.

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