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  • I have been busy

    Saturday, Nov 8, 2008 2:57PM / Members only

     I have been busy and I have not really had time to write a blog. I have been in and out of the hospital.First time was to have an operation to repair 3 hernias.Then the last time My heart was only beating 40 beats per minute.But I feel better now and I hope things will get better. I now have lost 51 pounds but regretably I have been smoking lately.My nerves are shot lately.My home life aint so good these days.Anybody who reads my blogs knows I dont get along with my husbands family.Well his aunt  which is alot bigger than me decided she would start some crap with me,I took it for a little while.I swear the bitch is so stupid.She called me a whore,OK. I have slept with the same man for 12 years.How am I a whore.She is just jealous because she has never had sex and shes 45 years old.I said at least I know what IT looks like. But any way,My mom called and I picked up the phone and shes gonna take it from me and tell my mom to go to hell.OMG! I was so mad I started punching her in the face.My husband had to drag me off of her.As soon as he would let go,I was back on her beating the hell out of her.That was a month ago.I did break my finger though. I did not notice until the next day.I did not go to the hospital to get it splinted. so now it has healed crooked. A souvinier from my very first fight. Hey I am undefeated!!!!
  • Blog: Thursday, Apr 24

    Friday, Apr 25, 2008 12:39AM / Members only

       Hello,Everyone I am doing good on my lifesyle change and I have now lost 30 pounds and I have still stopped smoking.I am no longer a grumpy person I am actually laughing alot these days. I have more will power than I thougt I did. I am trying to get my husband to stop smoking also but he says no,He doesn't want to.But I know when he is ready he will quit. My doctor who I swear looks just like Jet Li! says he's proud of my weight lost and said dont give up.Like I was actually going to give up.NOT! There is one thing that bothers me.It said on his medical chart(poster),that if you stop smoking and loose wieght your blood pressure will reduce.But mine got higher.I never had a problem with high blood pressue before but now I do.He seems to think it's stress related. I will be celebrating my 10th annaversary friday april 25th.The day before Jets birtday.I dont know if it will last another 10 years or not. We have been argueing alot lately.Which always ends in me packing my stuff. I am really ready to walk away from him.Everyone's like you've been together 10 years, why leave now.well because I am not happy for one thing and even my kids cant stand him.And he's their father.My daughter asked me why don't you just leave him? The last time I tried to leave him, he put a gun to his head and said if I left he would have nothing to live for.So I stayed.I wonder what would've happened if I had left.I would be happier but not at the expense of someones death.Or would he have the nerve to do it. I just don't know what to do I feefl like Im being forced to stay in a marriage I don't want to be in. Well I guess i will write later.
  • Blog: Sunday, Mar 30

    Monday, Mar 31, 2008 3:22AM / Members only

      I am still doing good on my diet and I still have not smoked a cigarette . and i have lost 22 pounds.
  • I am still diong my best.

    Tuesday, Mar 11, 2008 6:05AM / Members only

       I am still doing my best I have not smoked a cigarette and I have lost 15 pounds.talk at you later.
  • My battle with tobacco and fat.

    Thursday, Feb 21, 2008 9:59PM / Members only

     Well,it's been a week since my last cigarette.And I have been eating once a day.So I feel better.But I wish I was not be so grouchy. I've been biting peoples heads off left and right.I don't really mean to.And I feel bad afterwards.But I can't help it or can I? I may need to mediteate to get rid of those negative feelings.My karma is bad enough already.I do hope those people I snap at will undertand and forgive me.I kind of feel hopeless a little bit and I am getting discouaged a little bit,But I have enough faith in my self to not give up until I see the results that I want to see.When I say loose weight I mean over 50 lbs.So this is a long and time consuming journey ahead of me.But I know I can do it .When I feel like giving up I think about Jet Li and I feel motivated to do by best,and succeed at whatever I am trying to do.
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