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  • Why Seoul Serious?

    Thursday, Feb 6, 2014 2:50PM / Standard Entry

    I'm going to Seoul again tomorrow...! But I'm having mixed emotions because of the drama it set off at home. I hate it. Let me go in peace, let me go happily.

    There is no end to......comparing.

    If you compare against someone better, you might feel sad because you are not as good. However, you might be encouraged to work hard and be as good or even better.

    As for one's plight, I find it absolutely redundant and a waste of emotions to dwell on how things were different for you and me.

    It all boils down to jealousy.

    It's not because your circumstances didn't allow it. You simply didn't grab the chance. You didn't have the courage to do it so you conveniently blame your situation.

    For me, I'm a go-getter that way. By hook or by crook (no lahhh...I won't do anything illegal HA HA), I will get what I want. Even if it means I will take a long time or through a tougher journey, I will do it.

    Don't lament on things that didn't happen simply because you didn't make it happen for you. Stop blaming and step out of that dark past. Everyone goes through different things and we are born in a different time and place for various reasons. Why is there even a need to bring that point up?

    You can keep saying it's really a simple issue. Nope. Because all the dirt swept under the carpet were unravelled from this "simple issue". Solve the root causes for a long term deliverance from this hurt.

    And as far as I know, I'm may be the one who is seemingly causing this, but only the one that chooses to let me be a problem can step out of this on her own. Come out before it's too deep and too late.

    Don't tell me to move forward when you are the one who is letting the past haunt you. 

    I find it absolutely ridiculous. So while I still have a trace of understanding left, please reign in those irrational judgements laced with jealousy and take control.


  • Love is...

    Thursday, Feb 6, 2014 10:25AM / Standard Entry

    when he calls you a "stupid girl" after you guys make up from a fight and you can actually smile upon hearing that.

    恋爱真奇妙... :)


  • Run With God’s Counsel

    Tuesday, Feb 4, 2014 9:38AM / Standard Entry

    Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor stands in the path of sinners, nor sits in the seat of the scornful; but his delight is in the law of the Lord, and in His law he meditates day and night.

    This means that the blessed man doesn’t depend on the advice of “experts” who are independent of and don’t honour God. Neither does he follow those who plot the downfall of others in order to prosper. And he doesn’t participate in cynical coffee shop talk! The man who does these things then is someone who doesn’t trust the Lord but fallible man and self. And he doesn’t meditate on God’s ways, but the ways of the world.

    Today's Devotional really spoke to my heart about recent events. Stand firm in the Lord's grace and way and hope for wisdom to rain upon them so they can see it all...


  • It's not the same anymore

    Monday, Feb 3, 2014 3:30PM / Standard Entry

    Lessons learned:

    Money cannot buy you all the 内涵 and 修养 in the world.

    And that with some people, it's no use talking things out - even if you present your point of view in as objective a way as you can, with reasons to back things up at no intention of pushing blame - if they only want you to hear them only and the only thing acceptable after "talking it out" is to agree with them.

    And also, you may not be calculative but people will still do the same to you, so you might be forced to do the same back, in your own ways. But I firmly believe to not use the same tool formed against you back at the person simply because 冤冤相報何时了...?

    Sometimes...talking things out help to bridge the relationship and bring people closer. Unfortunately, it can also drive people apart when all each party wants to do is just push their ideologies forward without hearing what others want. Just because some things are done differently does not mean they are wrong.

    I rest in God to trudge forward and I believe my behaviour resonates that revelation. One can say God is at the centre but the behaviour may not be aligned. Keep trying to convince yourself. God will know the truth. It's not up to me or anyone to judge because it's a personal relationship after all.

    Intention is one thing, but the way the lesson is taught will help with the absorption. Communication is broken when the receiver cannot effectively absorb the message relayed. To force feed a concept is pointless. To allow a lesson to be better absorbed, try to put it across in a way that your receiver will best receive it. Having said that, unsolicited advice can sometimes be good, and sometimes untimely.

    Don't let your smarts get the better of you. It takes a lot to be a smart person yet remain teachable and humble. It's easy to say God is at the centre but think again, if you are trying to play God by thinking everything you are doing is the best. Being self-righteous, defensive and hasty to judge will bring no good end.

    However this is perceived is no longer what I can control. But I do hope the intention is seen as good and let's embrace the differences.


  • How much time have you wasted on Facebook?

    Wednesday, Jan 29, 2014 5:51PM / Standard Entry

    Oh, crap...


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