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Chng Jing Hui

What do I do now?

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What do I do now?

I feel as though that last ray of hope is gone and I am denied again of the chance of getting my dream fulfilled. Maybe this is not my destiny? It's really frustrating but at the same time I am close to coming to terms with it before that last try so I guess it will be easy to resign to fate this time. I was hesitant because of this...the coming to terms again and dealing with the sadness and disappointment all over again.

But I'm glad I tried. I will have no regrets...

Ah, Life. Sometimes I get so impatient I start to lose focus but I am just so sick of waiting! Things used to go my way a lot more...what happened...? :(

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What do I do now?

I feel as though that last ray of hope is gone and I am denied again of the chance of getting my dream fulfilled. Maybe this is not my destiny? It's really frustrating but at the same time I am close to coming to terms with it before that last try so I guess it will be easy to resign to fate this time. I was hesitant because of this...the coming to terms again and dealing with the sadness and disappointment all over again.

But I'm glad I tried. I will have no regrets...

Ah, Life. Sometimes I get so impatient I start to lose focus but I am just so sick of waiting! Things used to go my way a lot more...what happened...? :(

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Dreams

I woke up crying from a dream last night. I don't know what time it was but I can only recall feeling so sad in my dream because of my kins and gradually woke up and heard myself bawling my eyes out. Crazy. And I continued to cry for a bit before feeling better and falling back to sleep. This year has been a little weird for my sleeping state. I woke up screaming in Taiwan one night and now I wake up crying. WHAT.

I don't like this one bit. :(

I don't usually decode the meaning of dreams but because this is physiological and psychological I decided to search on that and more of them are similar to this:


Crying  To dream that you are crying signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In your daily lives, you tend to ignore, deny, or repress your feelings. But in your dream state, your defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of those feelings that you have repressed during the day. To wake up crying represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.

Tears  To dream that you are in tears signify that you are undergoing a period of healing in your life. The tears symbolize compassion, emotional healing and spiritual cleansing. Alternatively, tears indicate pain.


Although it seems largely negative because of the emotions involved, the good part is that it is some form of a release and one source even called it a form of healing. Hmm...

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Dreams

I woke up crying from a dream last night. I don't know what time it was but I can only recall feeling so sad in my dream because of my kins and gradually woke up and heard myself bawling my eyes out. Crazy. And I continued to cry for a bit before feeling better and falling back to sleep. This year has been a little weird for my sleeping state. I woke up screaming in Taiwan one night and now I wake up crying. WHAT.

I don't like this one bit. :(

I don't usually decode the meaning of dreams but because this is physiological and psychological I decided to search on that and more of them are similar to this:


Crying  To dream that you are crying signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In your daily lives, you tend to ignore, deny, or repress your feelings. But in your dream state, your defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of those feelings that you have repressed during the day. To wake up crying represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.

Tears  To dream that you are in tears signify that you are undergoing a period of healing in your life. The tears symbolize compassion, emotional healing and spiritual cleansing. Alternatively, tears indicate pain.


Although it seems largely negative because of the emotions involved, the good part is that it is some form of a release and one source even called it a form of healing. Hmm...

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Dreams

I woke up crying from a dream last night. I don't know what time it was but I can only recall feeling so sad in my dream because of my kins and gradually woke up and heard myself bawling my eyes out. Crazy. And I continued to cry for a bit before feeling better and falling back to sleep. This year has been a little weird for my sleeping state. I woke up screaming in Taiwan one night and now I wake up crying. WHAT.

I don't like this one bit. :(

I don't usually decode the meaning of dreams but because this is physiological and psychological I decided to search on that and more of them are similar to this:


Crying  To dream that you are crying signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In your daily lives, you tend to ignore, deny, or repress your feelings. But in your dream state, your defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of those feelings that you have repressed during the day. To wake up crying represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.

Tears  To dream that you are in tears signify that you are undergoing a period of healing in your life. The tears symbolize compassion, emotional healing and spiritual cleansing. Alternatively, tears indicate pain.


Although it seems largely negative because of the emotions involved, the good part is that it is some form of a release and one source even called it a form of healing. Hmm...

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Ridiculous cabbys #1

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Ridiculous cabbys #1

Ok with my experience of taking cabs, surely this is NOT Cabby #1 LOL. There have been countless unreasonable and nonsensical cabbys that I have met but I shall write about this taxi driver I encountered last night because he was just outright rude and unreasonable.

Me and Janet had called a cab at Buona Vista at about 10pm. The cab arrived shortly and once we got in, we told the uncle we would be going two places, Hougang and Punggol. He gave a frustrated and impatient grunt and Janet and me looked at each other with a look that said "oh no, we've got a bad cabby here..."

So anyway he asked us which route we would like to take, in a very impatient and rude tone to which we replied in extremely polite tones because we didn't want to annoy him further. And how and WHY was he even annoyed with us in the first place?!

So we chatted on the ride back and after dropping her off, I gave very clear instructions again in a very polite tone. If you want to argue that 'polite tone' is subjective I will just tell you it's not anything you would associate as 'rude' or 'unpleasant' to which if you were to say it's subjective again then please fuck off. Ok, now  unpleasant and rude, right? :)

So anyway, after I told him to drop me at the bus stop (I decided to drop a distance from my house because I couldn't stand being in the cab any longer), he asked me the usual question like whether I wanted a receipt.

AND THEN, THIS HAPPENED:

Cabby: Haiyo. 你知道我要收车了吗?(Do you know I was going to keep my car aka return home already?)

Me: Oooh ok... ( )

Cabby: 你知道我住哪里吗?(Do you know where I stay?)

Me: Er...no...where? ( )

Cabby: 我住 Tuas 咯!(I stay in Tuas lor!!!)

Me: Ooooh ok BYE!! ( )

Wtf was that??!!

Geez if you wanted to "收车了" then don't accept our booking!? It's not MY fault I stay so far from you?!

I know it's out of point but who the hell stays in Tuas? This means almost anyone will be blamed by you lor. Unless they stay in Jurong...? LOL.

And the whole time he just sat there, partially turned to face me with a very very very 'buey song' face like he wanted to pick a fight. I digress, but if I were a burly man, would he have done this? Gosh, some people get in trouble because they ASKED. FOR. IT.

I was tired, and eager to get home and it was late. But by no means am I a pushover just because I'm a girl, ok? If I was feeling bitchy I would have definitely talked back. But sometimes it's better to let go so I don't spoil my own mood too. And in the end, he's the one who does not stand to gain anyway. He has that long ride back and I'm near home. He continues to feel grumpy whereas I let go of that anger. :)

I want to laugh when I think he's so angry every minute he's approaching our destination because it's getting further and further from HIS HOME. BOOOO WHATEVER.

I really hate people who blame others for their decisions especially if those people blamed did not influence their decision in ANY WAY.

Madness, this sense of self righteousness in some people. I was tempted to complain but oh what the heck, I'll let it go since it's going to be a longgggggggggg ride back for MR GRUMPS!

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Ridiculous cabbys #1

Ok with my experience of taking cabs, surely this is NOT Cabby #1 LOL. There have been countless unreasonable and nonsensical cabbys that I have met but I shall write about this taxi driver I encountered last night because he was just outright rude and unreasonable.

Me and Janet had called a cab at Buona Vista at about 10pm. The cab arrived shortly and once we got in, we told the uncle we would be going two places, Hougang and Punggol. He gave a frustrated and impatient grunt and Janet and me looked at each other with a look that said "oh no, we've got a bad cabby here..."

So anyway he asked us which route we would like to take, in a very impatient and rude tone to which we replied in extremely polite tones because we didn't want to annoy him further. And how and WHY was he even annoyed with us in the first place?!

So we chatted on the ride back and after dropping her off, I gave very clear instructions again in a very polite tone. If you want to argue that 'polite tone' is subjective I will just tell you it's not anything you would associate as 'rude' or 'unpleasant' to which if you were to say it's subjective again then please fuck off. Ok, now  unpleasant and rude, right? :)

So anyway, after I told him to drop me at the bus stop (I decided to drop a distance from my house because I couldn't stand being in the cab any longer), he asked me the usual question like whether I wanted a receipt.

AND THEN, THIS HAPPENED:

Cabby: Haiyo. 你知道我要收车了吗?(Do you know I was going to keep my car aka return home already?)

Me: Oooh ok... ( )

Cabby: 你知道我住哪里吗?(Do you know where I stay?)

Me: Er...no...where? ( )

Cabby: 我住 Tuas 咯!(I stay in Tuas lor!!!)

Me: Ooooh ok BYE!! ( )

Wtf was that??!!

Geez if you wanted to "收车了" then don't accept our booking!? It's not MY fault I stay so far from you?!

I know it's out of point but who the hell stays in Tuas? This means almost anyone will be blamed by you lor. Unless they stay in Jurong...? LOL.

And the whole time he just sat there, partially turned to face me with a very very very 'buey song' face like he wanted to pick a fight. I digress, but if I were a burly man, would he have done this? Gosh, some people get in trouble because they ASKED. FOR. IT.

I was tired, and eager to get home and it was late. But by no means am I a pushover just because I'm a girl, ok? If I was feeling bitchy I would have definitely talked back. But sometimes it's better to let go so I don't spoil my own mood too. And in the end, he's the one who does not stand to gain anyway. He has that long ride back and I'm near home. He continues to feel grumpy whereas I let go of that anger. :)

I want to laugh when I think he's so angry every minute he's approaching our destination because it's getting further and further from HIS HOME. BOOOO WHATEVER.

I really hate people who blame others for their decisions especially if those people blamed did not influence their decision in ANY WAY.

Madness, this sense of self righteousness in some people. I was tempted to complain but oh what the heck, I'll let it go since it's going to be a longgggggggggg ride back for MR GRUMPS!

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