heart broken moments in life..

updating while im ripping my speedland premium album i bought today with hubby..

thanks hubby for helping me to pay for the album..

was off to the japanese hair salon called "miyabi", mum made an appointment there for perm and trim and dye. it turned out well! :) im happy for her.. while i made a last minute decision of cutting my hair...

yes and hubby is satisfied with it, mum is satisfied with it and I AM SATISFIED with it... so damn nice!!! im keeping the hair length and i got this hair not much layering BUT the layer i've got is like... WHOO HOOO!! BEST! yuki this lady is so damn cool.. the 1st time i cut hair without needing to spray any water on my hair..

this is how japanese works.. and i love it. and the way she wash my hair.. so damn NICE!! shiok!! my hair just felt so relaxed! of cos it made my head feel light becos of my amount of THICK HAIR gone!

then hubby sent us off to the taxi stand as mum and i went off to chinatown.

i thought it will be a great day ahead.. but then.. eventually NO..

1st, i woke up early but my lens couldnt get on and i thrown a away...

then, trying to wake some bitch at home who promise to drive us out, eventually she didnt and there making noises thru sms with me and hoping i can go into her situations but NO.. i dun give a farking care... useless bitch what is her point of living??? i dun get it..

then, i found mum's shirt was slightly torn! and mum got to change it... when we were already late.. i was the cause of it.. thanks to SOME PEOPLE..

then, reach g77, hubby found that his studio's bass drum skin was torn.. DAMN the kids who jam the night before.. act like one kind.. SICK!

then, my feet was so pain so hubby got to buy me another pair of slip ons.

then, the taxi we got on.. the driver wasnt FRIENDLY at all..

then, went into this restaurant open by chinas.. the food sux and the people are rude..

then, as we were crossing the road, mum's hp fell and got a no. of scratches on her hp.. i was the gulity one, we asked her to use the hp strap i got for her.. hais... 101% gulity.. pls sentence me deep!!

then, went to buy guava, there was this auntie who accuse us of dropping the bag of guava when we already bought 3 packs and i was just removing my 2 bags of guava before she dropped mine!


eventually it was a FREAKING BAD DAY FOR US! and i feel the pain for mum as some KIND of people in this FAMILY is being unreasonable, childish, taking things for granted and INHUMAN!


why did i say so.. 1st a daughter can say.. "then isnt mum more inhuman..waking ppl up early in the morning.." WOW... happening isnt it.. yes... thru the words of someone mum loved most...


agreements were made on saturday night oh.. or even before saturday night.. on friday, i already made an agreement with that person that, on saturday night DO NOT GO OUT, accompany mum AT HOME for the NIGHT. cos i will be out with hubby to night safari..


BUT wat DID she do? saying she was going for MOVIES but why on earn does she need to take 150bucks for a movie and 2 way taxi trip??? may i know??? obvious she is throwing her money oh no.. dad's money out to feed some useless male friends of hers... DUMB..


and before that in the day.. on saturday.. agreements WERE MADE as well.. saying.. sunday MORNING by 9am we will have to leave home.. bringing dad to his doctor for his numbness in the arms problem.. then off to city hall area for mum's 11am appointment at the salon. then both of us will head down to parkway parade to get dad's blue ray's dvds when we had got he vouchers avail.


yes... ALL With agreements.. she KNEW that she HAD to wake up early in the MORNING the next day ... but SHE STILL went out drinking ktv-ing "movie-ing" till dawn.. WHO TO BLAME.. YOUR FARKING BRAIN AND URSELF NOT ANYONE IN THE FAMILY.


she said we took her as a driver.. HELLO HOW MUCH DID U CONTRIBUTE TO THIS FAMILY BITCH..

1) NOT EARNING AT ALL but just SPENDING
2) NOT HELPING OUT in the office but going OVERSEAS AS AND WHEN SHE WANTS
3) FORCING dad to buy her a CAR when she ISNT working AT ALL but just rotting at home
4) 7 days a week 6days she is playing mahjong/ktv/drinking.
5) losing more than an average of 150bucks EACH TIME SHE PLAYS
6) going off to GENTING losing a FEW THOUSAND SINGAPORE DOLLARS
7) SHE isnt willing to WORK
8) she HOPE for a 100% perfect mr.right that can feed her full.
9) SHE thinks that our parents will live FOREVER
10) SHE thinks that as long as she WANTS money dad can give her
11) SHE thought that everyone OWES all everything BUT the fact we didnt.
12) SHE thought im someone to be bullied but SORRY NO.. GET A LIFE
13) she insulted mum and dad, taking them for granted every since the day she was born

my mum already had 3 dear ones passed away, she has got illness in her, she still work hard  in dad's office even in her 50s, she was always left at home alone at night, she do not had any of her daughters so closed to her to talk to, to lean on to..her family in brunei is gone, broken into pieces.

yet this creature at home, said that mum is inhuman to disturb her from sleep. we took her a driver ONLY. we dont wanna buy her a CAR..


my dad worked his whole life just to give this family a comfortable life. he finally in his late 50s still he has to work so hard to earn MORE.. and now he hurt his spine and his nerves.he put high hopes on his daughters but always led to disappointments.


and that creature insist that dad would rather give me money to invest on my bass than buying her a CAR.. omg! i've never seen such a STUPID person to compare a 1k bass with a 100k car..

PLUS bass do not need to pay tax, no installments, no petrols needed, no erp charges, no session parking needed, no parking lot needed.

OMG! she is DEAD IN HER BRAIN??? my bass is meant for my future. and  i dont ask for MORE.. 1k dad can afford. 100k??? fark yourself then.


i've got 3 basses collections total adding up to only 2k.. with one sansamp DI only abt 300. all my strings, cleaner do not add up more than 500. over this 3years.


WOW.. compare my basses with a car? fine.. i sell all my basses and i shall see.. with my basses money WAT CAR CAN SHE BUY.. prove me wrong then.. it must be a 1st hand car if not a 9/10 condition second hand car. AND must be the car she WANTS..


she hurt mum and dad's heart after i show them what she smsed me.. WELL DONE.. u MADE IT SO PERFECT.. OMG.. hollywood star? u are just a PIECE of SHIT! pardon me.. but i dont think i need a sister like her.. im fine being alone handling all the family members but not her.


mum made it clear enough. she take it as she didnt give birth to this daughter. since her very own FIRST child she gave birth to 23yrs ago.. said that she is INHUMAN.. oh well..


do not regret when dad and mum leaves this world.. and i make sure they leave peacefully when it really time for them to go..

and i will make sure.. i wont let them remember they had got a elder daughter... NO.. im the only child. only daughter who treats them well.. having a good bf and husband.. letting them know... their son-in-law and i can give them a perfect life. without having to feel the pain of how their elder daughter treated them.



TODAY onwards, HERE im announcing... i DO NOT have any SISTERS or SIBLINGS. i only have got a daddy, mummy and a good husband of mine. and im looking forward for an even better life ahead with my parents and my husband's family. :)


and of cos.. i do not have to act. i do not gain anything at all. only fools will say things like that... trying to pissed people off by saying we are acting... OH... dont be jealous when i get all the loves from them.. becos u are not worth a single bit of love from them...

its a waste of their life time to even remember who u are.


to tell that creature. a person who is happy can leave 8yrs longer than sad people.. therefore im very sure. you will be the 1st to go.. cos you were NEVER happy from deep within.. and I AM also very sure.. i will not lay a drop of tear for you. cos you are not worth anyone to be even there to send you off to your far away land.


i believe in retribution. karma existed. dont believe... wait and see... creature.. you will get it really soon.. and the warning is just nearby... be alert before its too late.



shall end here... got to work tml...


ends...


hubby thanks for being here with me to face everything and also to look after this family of mine. i appreciate it.. i know you love mum and dad. and i know i love you more than anything i can get. you, mum and dad are my dearest now.. im glad i have you all by my side.. *hugs*



hubby, i love you! :)