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  • To Write Love On Her Arms (TWLOHA)

    Sunday, Nov 14, 2010 3:52AM / Members only

    GUUUYSSSSS.....today (november 13th) is national To Write Love On Her Arms Day!!! (TWLOHA)

    in case you dont know...

    To Write Love on Her Arms is a non-profit movement dedicated to presenting hope and finding help for people struggling with depression, addiction, self-injury and suicide. TWLOHA exists to encourage, inform, inspire, and also to invest directly into treatment and recovery...

    i got this directly from the site under FAQ... www.twloha.com

    to help support and spread awareness of this awesomifitastic organization, people write 'love' on their arms, and/or help by buying some of their merch (you can get it from the website). THIS IS FOR THOSE WHO CARE...anything else you wanna know is on the website...SO CHECK IT OUT



    ...a few things youll find at the site's store...


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    Wednesday, Nov 3, 2010 10:06PM / Members only



                           IS SAD...




    thank you


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  • Gone...Has My Heart's Magic Gate (another poem by me)

    Tuesday, Nov 2, 2010 4:27AM / Members only

    Remember the gate that
    i had around my heart??
    i think...well i feel like its broken
    the barrier i had up long ago
    has been restored
    and yet again has shattered

    Since the gate is gone
    and the barrier hardly there
    my heart feels damaged
    and unprotected
    like just anyone can walk right in
    and cause more pain

    It was my magic gate
    the one that kept me strong
    as a person...
    but now i dont even know
    my heart is just there
    trusting any and everyone
    my mind yet again is conflicting
    with my heart
    and the three of us
    yet again discuss my fear
    of being betrayed...hurt...
    lied to and alone

    I do trust...i have trusted
    this heart of mine...its just
    full of love and trust
    but i cant help but think
    what if it all is just a phase
    or isnt real??
    like eventually none of what i have
    will matter...ill be forgotten

    Why cant i just end it??
    why wont it all just go away!!
    my paranoid, self-harming  thoughts
    my sadness, my pain
    my fear of losing what i love
    my ability to find what i
    no longer or never had
    i dont know
    how much morei can take
    or how much longer
    i can take it


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    Friday, Oct 29, 2010 11:56PM / Members only



    (brought to u by a message of importance)...

    --> together we shall be bored by not being bored & doing somethin that doesnt allow boredom to killll us <--


    thank u


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  • Welcome To The Land Of Unexpected Disaster (another poem by me)

    Friday, Oct 29, 2010 2:00AM / Members only

    i have to write a poem about death for my english class (how ironic)....


    Using the images in the poems as a model, write a short poem that expresses a vision of death/grief. Include imagery that reveals your poem’s theme.
    This poem is to be a minimum of 15 lines to receive full credit. It doesn’t have to rhyme and you don’t have to use inversion. You may if you would like.
    This will be worth 25 points: 15 points for 15 lines including imagery (no extra points for more lines);
    and 5 points for spelling; 5 points for the theme of death being apparent in your poem (focus).
    heres my poem...........

    Its something that you should expect

    its just that...at the wrong times

    it happens

    death comes and takes

    what you love away

    like the ocean wipes out

    ships with captains


    Its then you cry a waterfall

    and a bomb goes off in your heart

    you feel like the world is over

    wishing you could go back to the start


    If life were like a video-game

    we'd all have extra lives

    but since this is reality

    we all live once and sometimes twice

    where’s the reset button

    when you need it most

    the pause then restart

    on the player's controls


    Death, the unexpected visitor

    came knocking at their door

    and so they answered

    not knowing what they had in store

    if only they had some cheat codes

    they'd have made it to

    another level way faster

    so welcome...

    to the unexpected land of disaster





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    with no warning & sign, I had pass out at laundry room, luckily one neighbor spotted alert the super, when I came about there were 2 EMS tried to wake me up & put me on the stretcher rushing me to the hospital ER section. If she did not see me, I might be go bye with the super cape flying like my profile picture. :p
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    Merry Christmas!!!
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    how's life?
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    thanks dear :)
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    Hey Ay!!!!
    How are you doing lately lil sis?
    *big bear hugs* Hope all is wel with u!
    have a great weekend sweetheart!
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    No matter how hard to train my Kung Fu or swimming,,,it's like what's the point, no matter what, we all going either upstairs or downstairs anyway! :P
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    hehe...yep it was BD on 28th Jan.
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    u must be the lucky one
    i am ur back
    happy new year
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    it will be ok
    have a nice day ...kisses and hug
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    u did the right thing
    just forget it and enjoy ur free time
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