I
believe that names have significant and important roles in portraying
or representing an identity of a person. In my case, my name represents
my ideal self, my dark self, my shallow self, and so on. It is a big
part of who and what I am.PH Two
is my given name. It is not very usual. It sounds robotic, acidic even.
There are even cases when people can’t tell if it is a name for a boy
or a girl unless they see me in person. I find it funny sometimes, but
more than that, I think it is beautiful. It’s beautiful to feel unusual
because I do believe that I am unique and everybody else is. There are
certain things that only I have experienced and knowing that pushes me
to believe more in myself. The mystery of my name, I guess, responds to
my secretive side. Well, yes, I do have a lot of secrets. I am an
outgoing person and have lots of friends but no one really knows the
whole me.
My parents named me in honor of the Mother of Perpetual
Help and because I am second in the family, they’ve added ‘Two’ in my
given name. Although PH came from Perpetual Help, my name is not an
acronym for it. It is just plain PH. I guess the simplicity of my name
best describes how I am overjoyed by simple things in life. I
appreciate almost everything, even a simple smile from a total stranger.
Chua, which is my surname, is a common family name of
the Chinese. I think it corresponds to my very Asian way of living. My
tongue is responsive to Chinese and Japanese cuisines. I am fascinated
by the Asian language and culture. However, I’ve been studying Mandarin
for fourteen years and I just can’t find myself actually learning it. I
also can’t practice at home because my dad doesn’t even want to speak
in Chinese. But anyway, I am taking up Japanese studies and now
progressing in learning the language. Perhaps, it’s just that I am more
interested in the language and culture of the Japanese.
Again, my name is PH Two Chua. I am in love with arts –
be it music, sculpture or painting. I like to play the guitar
occasionally and love to sing almost every time. There are times when I
choose to be irrational, times when I showcase my intellect, and times
when I keep quiet and stare into space. I tend to evolve from time to
time. For me, yesterday is a totally different dimension from today and
tomorrow. I can be feminine and be masculine the next time or love and
hate after. I am a mixed up package of a simple weirdness and a strange
plainness.
I am PH.