¹⁷ "Blessed is the man whom God corrects;
so do not despise the discipline of the Almighty.

¹⁸ For he wounds, but he also binds up;
he injures, but his hands also heal.

My dad just got into emergency room yesterday. The doctor said that he got lung infection all over his lungs. It was a shocking news for my family because my dad never been hospitalized. That is why mom has to go back to Indonesia as soon as possible; which she did, just today.

So far I’ve been praying for my dad to receive Christ as his personal savior. I’m saying this not because he’s not a Christian. My dad is a Christian since he was born. He goes to church almost every Sunday, he admits that God is exist, he believed in Jesus Christ, but he never had personal encounter w/ God. He heard a lot of testimony from my mom, me and my brothers, from the people surrounds him, but he never experience God himself.

I’ve been thinking about how my dad can receive Christ personally. I was thinking that God would give problems in my dad’s life so he can reach out to God and really surrender his life to Him. Well, the problems occurred, but my mom prayed every minute to ask God to solve the problems. So I guess my dad is always "covered" by my mom’s prayer. I was dissatisfied w/ those problems so I ask God for another way to make my dad repent, realize that he needs God and receive God as his personal savior.

My dad is currently in Papua. My mom, my 2 brothers and I are currently in US right now. Last Wednesday, my mom got a dream about my dad being sick. (I know, maybe for you dream is just a dream, nothing’s behind it; but God usually speak to my mom through dreams)

So.. on Thursday my dad called and told us that he wasn’t feeling good, but he didn’t think that it’s a big deal. On Friday he didn’t call at all. My family here wondered why but we didn’t call him either. And then on Saturday we called him and he told us that he was sick and can’t even get up from his bed. He was stuck on his bed all day long.

When I heard about this I was worried about my dad. I felt sorry for him. He was alone in Papua. My mom who always takes care of him wasn’t there. He’s home alone, sick, and stuck on his bed all day long. So last Sunday I accompanied my mom to a Lutheran church. That Lutheran church had Holy Communion on every Sunday. At the time my mom and I about to do the Holy Communion, I whispered my mom. I told her to pray for my dad so God will heal my dad by God’s stripes and blood through the Holy Communion. When I prayed for my dad’s sickness, I was reminded that this is the time where my dad can have personal encounter w/ God and finally receive God as his personal savior.

On the next day (Monday), I received a phone call telling that my dad got into ER. It was shocking. But I believe that God has a plan behind it.

I don’t doubt God to heal my dad’s sickness. It is very easy for God to do it. God can heal my dad in a blink of eye. He can do it anytime w/ His miraculous work.

But I just don’t want my dad to miss the point behind this problem. I don’t want my dad to miss this chance to experience God personally. I want my dad to receive Christ through this sickness. I want my dad to have personal encounter with God and live for Him. Knowing God, walking w/ Him, and live for Him is a greatest treasure in my life. I want my dad to have it too.

So for those of you who read my blog, please pray for my dad to repent, receive and experience Christ personally. Thank you for your support. God bless you all..

Romans 5:1-11

¹Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we^[a]have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, ²through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we^[b] rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. ³Not only so, but we^[c] also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; ⁴perseverance, character; and character, hope. ⁵And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.

⁶You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. ⁷Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. ⁸But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

⁹Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him! ¹⁰For if, when we were God’s enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! ¹¹Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.

What an amazing God. I luv U, Lord

There are some things in my life that I did that’s not according to God’s word or God’s will or pretty much I didn’t do it with God’s persmission lah. Tabrak2 doank. But yea, I just wanna share that our God is very patient toward his kids and also very faithful.

Lately, i gotta lil problem in my workplace. It’s about my integrity. In that case I had lie to my boss. I lied about the things that will be better if my boss doesn’t know. I feel bad ’bout it. I’m screwed. I can’t tell the truth to my boss and I can’t let myself fool her all the time. I want to tell her the truth, but I want it to be at the right time which is not now. I really made a mess. So that week I’m so confused, didn’t know what to do. I also felt bad to God that i had lie, I didn’t know what to ask Him. I just simply asked for forgiveness and pleaded him to clean my mess. I know that this is kind of selfish. But this is the thing that a child can do when they face a problem that is beyond his/her control which is ask help from his/her parents.

I remember when I was a kid whenever I made a mess my dad’s always willing to help me to "clean" or solve it. Yea for example kyk waktu gw make’ duit bokap ga kira2. Make duit bokap yg harusnya buat keperluan malah dipake buat yang engga2. Bokap mang marah krn gw salah, terlalu royal, dst cuma tetep aja bokap gw yg cinta ma gw tetep cover the money that i had misused donk, hehe.

Well, basically I asked God to help me to "clean the mess" or solve the problem that is not supporting my lie/inequities. And He did, he somehow made me got out from the problem in the right & fair way. I’m sooo thankful that I have a dad like HIM. Whenever I need help, no matter how big the mess that I did, His hands is not too short to help me. His heart is always full of forgiveness. I’m so blessed by it.