Disappointed.

Lost my focus.

Don't know what I really want from myself.

Don't know what I really want for myself.

I learn to calm and please, yet sometimes thing ain't within my control.

What should my next step be?

Little about my daily routine and it has remains for 2 years from now.

My daily routine is pretty consistent. Every morning I will wake up and battle with the thought of climbing out from my warm sheets and unwrapping myself from my duvet. (It's red in color lovely, isn't it?). If my memory serves me right, i've heard that there is gene that determines whether or not you are a "morning person". I can say for sure that i definitely do not have that gene because it usually takes me 30-45minutes to give in and drag myself to bathroom to jump under the shower(sometimes). *Sometimes i manage to catch Oprah Winfrey Talk Show by 09.00am at Hallmark Channel but it is rare to happens.*

My way to work is pretty short and gives me a chance to listen to the radio. Listening to the radio gives me chance to have bit of background on what the day ahead holds and to catch up some last news I had keep track. First thing i do before head to the office, i will stop by at the coffee shop to pick up a Iced Latte, definitely my favourite coffee. I see my mom with her friends sitting inside chit-chating with each other, who i can only assume is a morning person. In facts, yesh! my mom is a morning person.

One of my favourite parts of the day is walking up to the office and into brokeback room, I will first look whose shoes is on the shoes rack. Usually, i see Yap, Tan and Kerry, I will joyfully great them with "Morning Kerry, Morning Tan, Morning Yap" and they will reply with " Morning Apple!". Passing by Kerry's room, i will see him looks into his computer, busy diligently replying to all the emails.(How do i know? often he says replying email is daily basic for both Jeff and myself.) The next thing is my day varies based on the projects I'm working on sometimes i have tied up with the deadlines and i feel particularly groggy or sitting inside here pretending working on my laptop situation like now? :p

I always find it easier to get my head down in the early evening or rainy day, when the office starts to settle down. Here it comes to muse on what happened during the day. I usually go off by 7pm also depending on what time i arrive at the office in the morning, anyways passing through freeway watching the towns go by as the sunset infront the bridge, it's actually pretty relaxing.

Outside of work? As mentioned before I'm not actively involve into sports or exercises but I will go for 1 -2 hours workout whenever i can at least it helps to keep my cardiovascular strength up. The rest of my evening spent with my family at home.