Hallow, How are you all doingg? Are you all right? Nobody hard feelings? WOW such a yogalesson has really effect on me. I love everyone now, I am COMPLETELY relaxed and I have a feeling like I am in love. Well I wish I am.

I actually wish to be in love again. I even cant remember the last time I think. I am not pathetic or completely hopeless or something like that, but today I sat in a train and I thought, wow, how should it be to fall in love again, just like a did when I was just a little bit younger. I actually think I will not fall in love again. Not the point that I am really worried about that, because I am happy to be single, but I should not really have objection against a boyfriend. But I felt in love I think 5 months ago. And I also felt in love when I was 6, and also 2 years ago. Actually I was always in love. and now I am never in love. Really I am surprised about myself.

My friends always told me that BOYS ARE LIARS. Well I always had something against that. But now I kind of agree with them, I am really sorry for all boys, but the Dutch ones are not honest and not fair and they cant keep their word. Today my friend was crying. I cant stand it when someone I love has to cry. I always should cry too. But she cried because her boyfriend is an asshole. AND HE REALLY IS, just like all boys are. She was with him for 8 months now, and he deceived her 2 times. First time she forgave him, second time she didnt. WHY did he do it again. He got a warning the first time, but why did he do it the second time? I dont understand him.

Well, maybe I think different about the other seks tomorrow. I will let you know=);)

well guys, I hardly can say how incredible ashamed I am, so I will not start about that... it doesnt make any sense that I did not send a new entry here, I just go to school again, and its boring as usual.

I actually dont do anyting. I do nothin.. Why do I do this.. Why? cant tell you.. you tell me. Sometimes I wonder,, Do I do this because I like it, or because I havent been brave???

I became a real fan of Tokio Hotel lately. They are German and they make such beautiful music!!!! 8 oktober they were here in Amsterdam:) So beautiful!!

When you see this pic dont tell me Bill looks like a girl because then I am veryyy angry!! Everybody says he looks like a girl BUT HE ISNT understand me? Ok we are friends again:) they are soooooooooow nice:) I hope they will make it to Asia as well, we dont know yett:):P

From left to right::: Georg, Bill, Tom, Gustav.

Arent they cutee:)

well I dont have really much to tell

so I will quit again.....when you want to ask me sometgin,, just do.. when you want to scream at me do it,, when you want to talk to me,, do it.. I mean you are free to say your thingg:)

talk to you later guyss!! Keep well!! Stay Cool!!

Love you alll!!! xxxxx

Rotterdam at night..

All Right, You can say that I dont know what I want, but I already stopped working again. Well, I didnt really do that by myself, but my mum said I had to finish my school as a normal person. While I was working I did it underwhile, at evenings and so on. But she didnt think that that was good. Well I am totally in school again, And I feel like I came in school at the first time again, really nervous and so on. Well I survived, and I am totally back again:P,, there are a few peepz in my class I know from earlier times, because they also did things like I did, as stop school for a little while and come back again later. Well I feel good at it, How are you doing?

I always want to share some pics with you out here, but I never come to it., I dont know why  not, but I am afraid of making pictures myself. I alwyas ask other people do make them, suits well.

But this time, I made a few pics myself. I had a little bdayparty last friday. A friend of mine became 17 and it was a nice party:). THe only point is that I dotn share them with you at this moment, I want to put them in a little video, then they are more beautiful =)

well, I dont have raelly much to tell, just only the thing I go on a date this friday with a guy I love a year now, so that is not too early. WELL I REALLY ENJOY GOING OUT WITH HIM =D =D

well talk to you later,, when there is more news,, =P seeya,,

Well Well, there now,, I would never think it should go so fast, But Gracyy alreadyy has a new job. I would say it is something with knowing the right people, but we all did our best. 2 of my friends also have a new job and the other ones are still looking for something.

I found out what I want. First of all, I hired a little apartement and I go working for a year, maybe 2. Then I go to China to study the language and the culture and so on. From then we will see.
I like that. My mum doesnt. She said I should go to a college right now, but hello mum, I cant pay that. owyh.

I feel great now:D,, positive,, good,, new,, etcetera:P. There is only one thing I worry about and that is that I become a girl or a woman in an office. An Office. so I have to pick up phones, to talk to clients and so on. Well I Can..(i hope).

This wednesday I start with it. Please think of me..

Today I have to buy a few new clothes. you know, like a secretary. ieks, not really my style. Well the other side is that it is only for maybe 2 years, it is my work, it is just 8 hours a day, and I can quit when I want.

When I dont see through it anymore I think I will open up a coffeshop and everyone here on AnD can come whenever they want and stay over and have coffeeshopstuff (lets say it like that:P) whenever they want. Sounds great doesnt it?

Allright,, Think of me please.

Just back from a businesstripje,, maybe we are going to stop doing our work. I feel sad about that, but last times every time something goes wrong. it seems to be we are not allowed to do the things we want to do. problems with voice, problems with decor, problems with elektricity and so on and on. We all hope on better times, but it seems to be they are not coming very soon. Well we will see, I hope so.

Luxembourg is a very nice city!!, I dont know there are peepzz out here who live there, but it is georgious out there. Btw, There are very much Chinese and Japanese people out there,,,, very nice!!=)

I dont have really very much to tell,, I am not very happy at the moment and we are working on a programme that will help us not to stop, we hope,, but I am not sure it is going to work. It seems to be we are back at the beginning again. But I stay positive,, maybe we will get over it, and if we dont, I go to study chinese marketing or something,, I think I like that=)

we will see......