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Friday, Oct 9, 2009 8:35PM / Members only
So tomorrow's graduation day huh? Seriously, I am not excited at all.
Yesterday, my dad got admitted to the hospital. His abdomen was in severe pain, and he was feeling very dizzy. He was supposed to accompany me buy stuff I needed for my commencement exercises. But we postponed it due to his condition.
Anyway...
His blood was tested for sugar level and platelet count every now and then; his urine was also examined; he was not allowed to eat or drink anything; he was asked to have an ultrasound and a CT scan as well. He might undergo surgery tonight or tomorrow morning.
In short, he won't be able to attend the "big event" tomorrow.
Even though I kind of expected it already, I won't deny that I am sad (and a bit disappointed) right now. I really wanted him to see me graduate. After all, I worked so hard for the past 3 and a half years just so he could hang that Cum Laude medal around my neck. Now, someone who did not (and does not) even play a vital role in my life will be doing that instead of him. How am I supposed to celebrate then?
I know it's no one's fault, that is why I am not really angry. Plus, I am more concerned of his health. I'm just really depressed right now. I can't control the tears as I see him blame himself for not being able to witness me ascend that PICC stage.
So... graduation? めんどくさい. I honestly do not have a reason to go anymore. I'd rather stay in the hospital and take care of the person I dedicate my academic achievements to.
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Happy Birthday, Tita Gina! \(^-^)/
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Saturday, Sep 26, 2009 11:34PM / Members only
I really want to leave this place already.
Seriously, I don't care how bad this makes me look, but I don't want to have anything to do with these people.
Anyways, I'm just counting down the days so I guess I'll have to endure it for a while. Until then, I will fight back. I am, after all, an exclusivist-elitist-selfish bitch.
Uh-oh~
Ahahaha! XD
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Tuesday, Sep 8, 2009 11:48PM / Members only
Jay left for America. 2pm is the first non-SME group that I became an official fangirl of. I may not speak of them often, but I am silently supporting them. When the news of Jay's departure greeted me this morning, I already knew my day would be a disaster.
I am no longer a dean's lister. I received my first ever 1.5. But really, I have no right to complain. I wasn't exactly the best student in that class though I tried hard to pass.
Our thesis did not win MOTA. I really feel it's my fault for not being able to present and defend our thesis well. It is also my fault that our brochure and document were not written in a commendable manner. I am very sorry to everyone I disappointed T_T
The party did not go well for me. If I was really with him, would it even matter to you? Would you have been disappointed? I wanted to kiss you... but then I remembered I was giving you up.
My eyes are tired from crying already. I am out of tissue too. Can someone please stop my tears from falling?
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Tuesday, Aug 18, 2009 8:55PM / Members only
You never failed to make me proud.
You're truly worthy of my approval and admiration...
However, I can't have you.
The battle has not even started, but I'm already ready to give you up.
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Sunday, Aug 16, 2009 11:05PM / Members only
Ms. Donut
I know I'm no Hyukjae. But I believe I can offer you the same friendship he offers Junsu. So let me copy what that monkey has written in his cyworld for his best friend dolphin. I'm sure you already know this. But I want you to keep it in mind always, especially now that you're going through some tough times:
So, if you ever want something...
And you call...
Then I'll coming running.
I love you more than anyone does ♥
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Ms. You
I'm sorry I can't take care of you like how I used to. It does not mean I care for you less. It just that I can't care for you more. In fact, my feet are itching to rush over whenever I see your pain. But I know I can only do so much, and that you can do it on your own.
I love you. And though we talk often, I still miss you.
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Ms. Friendship-er
I'm aware that there's a lot going on with you right now. I am also aware that you're really tired already. Nevertheless, don't give up. Don't just let go of the bright future ahead of you. I know you can get through this. Always keep the faith... because I believe in you as well.
I miss you ♥
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Mr. Shirokuro
I miss you.
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Mr. Thirty
You appeared in my dream again. Honestly, I don't know how to react...
If dreams are products of our subconscious minds, does that mean I unknowingly long for you?
If dreams are predictions of the future, does that mean we'll end up together?
The first question may be true. But the second? I only know I can't have you.
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Mr. Priority
Hi... I'm ready to give you up.
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