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• November - busy month

  2008-11-22 3:27PM / 標準BLOG

  I have not been quite so busy as I am this month.  College apps are due very soon, and December is coming!  I can't wait for it to be over...

  
  

  There are two essays required in addition to the application.  I started brainstorming for my first essay about a week before November 1st.  Now it's November 21, and I finally finished the first essay.  Unfortunately, I only answered half of the prompt, so I have to redo it again.  Did I mention that I only have about a week to finish 2 essays?

  
  

  Here is the prompt for the first essay: Describe the world you come from — for example, your family, community or school — and tell us how your world has shaped your dreams and aspirations.

  
  

  This is what I typed.  My teacher really liked it, but it's gonna need some changing.  He said that I should consider turning it in for groups that give out scholarship money.  Enjoy!

  
  

  A New Brand of Chinese

  "God, you are such a Cantonese wannabe," my Chinese friend said to me, one day.  Though he wasn't trying to be mean, it stuck in my brain and made me question my own identity.  My friend, who was born in Hong Kong and is genuinely Chinese, in my mind, said that even though we are both Chinese and both speak Cantonese, I was American and he was 'Hong-Kongnese'.  No matter what I did or how I acted, I realized that I could not change the fact that I was not as Chinese as he.
  

  
  

  After this conversation, I started to undergo an identity crisis.  I asked myself, "If I'm not completely Chinese, nor am I completely American, then what am I?"  At school, I find it difficult to fit in with my Chinese friends.  Many of my Chinese-American friends can be described as "white-washed," or "Americanized" - they don't speak Chinese, nor do they know much about Chinese customs and culture.  It's funny, but even one of my Chinese friends, who was born and raised in China, is more Americanized than I am.  Of all my Chinese friends, I am the only one who listens to Chinese music or even to Asian music in general.  Most of my Chinese friends do not enjoy speaking Chinese nor do they even enjoy watching Chinese movies.  It is frustrating that I cannot find someone that shares my same interest in Chinese culture.
  

  
  

  My Chinese culture was instilled in me by my mother:  "Be respectful, be Chinese, get straight A's, become a doctor, and marry a Chinese girl."  Although I am American-born Chinese, her Chinese culture has had a lot of influence on me.  My mother made sure that I went to Chinese school to learn the Chinese language and to learn about Chinese culture.  At home, she would tell me stories of historical events that were related to the movies that we watched together.  Every year, we celebrate Chinese New Year, Moon Festival and Dragon Boat Festival.  My mother even wants me to marry into my own culture.  I plan on doing this, but not for my mother.  I am old enough to have come to this conclusion on my own, but even this conclusion can be traced back to my Chinese influence.  Despite all this influence from my mother, the truth is that not everything about me is Chinese.  For example, I have a distinct American accent when speaking Chinese, and the way I think is American.  I was not born in China.  Although my mother raised me with Chinese tradition and values, there is a part of me that will always be American.
  

  
  

  In thinking about my identity crisis, I have come to conclude that I am my own brand of Chinese American.  Within the struggle to discover my identity, I have learned that I am proud to be American and I am proud to be Chinese - the rest is semantics.
  
  
  

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• Satisfied :)

  2008-11-10 10:34AM / 標準BLOG

  

  I played at BAOpen today (badminton tournament). Woke up at 6:30AM, picked Sam up at 7:10 and arrived at SJSU a little before 7:30. Then when we signed in we got a COOL t-shirt!
  We lost our first game. Sam was doing fine but I was bringing us down because I was getting nervous. I always get nervous during a tournament, I can't help it. AND on Saturday night we were supposed to practice with feather birdies the whole time, since tournaments only use feather birdies. Completely different from plastic birdies!
  
  Since we lost, we got sent to the consolation branch. Basically you only play one game to 21 and when you lose you're eliminated.
  
  Our second game was, well - let me put it this way: a HUGE confidence booster. Me and Sam played against two 9 year-olds. They were like 4 feet tall. It was AWESOME...haha not really.
  At first we were hella scared because they were little kids and they had the guts to play in the tournament. I'm not sure who scored first, but the score was 1-1 after two rallies. Soon enough, the game called for desperate measures and we owned them. We overestimated them ;D. 
  
  The score was 21-10! What was scarier was that our game got some attention and I think people were laughing at us. Freaking scary. I think I saw at least 2 video cameras LOL. We had to win though, our pride was at stake. But hey, what can i say, a victory is a victory nonetheless >:]
  
  With our super confidence-booster victory, we were pumped up for the next match. We ended up playing against.....Monta Vista. One guy was the guy that beat me at CCS Mixed doubles. The other guy was Varsity Doubles #3. This game was real tense, and I got real nervous. But I knew I had to keep my cool, otherwise we'd lose it. We even had a 4pt head start at first. But then...they started gaining on us. Soon, the score flip-flopped to 15-14...then 15-17...things were getting bad..
  
  I told Sam that it wasn't over, and to keep fighting. With more concentration, we pushed the score to 17-19...then 18-19......then 19-20...then 20-20. We stopped them from getting the game point, but in order to win you must win by 2 points.
  At around 15 points, we'd figured out who to pick on. So we finally finished the game at 24-22. VICTORY!
  
  I finally beat Monta Vista.
  
  And then we got owned against the next doubles team. Well, at least we made it to 3rd round, one victory away from quarter-finals! New personal record!
  
  

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• Happy 20th Birthday to...

  2008-10-07 12:08PM / 標準BLOG

  
  

  Maki Horikita :D
  

  I personally think she's pretty   But I'll leave you all to your own opinions :P
  
  So what did I do today.....?
  Today was spectacular. I got out of school at 10:15AM and was free for the rest of the day.
  
  So I called my friend David up from Westmont since he has the same schedule time as mine, and we just chilled.
  I hadn't seen any of my Westmont friends for more than a year! Things change in so little time eh?
  Amazing that he has a license now.  I think I'd better hurry up learn how to drive soon... :P
  
  It was a bummer that I didn't get to see any old middle-school friends at Westmont.  We came at the wrong time and left before school was out.
  But I did get to hang out with David, Justin, Lucas, and Steven so it was alright. Guys' Day Out! Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeah.
  David, Lucas, and Steven have licenses. Me and Justin are lagging behind :( ...But Justin has an excuse since he lives right next to school? Haha...
  
  We all went to David's to play some pool and I really sucked.  But nonetheless I still enjoyed playing and really want to play pool next time I hang out with a group of friends hehe.
  I think it's more fun and unpredictable when you suck and don't know if you're going to score or not. Trust me ;)
  
  Later we all went to lunch at some burrito place...got a huge-sized burrito for $6-somethin...
  And then we split.
  I hope it's not another 1-2 years since I see them again!!
  but I guess that's life right? Especially in the future, I won't get to see these people often....
  
  After I got out of class I read a book full of amazing quotes.  A particular one read something like...
  There are two types of people in this world:
  The ones who write and think about the things they haven't done, and the ones who don't have the time to write about these things because they are too busy going out doing them.
  
  I think I know which one I want to be.
  
  Sigh...still haven't figured out my major!!!
  Today I asked my friend Steven what he wanted to major in.  He said Engineering, and I can understand why.  Since I met him in middle school he's always been a natural at math.
  He told me that math and equations just come natural to him that it's easy.  He can come up with the solutions to equations using his own method that not even the teacher could think of.
  He has an innovative mind and I respect that, so I can understand why he wants to pursue Engineering.
  
  After hearing his reason for choosing his major, I thought about the things that come 'naturally' to me.  I'm alright at math, but I don't exactly have the innovative mind to come up with new solutions.  Not too great at analyzing things like in science.  I like learning languages though, but that's only one possibility.  This is one of the most difficult things I have had to think about in my life.  Finding myself. Finding my identity.
  
  Funny Ha-Ha Quote of the Day:
  

  DrewNinja: we had like 6 fights

  DrewNinja: on campus

  DrewNinja: hehe

  DrewNinja: they were all girls

  DrewNinja: and they were fighting over me
  
  Haha nice one 'drew!
  
  

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• I was LATE

  2008-09-30 11:32AM / 標準BLOG

  to school for the first time this school year! My alarm sounded at 5:55AM and I ALWAYS sleep in for about 15-20 minutes.
  This time I hit the snooze button and went back to sleep. The reason why I hit snooze is because I share the room with my brother and he wakes up MUCH later, and I don't want to wake him up  by leaving it on.
  
  My mom usually sets the kitchen alarm but this time she didn't. I usually hear her washing up or wait for her to wake me up.
  So, me and my mom ended up waking up at 6:50AM when my class was at 7AM....sigh!
  
  At least I got to school at 7:20 . We were doing silent reading anyways.
  
  Someone please tell me, HOW am I going to wake up on my own without relying on other people?
  Sorry, waking up early is not my thing...
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  This past Saturday I had to make the choice between dropping my Mandarin class for Statistics or keeping it.  I chose to keep it.
  Why?
  Well it was Saturday morning around 9AM when I woke up.  I was tired as hell since I slept kind of late the night before.  I was out of it when I arrived to class. 
  
  There's about 30 people in the class and 14 wanted to add.  I was relieved to find out that there was space for me, but at the same time, I did not want to drop my Mandarin class for this once-a-week weekend course.  Perhaps I didn't have the right attitude when I walked into the class. 
  
  I was looking for a real good reason as to why I should not take this course.  Well first we went over the syllabus.  One thing I didn't like was that we were to meet only 9 times instead of 11-12 times in a usual quarter.  If that was the case, then I should have taken this class during Summer quarter since those are only 6-7 weeks long. 
  
  The homework was going to be packed, and she wasn't going to teach us but offered to go over homework problems. She wanted us to LEARN the material through an online book.  Not my type of class.  Another thing I didn't like was that the course was too time-consuming.  What I wanted was to take a course that would be slow-progressing so that I could focus on both high school work and college work.  This course required me to take timed online quizzes on certain dates. 
  
  During class I started to get sleepy and my vision started to get blurry as that's what happens to your eyes when they struggle to keep open.  It's very difficult.  Even though I could hear what she was saying, I really didn't want to hear it. I knew this class wasn't for me.  So when it was break time, I told the teacher that this course just wasn't for me, and I walked out. 
  
  I don't regret my decision, and I'm kind of glad.  My mom wanted me to take this "strenuous" course so that it would look great on my transcrīpt.  However, I didn't feel that way.  I was content with the Mandarin and Digital Photography classes I was taking.
  
  I hope all of you don't have to go through what I went through.  If you know a course isn't for you for whatever reason, just don't bother taking it.  Take it another time, when the time is right!
  
  

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• Titleless blog....how IRONIC! (Written 9/14)

  2008-09-21 2:32AM / 標準BLOG

  While I type this sentence I really don't know what to say, but a friend did ask me to blog today so I guess I am.
  Not much happened today or yesterday, but I did have an eventful weekend! :)
  On Friday night I went to play badminton...and after playing after a WHOLE 15 minutes I was out of breath!
  My acquaintance Tom who just graduated from Leigh was warming up with me and when I he saw me breathing hard he was like "already?" haha.
  
  On Saturday I basically stayed home and did homework. The end......................So that I could have fun on Sunday! :D
  So Sunday was YK's Eagle Scout Court of honor celebration thing, which me, ken, elaina, and my dad went to.  Congrats YK!
  I felt real bad for Elaina because it was PRETTY BORING 90% of the time, so Elaina was super bored....woops!
  But later we made it up to her by planning on watching Ping Pong Playa again with J-Moh because i told him it was super funny.
  However, "life" happened and instead all 4 of us (me,ken,elaina,j-moh) helped out a friend in need :)
  Sure, I'm a bit bummed that my friends didn't get to see the movie, but in the end I'd say that my Sunday night was well-spent.
  
  Don't Laugh.
  
  
  
  
  
  J-Moh and Eric are making a real good speech right now.
  
  
  
  
  J-Moh is so cool.
  
  
  So is Eric!
  
  
  Who is this guy and how why is he so happy?
  That's my baba, of course, and he's happy because he's sitting next to a pretty girl.
  
  
  I felt the urge to change into casual clothes after seeing J-Moh and Eric dressed so cool.
  
  
  Lynn: Really now...?
  Eric: Yeah, I didn't even do anything and she gave me a kiss. ON THE CHEEKS!
  J-moh: You can't be serious!
  
  
  Now I know where YK gets his GOOD LOOKS from ;)
  His parents are hella young....looking!
  
  
  YK's dad OBVIOUSLY looks like Jay Chou!!! Right?
  
  
  Shoot, so GOOD-LOOKING!!
  
  
  
  
  
  
  Okay, I might have ruined this picture a little.
  
  
  Our serious picture.  Because if this isn't serious, then what would the next picture be?
  
  
  SCOUTS IN ACTION.
  +Friends forever!!! (Albert, me, Eric, J-moh, YK)
  
  Once again, congrats YK.
  
  
  

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