I'm always having writers block and it's really killing me. :( well, in fact, i'm having writers block right now but I'm doing my best to write whatever I can.. I realize that I'm having trouble writing in long sentences and I also need to work on grammer too.. I don't know what is happening to me. I'm getting really pissed at myself because I can't even write an excellent, decent sentence. Lately, I have been getting speakers block too. When I try to start a conversation, sometimes I would always pause, then stutter, then forgot everything that I've just said. Omg, I seriously need to work on both my communication and writing skills. I look back on the essays I wrote in English 1A class last year. I thought my writing was decent when I wrote the "belief system" essay. Here is it. I want to see what you guys think of it:
Belief System
Have you ever said something you wish you hadn't? If so, then it means that you are a person who has a bad habit of saying things without thinking first about what consequences your words will bring. I believe that it is essential to think before you speak because your words can have a very huge impact on the lives of other. You will never know because the littlest thing that you say can influence that person negatively or positively. What if you lost a close friend because of a simple conservation? Sometimes you would end up saying things that you didn’t mean to. To prevent yourself from getting into a mess like that, I suggest that you think carefully before you start chattering away.
Napoleon Hill once said, “Think twice before you speak, because your words and influence will plant the seed of either success or failure in the mind of another.” This means that you should think twice about what you’re going to say before you start spilling your guts because your words will affect others in either a good or bad way. Take for instance a close friend of yours who has recently got a new haircut. If you complimented your friend by saying something like, “Wow, I love your new haircut”, then in return your friend will likely say, “Thank you, I love yours too.” As you can see, it is a win-win situation for both you and your friend. If you really hate your friend’s new haircut and said, “That haircut doesn’t look good on you”, then your friend might feel really offended by it. He or she might even get back at you by criticizing your hair. Then what’s going to happen after that? You will likely get into an argument with your friend and then you might end up losing that friend unless you speedily apologize to them. With that in mind, it is wise to think before you speak.
In my personal experience, I have gone through a time in my life when I have hurt people's feelings by saying something I shouldn't even have. The first time was when I was at the Chinese bakery with my sister to buy some desert to eat. Every time we go to the bakery, I would always find some ways to make fun of my sister. "You will get fatter if you don't stop eating those egg tarts," I told her. When she heard the words "fatter", she was really offended. “You should think about how I feel before you start criticizing me,” she told me. "It's only a joke. Don't take it so seriously," I went on. After that day, she stopped talking to me. I felt really guilty saying something I wished I hadn't. I wished that I could take back what I said but it was too late; the evil words had already escaped my lips and there was no way to bring it back. There were many times I wanted to apologize to her but I was thinking that she would forget about it the next day so I decided to pass on that. However, the next few days turned out to be the same because she was still ignoring me. I didn't want her to stay mad at me forever so I walked up to her and apologized to her in a sincere way. It turned out she accepted my apology and we both worked things out. After going through that experience, I realized that the main problem was that I didn't think before I spoke. I learned that it's important to choose your words carefully before you speak because you will never know when it will get you into big trouble. Always be sure to take other people’s feelings into consideration first before you start criticizing them.
I applied what I learn by thinking carefully about what I should say in certain occasions. Before opening my mouth, I would first ask myself this question, “How are my words going to affect others?” In the past, I would always feel tempted to say things that first come to my mind but now, I learned to use my tongue wisely. When I said something I shouldn’t have, I would try to avoid that similar situation in the future.
According to the article entitled, “Your mother was right: Think before you speak”, Linda Campbell talks about how profanity has become a part of our everyday lives. Many people say “That’s so gay” and “That’s just retarded” but they do not use it in the right way. These phrases have been used in contexts unrelated to homosexuals and the disabled people; people just use it to talk about something they don’t like. The word “retarded” has been used by various politicians such as White House Chief of Staff Rahm Emanuel and Governor Rick Perry to get back on those interest groups that they both despise. Because these expressions are offensive to others, the Special Olympics campaign has raised an awareness about the rudeness of the r-word. Concern has also been raised among people with disabilities. The Spread the Word to End the Word National Rally was established to combat the “retarded” word and bring acceptable to the disabled. As you can see, offensive language can have a very impact on others so it is important to think about the about the consequences before they call someone “retarded”. (Campbell, 2010)
Some people disagree that it’s important to think before they speak; they think they have the right to say anything as long as their words are protected under the first amendment of the U.S. Constitution--freedom of speech. Others believe that it’s best to be honest because “honesty is the policy“. However, what people don’t realize is that the words they say would effect three people at once--themselves, the person being talked about, and the person who is listening. In other words, the things you say not only affect others but it can also affect you as well. Take for instance a marriage between a man and a woman. Saying “I do” to the person you are going to marry means that you have to spend the rest of your life with him or her. These two words will change you and your partner’s lives forever. Some people do not marry happily because they had picked the wrong person. If you are not sure if you really want to get married to that person, then you should think carefully about the situation before you open your mouth to say “I do”.
"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt,” Abraham Lincoln said. Make sure to avoid saying something that you know will offend others. Thinking before you speak is the key to avoiding problems that would be hard to deal with. If you accidentally offended someone with your words, always be quick to apologize because he or she will hold it against you.
But it's pretty easy as long as you understand the concept. The class only lasted for 5 weeks but we only have to attend class for twice a week- Tuesdayand Thursday for 4 hours 25 minutes each day. That's kinda long. Sometimes I would fall asleep in class. But theres an advantage since we don't have to go to attend everyday which is tiring. Finals are tomorrow at 9:30 so I get to sleep in until 8! whoohoo! Well, i'm supposed to be studying right now but taking a short break cuz i have been studying for like the whole day. Hope I get a very good score on the final. Wish me luck, everyone! 
I remember turning right onto a curb but then I was turning too slow that this african guy got mad, said the "f" word and gave me the finger while he was passing my car. It was kind of embarrassing because he cussed really loud. I wonder if my instructor noticed. I guess he was a bit pissed off too because I was a very bad driver. 
Once at the right light, I stepped on the brake too hard that it woked him up. hahah.
