saddest day of my life after cassie's death.
club 27 huh.



rip amy winehouse.

1. Three names you go by:

- bart

- babart

- yat 

2. Three facts about yourself:

- i am jobless

- i am funny

- my scalp can move

3. Three things that happened today:

- i woke up

- i cleaned the whole house

- i waited for amy's text 

4. Three favorite songs right now:

- art of life, x japan

- those dancing days, those dancing days

- waiting for my chance to come, noah and the whale 

5. Three breakfast foods you enjoy:

- coco crunch and milk

- bread and cheese

- pancakes omnomnom

 

6. Three things on your current to-do list:

- stop spending

- get a job

- stay with my diet

7. Three colors you like:

- purple

- navy blue

- gray

 

8. Three words you think others would use to describe you:

(the three most used words said to me, describing me) 

- funny

- gay

- soft spoken

 

9. Three objects you can’t be without:

- cigarette

- ic

- phone

10. Three ways to win your heart:

- look like amy

- be kind

- be funny 

11. Three favorite movies:

- russian dolls

- nine

- 500 days of summer

 

12. Three appetizers you enjoy:

- cheese sticks

- salad

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13. Three places you’ve lived:

- here

- there

- *points to head*

 

14. Three important people in your life:

- my mum

- bai

- shar

 

15. Three things you want to say to three different people:

- i miss you terribly

- we are neighborhood threats

- never a time like now

 

16. Three things that made you happy today:

- amy's text

- indonesian food

- winstons.

 

17. Three things you want to do before you die:

- be pious

- have my own family

- see bart jr.

 

18. Three favorite TV shows:

- skins

- top chef

- shear genius

 

19. Three home-cooked meals you enjoy:

- curry

- tandoori

- cream pasta

 

20. Three things the world would be better without:

- greed

- greed

- greed

 

21. Three of your guilty pleasures:

- cats

- custard

- cherry lip bum

 

22. Three things you are afraid of:

- god

- ostrich

- loneliness 

23. Three places you want to visit:

- nyc

- sweden

- sparta

24. Three things you do before you go to bed:

- brush my teeth

- smoke

- whisper good night

 

25. Three favorite books:

- the kite runner

- a promise to nadia

- londonstani

 

26. Three types of deserts you enjoy:

- chocolate ice creams

- jelly

- cherry lip bum

 

27. Three crazy things you wouldn’t mind doing:

- sky diving

- drum like yoshiki

- fight like michael caine

 

28. Three things you like about yourself:

- my humor

- my hair

- my liver

29. Three things that you look for in a partner:

- humor

- cherry lip bum  

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30. Three life lessons you’ve learned so far:

- chuck norris ain't a good fighter

- never a time like now

- life is a lesson and my tombstone is my diploma

 

31. Three ways you bid farewell:

- bye

- whatever

- *headbart*

i asked for a dance.
you said you were too shy.
i grabbed more drinks, for us, for you.
you said it wasn't enough.
i pulled you to under the stairs so no one can see us.
and you liked it, and then we swayed.
we kissed.
we went up to the room.
and i didn't want to forget it.
so we slept for about half hour.
and we woke up and we started moving on the bed.
you pulled me closer and tighter.
biting every possible skin and muscle neck down.
then we talked and we exchanged our numbers.
i am sure this wasn't just a hook up.
you bare me your heart as i did to you.
but now but now.

what was i thinking.

Honestly since tonight I suddenly felt free, I opened up my shoebox, yeah the one that everyone will have to keep things for memories sake, and I did not believe how happy I was and had back then. From note cards written by Shar to tshirts drawn with no purpose. But really, the most unbelievable item I kept was a photo frame gift from my ex girlfriend and I only unwrapped it just now. it even had a card in it since it was our second anniversary/ 24th twenty nine/ whichever. But the best part was, it was the past.

Long ago, it must be, I have a photograph
Preserve your memories, they're all that's left you