So it's been another year. Looking back, I haven't done anything much to be proud of myself. I'm still standing at the same position at work; I'm still struggling in love; and I've got lots of issues with friends lately because I become more and more cranky everyday, not mention that someone suddenly stepped into my life exactly 2 months ago and screwed up everything...
Despite the facts above, I still thank God for loving, protecting and guiding me on my journey called life in the last 365 days; my family who has always been by my side in my every ups and downs in life; my friends who always care for me and help me out with all my matters in life.
I bought a Triangel doll few years ago in Singapore. Ironically, based on the myth, Triangel comes from old ancient Rome, but I couldn't sense a nose of it in Rome.
I found few versions of this Triangel legend.
Version 1: (Greek myth)
In ancient Greek mythology, the little angel Cupid has two arrows, one is gold and one is silver. The gold arrow is used to create fate between two mortals, and the silver arrow is used to destroy fate. However, due to the playful nature of the Cupid, he sent out the silver arrow to destroy fate for fun. The Greek goddess Aphrodite, the goddess of love, does not want any fate/destiny to be destroyed, so she sent out this Triangel, love/fate angel to lead fate to mortals.
Version 2 (Guardian Angel of Love)
The Triangel originated from a famous Italian allusion. In the times of ancient Rome, there was a kindhearted lady falling in love with a young man who was witched to be indifferent to the lady. The lady was so depressed and sit in front of the window crying day and night. Finally, her love had touched the Gods. They sent the Triangel to the lady which could make the witch appear in front of the young man. The young man realized that his true love was the lady and they had fallen in love again!
Now, in Italy, girls like to place their Triangels in their rooms and let the Triangels bless them.
I really wanna give this to someone because I hope that it can guard that person love, although this might be a silly idea. I will be looked at as an idiot again.
I got a message from a friend "Have a nice weekend."
This weekend suddenly seems so long to me without someone. Work and sleep are probably the solutions for me to survive this weekend.
And reading Bible too...
Let's rock through the night...
Suddenly feel like missing someone in London. I wonder when she'll come back to Australia.
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
I hitched a ride, until the coast To leave behind, all of my ghosts Searching for something, I couldn't find at home
Can't get no job, can you spare a dime? Just one more hit, and I'll be fine I swear to God, this'll be my one last time!
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
When it gets dark, in Pigeon Park Voice in my head, will soon be fed By the vultures, that circle round the dead!
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
I never once thought, I'd ever be caught! Staring at sidewalks, hiding my track marks! I left my best friends, or did they just leave me?
In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground In a crooked little town, they were lost and never found Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground Run away before you drown, or the streets will beat you down Fallen leaves, fallen leaves, fallen leaves... on the ground
I'm still at work. I'm thinking whether I should stay here tonight or not because it won't make much difference if I go home at 9pm and come back to work at 4am.
I wished there hadn't been any changes at the workplace so far. My life was so good before. My heart and my mind were really really peaceful, and the plant is kind of a very peaceful place where I'd like to spend my whole day in there to hide from the sad truth that I've got to face whenever I get home.
Everything changes lately. Nothing's ever been the same again. I don't wanna go home. I don't wanna face the truth that I can never live with my family the same way likfe before. I don't wanna stay at work either because I feel like I'm a loser. Oh yes, a loser.
