the last few weeks i've been thinking more about emotions in general, trying to learn how to read my own, understand what's causing them and keep a healthy perspective. instead of just reacting to feeling tired or stressed, i'm finally taking some good advice to pause an think. heh oftentimes i conclude that it's really unfair to blame it on others or projects, so much of it is self-created.

there was a cute story helen mentioned to me this past weekend, a story about spilled milk. it's a simple concept but it did make me think.

helen was saying that if her little girl elizabeth (who is fairly young, maybe 5 or so?) spilled milk on the kitchen table, elizabeth wouldn't be worried. she would say something to the effect of, "i'm sorry mom, it was an accident" and know fully well that her mom would forgive her and love her still. not a big deal. on the other hand, if one of elizabeth's friends from school went over to play and spilled the same glass of milk, the friend would be franctic and would say something more to the effect of, "i'm so, so, so sorry mrs. chae. it was an accident, i'm so sorry about that." 

 

the difference isn't just the comfort of knowing someone for that long, it's the comfort of knowing that someone loves you so much, and will forgive you and still love you when you do something wrong. after helen told us this story, I realized that i'm quite guilty of treating those who treat me the best, the worst. and even worse, for those folks, i nitpick at the bad and don't appreciate the good. not at all times of course, but I let it happen too often. it's something i have to fix. i'll start with mom

current feeling tired, physically and mentally i sppose. too many things goin on, lots of exertion of energy. craving a nice nap at this very moment :)

hehe, you try!