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Last Night ...

Sunday, Jul 26, 2009 1:57PM / Standard Entry

Last night was definitely the highlight of my entire week. It is good to know friends that actually care. This wasnt one of my best week ever possibly. Perhaps I was wrong but then I feel as if I m always being forced into corners. Out of my own will, out of my own comfort zone. Need to stop trying to be nice when perhaps all people want to do is to see you fall and crash and burn.

On a positive note, my Bodycon dresses are finally arriving after what seem like 10 millions years. They are really pretty and the sellers are some of the nicest people ever. And I should be bringing in some more stuff from the States. Emmie, you are the best friend one can ever have. Really :D

BKK soon. Cannot. effing. wait. Need to get out of this fucked up country. Still debating whether I should bring the laptop along.

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Wrong-ed ...

Thursday, Jul 23, 2009 2:21PM / Standard Entry

If you all think that my life is like a bed of roses. You all are so wrong. I dont know what will become of me in the next 6 months. I have no control over a lot of things. And dont think that just because I m buying branded bags one after another means that my life is that good. If you do not know about my problems, dont think that I m one of the happiest girls in the world. Cos I can tell you I m not. I have self esteem problems, my personal life is nearly in ruins and I have been trying to put up a brave front and try to not break down. Cos it will only add on to my list of failures. You all know nothing.

I m already so tired. I cant handle it all. I cannot grow up so fast. It is like a whirlwind just came into my life one fine day and torn everything that was so important to me. I dont want to have any regrets anymore. It is one after another till the point I feel stuck. I dont know what to do with my life, my problems but to stick it out and make the best out of everything.

I cant wait to fly out next weekend even though it is part work. But then I need to be away from people I know for a while. It is too dangerous. I have lost a lot of faith in a lot of things. There are no more whys. It has been replaced with a lot of hows. In the meantime, I hope I wont be so dumb and then do something I regret in Bangkok. It always does such funny stuff to me. ALWAYS.

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Woahhhh ...

Thursday, Jul 23, 2009 1:16AM / Standard Entry

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Promise ...

Monday, Jul 20, 2009 10:21PM / Standard Entry

I might actually follow my dad on his idea of a trip to Nepal. I just need to escape to a place whereby I can be not as stressed as I m now. And face all my problems. Perhaps then I will be so much happier to the point I might actually reach nirvana or something.

I m so sick of seeing everyone as they are for now. Even if they are not physically with me. Seriously, I dont even know why I have friends for. Fuck it, this is one main reason why I dont want to go back to Melbourne. It is far too torturous. Fuck Melbourne, my life is basically one huge empty shell.

Glad people are actually as shallow as they seem to be. It makes me look better as a person.

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Uncomfortable plus more Chanel ...

Monday, Jul 20, 2009 1:38PM / Standard Entry

I skipped school today. For a valid reason I supposed ? Never felt so uncomfortable for the past few months already. Couldnt breathe, couldnt sleep, add in nausea and a pounding migraine. You will get a very very grounchy me :( Went to see the doctor today and I hope it will all be ok. I dont want to do anymore checkups or whatever. They are horrid. But I m still at work. I just hope that I would have the energy to make it all the way through to 8pm.

Either way, what do you guys think of the Chanel large shopping bag ? Yes or No ? Been eyeing it for sometime alr. Maybe I can convince the mother to get it for me for my birthday which is many more months down the road :S And yes, I know it looks like a replica of my 2.55 albeit in a tote form -.-"

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