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  • “We are shaped by our thoughts; we become what we think. When the mind is pure, joy follows like a shadow that never leaves.”

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    Saturday, Jul 5, 2008 7:48AM / Members only

    As a child I had considered and researched careers in the FBI, CIA, and practicing law. Yes, this demonstrates my nerdiness. After reviewing criteria/requirements, etc, I had decided that I didn’t think that I would be qualified in the future, and that I didn’t contain the intelligence enough to pursue such careers.

     

    After experiencing injustice, and discrimination for years, plus a recent comment made by one of my supervisors a switch went off in my mind. I finally realized that I’ve grown tired of this feeling of helplessness. I want to feel capable of not only being independent, but able to provide for my family financially and with any legal affairs they have. I’ve watched my parents have to handle the situation of their aging and dying parents. All sorts of legal difficulties, including finding where my grandfather put his will during his last days as cancer spread to his brain. Perhaps as my sister says I am too young to be considering these things, but then again my parents have no retirement savings and because of her attitude I know I will be the one caring for them as they age. I think that it is a smart choice to pursue law school after I finish my undergraduate. My personality and skills suit practicing law. Such a career choice also matches my personal and professional goals. It’s a hard, difficult, and long path something which I understood at age 12. Weighing the pros and cons with my family I believe that it is worth the struggle.

     

    Fitting I suppose that it’s 4th of July and my family is watching HBO’s John Adams’ series.

     

    For the record I only dislike 4th of July for the fireworks and drinking that’s so common place, my dogs will not sleep tonight and nor will I because of the American tradition of blowing stuff up ;)

     

    I am considering a trip down to LA in a few months, not sure if I'll stay in a hotel or crash at someone's place. Let me know if you would want to hang out :)

     

    *hugs*

     

    P.S. My stepdad just handed us rootbeer floats which is cool cause I never drink pop. And I almost just cried at the image of Abigail Adams giving water to passing revoluntionary soliders.

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    Thursday, Jul 3, 2008 4:17AM / Members only

    So I'm getting close to 50,000! I think I may actually do something for this milestone, I may send a card yeah!!! :P

    I skated today, got back on the ice, I sucked in comparison to how I used to skate, but I was okay, tired legs ~~ now I'm super tired, was tired when I got there lol. So yup..

    I've been really busy with stuff and working...

    I need a nap :)

  • Monday, Jun 30, 2008 1:54PM / Members only

    Today proved difficult, a challenge I failed...

    But by the end of the day, now....I've had some powerful experiences...

    Around 8 pm I went out for meditation. Earlier we had tremendous thunder/lighting storms throughout the day. While I was meditating with my mala and chanting I stopped. I could hear the wind blowing sweetly crisp. I looked up, sitting on the front deck. Massive trees above me across the street just blowing and swaying as if tiny trees, it was the most beautiful thing I've seen. Through the gaps I could see the strange sunset, pink though grayish-light blue storm sky....I sat there and listened and watched the beautiful gusts sweep in. I honored that something special was happening. I then placed my head down and prayed heartfelt.

    I have so much to learn still.

     

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  • posted on Saturday, Jul 5, 2008 4:15PM  [Report]
    Dear carmellarose, I am glad to see you some of the information, and you can become friends? » Han Jinlong

  • posted on Friday, Jul 4, 2008 3:12AM  [Report]
    Ni hao!!!

  • posted on Thursday, Jul 3, 2008 9:57AM  [Report]
    Thanks. Nice meeting you here.

  • posted on Wednesday, Jul 2, 2008 5:19AM  [Report]
    Thanks for your kind welcome Carmellarose!!!

  • posted on Tuesday, Jul 1, 2008 2:38PM  [Report]
    I am busy at taking tests recently, very few chance access to the net, but after working through it I guarantee that I would send regards to everybody surely!

  • posted on Tuesday, Jul 1, 2008 11:17AM  [Report]
    hi there

  • posted on Tuesday, Jul 1, 2008 12:03AM  [Report]
    Thanks, but it was a glitch. I'm back to being a nobody again. =P

  • posted on Monday, Jun 30, 2008 2:38PM  [Report]
    thx...

  • posted on Monday, Jun 30, 2008 2:07PM  [Report]
    Thanks Carmellarose, actually quite a long time didn't chat with u rdy...anyway how was ur day recently? have a great great days ok!!!
  • Official artist
    posted on Sunday, Jun 29, 2008 4:15PM  [Report]
    Thanks carmellarose!
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