low mood
Thursday, Nov 1, 2007 4:27PM / Standard Entry
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Haven't written anything in my blog for a long time.
now i am stuffed with many things,the most upset thing is i am on the edge of breaking up with my girlfriend,i am so miserable about that,because she is my first lover,sometimes i doubt whether i am a good guy or not.to be honest,i really don't know what the girls think in their mind,i find it difficult dealing with the girls.
My girlfriend said that i didn't take good care of her,every time i told her where i didn't do well,but she did't tell me,so i thought a lot about that,and because of it,i was hurt a lot by that.
one day she told me she was tired staying with me,i asked the reason,she said that she wanted more freedom,she liked the feelings of being alone,ok i gave her much time to think over our relationship, aucaully my heart was bleeding at that time.
now i am getting out of that situation,i want to forget it entirely,i think i have made my mind,i should focus on my study,i know it well take a toll on my study and my life,because i am not a good person who can control myself very well,i am easily addicted to something,why do i think so,because i have experienced that,i am afraid of experiencing it again,even i think it is a not a brave deed,but i have no other choice,because that is me,at this point ,i feel ashamed of myself.
i hope i really can recover from the problems i was involved in,i should face the life bravely,i say to myself,my task now is to study.
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