Yesterday i resigned myself .In the last two years  i was the monitor of my class.

At first i thought  i will have enough time to do what i like to do,but after that i couldn't get  used to the life without many things to do.When my  classmates wanted to have an activity and asked us what kind of activities we can have,i recalled the time when i was the monitor ,i said how about going  out  to KTV,to sing karaoke.My classmates didn't accept my suggestion,i was depressed by  that.i know that some of them didn't want to sing karaoke.i should forgive them.it's just a piece of advice.what made me so sad was someone said that going to KTV was just what i wanted.

 Ok.let's drop it.i don't want to say it any longer.i should be happy.i should focus on my own business.i am a normal person now,so i should get used to the life.

And there are still many things for me to do.i should think seriously about my future.i should be at full stretch to realise my goal .

I think i am much better now.

 Thinking of not having written anything in my blog so long.

 Today it's a good beginning.Hope i can persist to the end.

i wish anyone around me will enjoy  their life.

 Haven't written anything in my blog for a long time.

now i am stuffed  with many things,the most upset thing is i  am  on the  edge  of breaking up with  my  girlfriend,i  am so  miserable about  that,because  she is  my  first  lover,sometimes  i  doubt  whether i am  a  good  guy  or not.to  be honest,i really  don't know what the girls think in their mind,i  find  it  difficult  dealing with  the  girls.

  My girlfriend said  that i  didn't take good care of her,every  time i told her where  i didn't do well,but she did't tell me,so i  thought  a lot about that,and because  of it,i  was hurt  a lot by  that.

 one day  she told  me  she was  tired  staying with me,i asked  the reason,she  said  that she wanted  more freedom,she liked the feelings  of being  alone,ok  i gave her much time to think over our relationship, aucaully my  heart   was bleeding at that time.

 now  i am getting out of that situation,i  want  to forget it  entirely,i think i have made  my mind,i should focus  on my study,i know it well take a  toll on my study and my life,because i am not  a good  person who can control myself very well,i am  easily addicted  to  something,why  do  i think so,because  i  have experienced that,i am afraid of experiencing it  again,even i think it is a not a brave deed,but i have no other choice,because that is me,at this  point ,i feel ashamed of myself.

  i  hope  i really can recover from the problems i was involved in,i should face the life bravely,i say  to myself,my  task  now is  to study.

     i came  home with  my elder  brother in this  national  holiday,we  just stayed  at home  three days,but  i  did  many  things,i helped my parents carry  rice home,it  is  not  hard  for me  to do  this  job,but  for  my  parents,it  is very  difficult,because  my parents are  in their 50s,and  my father  had an operation when  i was  in  my childhood,even  though  my  parents  are  not in their  elements,they  still work  on our farm,and  i am so proud  of them.

  three days passed  so  fast,i  didn't  have  a  good time  in this holiday,and  i  am  happier than  any  holiday,but  i really  don't  know whether  my elder  brother  is  happy,he  helped  me  do  much  house  work,at first  i just  want to  show  him my  hometown  and  guide  him  to visit  some  places,but  we  didn't do  as  we had expected,so  i  feel sorry.anyway,the national holiday  is a  small part of happy time in my  life,i will remember it.

 it  is  mid-autumn  festival today,i am so happy ,because  i have  been received  so many mooncakes,and i also  have  bought  many mooncakes for my friends  and teachers,even though it costs a lot,but  i think  it is  worth doing that,and  the  most  happiness  is  that  we  don't  have self-study in our classroom,so i have  got  time  to  write  the  feelings of  today.

  unfortunately,my elder sister who i  regard her  as  my  real sister had failed to  pass  the TEM 4,so  she  is  very sad about the result of her examination,and  i really  don't know  how  to make her cheer  up,you know  on  one hand,it is the mid-autumn festival,on the other  hand,she  hadn't gotten through  the TEM 4,what's worse,she had  failed  two  times.

  although,my  happiness are  outweighted than the sadness,i hope  that  everybody around me  are  happy every day.

long time  no  writing things  in my  blog,every  day  there are  so many things  happened  in my life ,but  i really  don't know  what to  write,mabye  it  is just an  excuse.

 i have  come back  school  for  a  month,and  i have  been accomstommed to the  college  after  a long  summer  holiday,i  think  i  am  a person who is  easily to  get used to places where  i come. on one hand,it  is  a good  thing,on  the other hand,it  just  show  my lack  of  creativity,i  just know  how  to get used  to the environment,but  i don't know  how to change  it,how to change the bad  situation,how  to make  my life more  comfortable,so   at  this point i feel ashamed of myself,and it  is also  the reason that i couldn't achieve  a lot in  which  i  am invovled in.

  i have  realized  it so long,sometimes  i want to  put  it  into practice,but  just  a  moment,i  forget it , forget what  i should do,which  is  very useful or which is  the key to my  success.

i have  made  my  mind,i  have  to change  my life,i want  challenge life,if  i want  to  have  a  bright future,now  i should  divide my  dreams into  many  parts,and  i should  depend on the parts  making  each part  come  true step by  step.i think  i can do  it,every time  i say  to myself to  encourage me  to  do  something useful  and  meaningful.i  do  think  i am less clever than others.