LOVELESS

L-Life is not that easy...
  Thatz why I'm tryin to keep holding on upon myself,
  How hard it is, I must endure it...

O-Opponent...
  I've always have an opponent,
  Never live my life without it...
  I'm not a kind of person that troublemaker,
  But people juz can't get enough of me...
  Makin my name bad as HELL is one of their duty...
  Juz as they know, how much that I hate them!!

V-Vacancy is what that always surround me,
  I never live my life as fullfill life like the others...
  I wish that someday I will find my 'TREASURE',
  That will light my life bright, hot, warm as SUN...
  I never wanted to be like this forever,
  I'm gonna find my happiness, no matter what it takes...

E-Escape from miserable life is what I do,
  I never wanted an unpleasant life...
  What I want is, simple life where the people who I care,
  I adore, I love will live happily, peacefully...
  I wanna see them happy...

L-Love is what I keep myself away...
  Never really trust in it...
  For me, love is too complicated to understand...
  Too hopeless if U wanna hold on upon it...
  It's like diving in the sea which have a lot of shark in  
  it..
  And it's like U digging for your own grave...
  When it's end, It's all turn back to ourself..
  Do us really need to be betrayed, to be ditch, to be 
  hated..
  Love is not something that can mess around, play around if
  U don't know what love stand for...

E-Endless lust toward someone...
  But I did't go for it...
  I did't even try for it...
  To shy to express, to proud to confess...
  Till the end, I would't think I will capture him like him
  capture my interest, my eyes, my heart, and my souls...

S-Sorrow in my souls never cured...
  Sorrow that I had, never ever leave me...
  I've always tryin to cure my heart, but what I'm doing 
  always makin more saddness came to me...
  It's even ate part of me... Makin me become a living
  person live without a souls...
  My entiry body weak as trembling leaf that been blows away
  by the winds...
  I can't even speak clearly, b'coz I don't know what the
  things that running in my minds...
  Sorrow, will U someday leave me??
  I wanna have my own life too...

S-Sadness have been felt by me when I was a kid..      
  I even know how hurt being betrayed...
  How hurt when someone U love actually is not a
  person that you know really know well after the
  his changes..
  I've cry so much since I was kid, I even cannot
  count how many times my eyes pop out the teary
  tears...
  Just as much as U know, my heart tremmbled hardly,
  shouting loudly, screaming silently in pain...
  I'm a hopeless gurl... But I don't give up...
  From all the pain that I experienced once, I make
  it as a treasure values...
  B'coz from there, I step up my mind, my game...
  To not lose my tears again, not anymore...

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Friend is what I seek,
Friend is what I want,
But could I find them??:clueless:
Yet in finding them, I keep bump into finding an enemies...
Haaa~~ What a bad luck!!!

I do have a friends, but inside their mind, heart and soul,
Are they really think I'm their friend??:confused:
Or they just pretending to be one??
I hate those fake friends...
Are't they tired on being nice in front of me??

I've always be nice to everyone,
I'm not that type of person whom selective on makin friends,
But yet, I'm was tell being an arrogant, proud..
And the most annoying is, this people keep stick beside me,
Even after what they have said...

Are they the one who I can consider as friends??
Are they worth to be call one's??
Are they gonna help me when I'm trembling??
Or they just gonna walk away and leave me like nothin happening..
It does really hurting my feeling..:sad:

I wanna extinguish them from my life...
I wanna forget bout they who I've call friends...
I wanna block them from hurting me again and again...
I've tired on believing in something whose not worth it,
I don't wanna to be foolish again...

Rite now, I'm searching for once whom worth to be call friends,
Someone who will stand by my side,
Someone that can fully accept who I am...
Someone who truth towards they feeling, thought and opinion...
Someone who really sincere to me...

For me, friends is what U can count on, holding on...
Someone willing to help comfort U when U're cryin...
When U're sad, they try to make U laugh...
Someone who will scored U when U makin mistake,
And someone U who will clear U name if U were judge...

Friends that I search, is a person that will always remember on me, no matter how apart we are, no matter how different we were...
This friends is the one who I will always keep in my heart, mind, thought and soul...
The one whom I will miss always, love always...:warmfuzzy:
More than anyone...

Even in my future life, I will never aside this friends,
although that time I was belonged to someone else...
Friends is a stranger whom U known earlier than your love,
That is why, they know U better than your love...
They understand so much bout U... No matter how change we are..
They will never acuse U for small matter... Not like your love whom always complain on our changes in attitude or appearance..
They do really have a lot to jugde, even though thiz love just know U...
Thiz is the gap that differenate friends and love...

Friends will never die, even though their bodies gone...
F.R.I.E.N.D.S U're the ONE... :love: