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• friends

  Sunday, Jun 3, 2007 1:54PM / Standard Entry / thinkin out loud

  i have always had these crazy thoughts about friends and friendship. maybe its from being brought up watching too many movies and cartoons and mac gyver that this idea developed from. (one of the best representations i think of friendship is this old skewl DBZ pic. ive always used it as an album cover for all of my pictures with my friends.)
  
  
  like these guys.. they have been through alot together. saved the planet countless times and even went through space, time and other dimensions and still stuck as friends.
  
  i've always had this romantic notion of stickin with your neighborhood friends since grade skewl, growing old together, seeing each other's kids, and your kids will be friends too, and so on.
  
  a few weeks ago, i got so jaded. this high regard of friendship got me in so much trouble because im the type that if im givin it my all, i would expect that the other party would give it 100% too. and if i see a less than stellar performance, i would consider them "not giving a shite".
  
  i fell to this notion that nobody really cares and the only one you could really depend on is yourself.  i was able to say "fuck it all" and ran around being the lone rebel for a week, not calling anybody, being all lone wolf and crap.
  
  and then suddenly a surprise birthday party that my girlfriend threw for me. then the accident happened. suddenly people came out of the woodwork tyring to help out, assuring me that i could always count on them when i need them. then i am touched. i guess people do care afterall and they really mean it from the bottom of their hearts.
  
  sometimes, going through a dark time, you will see those little points of light that makes everything a whole lot better. then i realize how lucky i really am and how God really loves me by putting these wonderful little points of lights in my life that would help me go through the darkness when i really need them.
  
  thanx to everybody. and i hope i wasnt too much of an ass in our lifetime together. and even if i was, thanx for stickin with me.
  
  
  

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• my beautiful baby!! what have they done to you?

  Thursday, May 31, 2007 3:18AM / Standard Entry / me bitching

  sniff...  i used to go in my garage, look at your beautiful self and think to myself.. "how the heck can i bring u up to my bedroom?"
  
  i wanted to lay u on my bed, put a blanket around u, sleep and cuddle with u the whole night.. (no sexual connotations here, u sick bastards-- its like how one adores their teddy bear)
  
  but look at u now... on an impound lot (well, i got her back in my garage now actually). jagged plastic and metal stickin out everywhere ready to stab me any which way it can.
  
  the frame isnt as twisted as i thought the cops said they were. and the damage wasnt as extensive. ure as shiny and glittery as u once was. only more.. broken. sniff sniff...
  
  my friend was goofin on me last nite.. "where did the back of the frame go?!? u criss angel-ed it!!" ( we were watching mindfreak last night). and i, for the life of me, dont know were it went too... maybe to the place where all good frames go when they die. i hope your happy there, old friend. u carried me and the butts of other hawt chicks efficiently  a bunch of times through the years. u deserve to be there..
  
  they said the engine still works. maybe i can build a bad ass go-kart out of it. but a go kart isnt as fun as riding u, my blue shiny baby. we have been through alot together. seen many different things, went through a whole bunch of close calls,  experienced some weird shite, and seen alot of beautiful sceneries...ill see u in another life time. see ya at tha crossroads...
  
  

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• premonitions and prophecies

  Saturday, May 26, 2007 3:41PM / Standard Entry / me bitching

  wanna hear a weird story? so for the past few months, there has been tons of accidents at work. people totaling their corvettes, people rolling their cars over, people riding their bikes drunk and ending up in comas... it is just soooo freaking weird.
  
  last nite, another dude-- nice man-- super tall mexacan guy-- middle aged.. he sliced up his wrists real good and hit the vein. he's all good though my boss said he picked up his check earlier today. but i was still totally freaked out. i was like "WWHHAAATTT TTHHEEEE FFFFF##***KK?!?! what the hell is goin on this company? this is totally freakin me out.. i dont think imma ride my bike for a while..."
  
  but earlier this afternoon i was like "hmm? should i ride? its kinda hot... but soon it'll be hotter. i think its a motorcycle nite tonight..."
  
  before that, a few weeks ago-- i have been hearing all these horror stories from my frieds about their bikes. and i have been thinking that its begging to be real hot-- and it's goona suck to eat crap on the 200 degree asphalt. "hmm.. maybe i should buy an armor as my gift for myself this year" i thought.
  
  so present day-- here i am stopped at a stop light. and what do i see careening towards me from the reflection of the back  windows of the SUV infront of me?-- another SUV.
  
  so i screamed inside my helmet "slow the f*ck down u mother..." BOOM!
  
  it felt like i had a few seconds  of reaction time that i could've done something.  i could have jumped off and let my bike fall. but i wasnt gonna scratch my baby up. so i just said to myself  "hopefully SHE'LL stop in time" (somehow, i KNEW the driver was gonna be a woman).
  
  well she didnt. my boss later told me that my bike was underneath the SUV infront of me. i heard the cops say that the frame of my bike was twisted allover.
  
  somehow, i was thrown on the side of the road. hahaha.. u shouldve heard me "AAAAAAOOOOOOOWWWWWW!!!!! FFFFFFF****CCCCKKKK!!! DDDAAAMMMNNN!! OOOOOOWWWWWWWW!" the lady was so panicked she got up to my face and tried to explain to me why she hit me. i tried to listen but ended up rolling my eyes and thinking to myself "are u freakin kiddin me? u think i could understand u right now?!?!"
  
  but u know what? i'm ok. although my knee is super messed up right now-- and they found fractures on my other leg bone from a snowboarding accident that i ignored... the trauma doctor said that it looks like imma be fine. i still have to see the orthopedic doctor though this tuesday (hooray memorial day weekend!!) so we reallly could find out what the dillyo.
  
  God's totally watching over me. and that alpine stars armour saved my ass. im thinking of just wearing one all the time 24/7.
  
  
  
  
  

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• i'm so sick and tired of the government lying to me!!

  Friday, May 25, 2007 5:20PM / Standard Entry / conspiracy theories

  ok-- so were bored at work. and these jerkoffs started talking about philosophy (again). it started from "u don't know what's everything that's going on around you"... and this african co worker of mine getting confused cause he loves holding on to traditional thoughts...
  
  all these happening while im browsing here in the jet li forums. as i was about to yell for everyone to shut the fuck up, they started talking about the "fake moon landing". now i'm one who believes in the moon landing-- specially after seeing buzz aldrin-- in his old fogey body-- punch out a young punk reporter hassling him.
  
  so i logged into youtube just to shut these guys up-- to show em these documentaries and make em see how silly these thoughts about the "fake moon landing" are.
  
  so i saw the videos. and-- uhm.. yeah.. it does seem  like the fuckin thing is fake.
  
  now i'm confused.  let me go back to my wikipedia searches of batman, robin, and hellblazer. dont leave these thoughts in my head....
  
  
  
  

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