How long can this last? How long more can i hold on to such hazy faith?
Are we not supposed to be together? 2 people belong to 2 different world trying to make a life together.
Can we really make it? How long can this love remains that strong?

I knew this path ain’t gonna be easy… never at all. But all i hoped is that we can make it a little easier by a pinch of understanding and compromising factors in it.

2 is better than 1? not in every case
when these 2 different souls met, they try to be the right one for each other. Try, and they continue trying.
With so much conflicts and problems the faced throughout the journey, this couple still hold on to their believes that they can make it. Coming to half a year, coming to the day of their 181th day… even before that, doubts started knocking on their door. More decisions are made out of some unhappiness conversations. They have to gulp their own thoughts and pretend that everything’s gonna be ok.
She asked herself many times, so many many times… can she handle this any longer? She told herself she could and that’s the only reason why she is still holding on, TIGHT!
With one little hope that one day, he will understand.

it’s one simple wish with lots of complicated structure into it. One wish, but Love is not the answer for all.

She’s holding on. She’s loving him. But she’s sad too.
the question is… does he know? does he care?

x.o.x.o
Irene J. Luxt

天是灰色的
雨是透明的
心是灰色的
我是透明的哈～
愛是盲目的
戀是瘋狂的
痴是可悲的
我是絕對的
你是自由的
我是附屬的
她是永遠的
我是錯誤的
夢是美好的
你是殘酷的
我是灰色的
我是透明的
你是自由的
我是附屬的
她是永遠的
我是錯誤的
夢是美好的
你是殘酷的
我是灰色的
我是透明的
夢是美好的
你是殘酷的
我是灰色的
我是透明的
天是灰色的
雨是透明的
心是灰色的
我是透明的哈～

or lots?

Been into it for the past months and never felt happier eversince im back in HK.
All those good times spent, all the little things ever happened between us meant so much to me.
But a relationship is still a relationship that can never run away from fights and arguments whether it comes to a productive ending or just a hanging solution.
I don’t like having to argue over trivial matters nor ignore it. I jus love to be at peace and serene.
It hurts me when i have to step on my own morals to win your heart, to catch your attention and to let u show how much u love me.
It kills my sanity to have to act different roles and do things tat’s not me, just to feel how much i mean to you.

With all these, you came down telling me that you don’t make promises.
So afterall, it’s a love with no promises. It’s us without secureness.
It’s a relationship with no safety measures that can break anytime without notice.

How am i going to trust that u r the reliable someone?

a question i’m still looking for the answer

all i know is that, i am not as happy as i am before

At times we think it’s easy
naively go through each day,
At times we think it’s free
unknowingly we pay much more.

When you’re beside, everything seems perfect
but
When you’re missing just a moment,
The World all just seems so wrong.

What am i doing with you around me each day?
What kind of life i’m living with your uncertain love around me all night?

I do feel fear, i am afraid.

Having you is a gift, having to learn to live without u is a torture.
Is it a lesson God prepared?
or
Is it a gift God has gave?

Who am i to say?
Once again, i’m fluttered~

it’s been so long i have not been so inspired to spill my misery because i’ve not felt it for some time. Does it mean it’s coming back once again?

Let time proves it all
Let your love leads the ending
Let ourselves walk the milkyway ahead

I’m just another sullen soul again

How do u feel when u see the one u care is with another girl right in front of u and u are actually with another ouldn’guy wh is his friend? That’s exactly how i felt that nite but couldn’t express a shit about it coz obviously i am trying to bury all inside a never ending hole and not to float up ever again. But let’s assume the outcome is pretty ok coz til the end, i know i had someone who cared.

I’m thankful of his care and i’m thankful of babyboy’s unlimited love towards me no matter what i’ve done and my kind of life.

It hurts to let go but i am just going to do that, no point wandering around at a place where i can’t even stand as i wish and sit as i wish

Birthday was good as expected even though i take it as a gathering more to a birthday party all i care are my lovelies and not my growing another year older definitely.

Pictures are viewable at my facebook album, might or might not post it here as im so busy these days!!!
i’m moving house and everything is by myself ><

Til then again!
Loves
Irene