I wanna cry... There's just too many things going on in life right now. I feel like things are coming all at once, way too fast and I don't know how to handle it. At all. I've been struggling with so many things, trying to juggle things all at once, trying to tell myself that I'm able to handle all these things. But in reality, I know I can't. I'm so tired, I'm so physically AND mentally tired. I can't take this anymore. I'm so stressed out about school, I'm failing Calculus and I'm doing so mediocre in my other classes. As a 90+ student, I am not taking this easily, at all. College apps are due soon and I'm only halfway thru, I'm not 100% finished with the Common App essay, personal statements nor supplements. And I'm applying to 15 schools... I wanna cry thinking about this. SATs are in two weeks, and if I don't score high on this exam, I might as well be going to clown school -.- Academics are already stressing me out. Then I have family problems, my grandparents have health problems and that's causing me to be in depression mode. My parents don't understand me and I don't want to start arguments so I try my best to accommodate them. Work isn't going to well either... I work at a tutoring place with kids, and they are so loud, so misbehaved and so bad. My boss isn't understanding, he doesn't let me raise my voice at them, he thinks I need training because I banged the door to quiet down the kids and get their attention. I think he needs training -.- how else am I supposed to get the kids' attention if they are yelling if I don't raise my voice or use other "loud" methods to get their attention? He's such an asshole, I just can't -.- Last but not least, I'm having relationship problems. My significant other and I are currently taking a break from each other because of the many conflicts we've been having and the fact that we're both too busy for each other. I feel like the break is necessary because I need this time to get myself back together and focus on academics. But I feel like life without him isn't doing me much good. I miss him too much and this break isn't working out. How am I going to make it thru the next two weeks without him!?!? Okays, I'm done ranting and complaining. Hopefully I'd be over this horrible stage in my life soon and things will resume back to normal.  Pajama day was fun tho... LOL even tho the smile on my face is fake, I feel like I should still be wearing my smile because a lot of people have told me that my big smile brightens up their day. Hopefully, tears will be off my face and a big, genuine smile will replace it soon!

Things have been going on lately that have been driving me crazy. Mainly because I am so disorganized and lazy. SAT II's are in 4 days and guess what? I haven't even opened my review book yet. Totally not good news. Hopefully I'll have less schoolwork tomorrow and start to review some math problems from that book. Definitely got to ace that exam cuz there aren't second chances. Anyway, besides the SATs, I've recently been assigned a pretty interesting assignment. We're supposed to get into groups and film, write and edit our own Spanish film. Doesn't that sound super fun? I'm super excited about it and now we're in the process of writing our script. Can't wait to start filming and editing! I absolutely want to share the final product with everyone since I will be editing! :) Cannot wait at all!!! 

Had a wonderful spring break so far! But it's time to get back to reality because I've got tons of work to do and there's only two days left. Gotta finish all written work by Saturday night and then leave Sunday for studying. 

2011 has been a very difficult year for me. My parents and I have had constant arguments and I believe that it's related to the fact that we barely get to spend time together. Finally, today, I got the chance to go out with just me, my mom and my dad. I realized that it's a great feeling spending time with my parents. :) I hope we'll be able to just go out and relax like that some time soon!