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我的博客の歌~Emotion by Destiny's Child
Friday, Apr 17, 2009 10:44PM / Standard Entry
Emotion by Destiny's Child
It's over and done
but the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
instead of me tonight?
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Dont you know there's nobody left in this world
to hold me tight
Dont cha know there's nobody left in this world
to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Dont you know there's nobody left in this world
to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
And where are you now, now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow wherever you go
I'll cry me a river that leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart
In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotion that's taken me over
Caught up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Nobody left in this world
to hold me tight
Nobody left in this world to kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight
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忆儿博的心情写真~*25/03/2009
Wednesday, Mar 25, 2009 2:59AM / Standard Entry
25/03/2009
雨天
2.32am
叮当，生日快乐！
在半个小时，就是凌晨三点钟，我却还在赶着工作。眼皮已经开沉重，眼珠开始泛红，痒痒的，我知道眼睛又干了。连续几天，睡觉的时间变成凌晨五六点，日夜颠倒的生活，使我脸上开始长痘痘。天哪！我的皮肤状况现在可是很糟耶，就连黑眼圈也加重了。每天睡不到八个小时，而且还日夜不停的在动脑，我身心疲惫。
开课至今，四个星期了。下个星期得交PR的那一份Assignment，要些大约两千五百个字；到现在为止，我一个字都还没开始，就连要写些什么，和朋友们都还没搞清楚。经过几番和朋友的讨论，总觉得怎么每次都会让我们感到更混乱，就算那里的教授已经回答我们的疑问了，但我们仍然一窍不通。研究几番，内心更乱。时间紧迫，工作量多且繁重，我的时间不够用。压力，像个大大的石头，压在心头，我觉得无能为力，力不从心。天哪，我现在的生活犹如在地狱般，每一样都让我心烦意乱，把我的情绪弄得乱糟糟。我没有把握兼顾每一样，也没有像他所说的那么能干。我需要一个肩膀，一个雄厚的肩膀让我依靠，让我安心，让我休息。可是我要的肩膀呢？我还在寻找。我像是一艘船，漂泊在海上，搁浅在海礁，却找不到码头停歇。如果，一切能回到2008年年尾，让我从新选择，我会在选择相同的路吗？我会做相同的决定吗？我想，我自己也不懂。后悔，有用吗？自己的决定自己得承担，得负责任。
*我想念Diploma的生活，我想念我自己的笑声，自己的顽皮捣蛋，空闲去逛街的日子，看戏不被时间所束缚，爽口的答应朋友的预约，轻松的过着每一天，看想看的书、漫画、Animation，还有我的迷你缝纫机，陪我缝出独一无二的手机袋。
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我的博客の歌~ If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys
Wednesday, Mar 25, 2009 2:55AM / Standard Entry
If I Ain't Got You by Alicia Keys
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them
And in a world on a silver platter
And wondering what it means
No one to share, no one who truly cares for me
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you
If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
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忆儿博的心情写真~*22/03/2009
Sunday, Mar 22, 2009 5:17PM / Standard Entry
22/03/2009
晴天
3.53pm
再次冲了凉，花了好长的时间，让水洒在头上，再流到脚下。水好冷，我起了鸡皮疙瘩。围墙倒塌了，发现的时候已经太迟，已经被人攻陷，我忘了防卫。昨晚，二度关上电脑时已经凌晨四时五十。在床上辗转难眠，卷缩在被单里，觉得时冷时热，我想我要生病了。望着天花板，抱着小枕头，脑又开始不自觉地胡思乱想。那起手机，慢慢删除一些信息，一直到快要进入上午六时，才再勉强自己紧闭眼睛，稳住呼吸。睡着的时候，不懂已是什么时候。断断续续的醒来了三次，三次各让我发不同的梦，梦醒时分，我却毫无记忆。最后一次醒来，已经中午十二点半，想睡，却睡不下了。
心情，稍微平复些些，但依然提不起劲做功课。话，我是听见了，也进入我的脑了，我不懂消化出来的成果会是如何，可能会坦然面对，可能会逃避。发现自己开始语无伦次，有些事，一言难尽。迟些或许会独自一个人到《女皇海湾广场》去买程美的生日礼物吧。以前，还不是已经习惯一个人了？是的，我现在也一样能。偶尔的联络应该已经足够。看来，我又得重新整理自己的生活习惯，让自己再重新出发。霸道和任性，什么时候出现在我身上成为我的形容词了？哈哈，天晓得？原来那样是叫做霸道，叫做任性。好吧，我明白的了。
*做了一些决定，我需要时间和某人好好沟通，否则，压力会把我压得透不过气来。我一心不能二用，所以要学会舍弃。工作，学业，感情，我得放弃至少一样。被影响的人，对不起了。
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忆儿博的心情写真~*22/03/2009
Sunday, Mar 22, 2009 4:47AM / Standard Entry
22/03/2009
晴天
3.52am
最终，还是不能睡。抗压性低的我再度败给压力，拖着疲惫的身子，躺在床上，眼睛就是无法阖上，我知道我又失眠了。我，彻底失败。专修大众传播的我，竟然无法表达自己的想法，自己的内心。什么时候表达能力变得那么差了？还是其实根本不曾好过？此时此刻，我非常的累。我懒得再去解释，懒得再去辩解，懒得再去分析，懒得再去争吵。是我太久没和人家分享心事了，所以感到难以切齿？心里，是矛盾的。我喜欢周末，但也讨厌周末。
冲了个凉，无法抚平波动的情绪。我就是那么情绪化，那么敏感，那么难以捉摸。如果不是因为它被病毒传染，手机会响起吗？原本传来的声音是让我欢喜的，只是接下来的几句让我的情绪再次进入跷跷板状态。先前想说的话，顿时吞进肚子里头，说不出来了。田+心+今+心=丑恶的，被养成的习惯刹那间变成要不得的恶习。是的，我应该要改掉那个习惯，不应该再继续。或许我重新调适回自己原本的生活状态，一切问题就会化为乌有。我应该振作，我不应该在意那么多，就让眼前的生活，简单许多，只让学业把我操作，心情自然会平复许多。
进入那个阶段，是否一切都该变少？稳定，难道真的已经是稳定了吗？少了沟通，会不会出现问题呢？次数突然下降过半，我如何能在瞬间调试？要我适应一个新环境都已经需要一段时间了，更何况是精神上和心灵上？我一个小小脑袋，无法装进那么多东西，更不能在同一时间操作不一样的事物。我并不那么聪明，并不那么厉害，也并非那么硬朗。我和一般女生一样，需要的是一个能依靠的肩膀，一双耳朵，一些安抚的话。鸟儿飞久了，可以回去鸟窝里休息；而我累了，可以让我栖息的地方呢？工作，学业，感情，该如何兼顾？我乱了方寸，错了脚步。我的决定，是不是错了？当初我是不是太高估自己了？有时候我已经不懂怎么去应付我自己，定时炸弹好像被置放在我身上，随时会把我炸个粉碎。
*心，现在是痛着的，不知道为什么；呼吸，是急促的，不晓得为什么；眼眶，湿湿的，又是为什么？原来，我什么都没有。凌晨四时四十六分，感谢电脑的荧幕陪伴我，让我把心情化成一字一句，把不愉快化为力量，滴滴答答地落在键盘上；黑暗的房间，只剩下荧幕的光线照在键盘，被眼睛遗弃的余水不被发现。
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