Are You calling me?
I can not tell
The answer that might set me free
Cause I feel like I am in a shell
Am I listening hard enough?
Because it seems so tough
Nothing but scattered roaming thoughts
The things that I have sought
Are not in full light
Or were they already in sight?
And I refused to just recognize
My only compromise?
The decision I must make
Is only for me to take
Will it be the right one?
Or will it be something I want undone?
I believe I made my judgement long ago
And I just did not know
Now I know what to do
That is to follow YouHere you are, roaming my thoughts
Knowing you are not here, has left me incessantly wrought
Leaving behind a never ending longing
Time just seems to be falling
I am here
And in tears
You are there
How do we bear?
Past times flood back into memory
They seem to flow in a perfect scenary
First, anger; then, sorrow; finally, happiness
Then the cycle starts all over again
But joy is one that will forevermore remain
Now I know
It is because you love me so
I love you all the same
And it is never in vain
All is unconditional
"Faith, Hope, and Love remained. And the greatest of these is Love."I feel this strong warming aura emanating from you
No matter what kind of essence;
The mere beloved being, thought, memories
Smiles, laughter, serenity, happiness...are those I hold dear to me true from you..
You are like the star that glows from afar,
the shining moon that looms,
the light giving sight
What you have is special
What you have is indescribable
You are one of a kind
You are part of my anchor to life
One of my everythingTears
They streak down my face because of you my dear friend
You have done nothing wrong
Yet I feel this way
Saddened, torn, untrue, alone
Why should I feel alone, I know deep in my heart you will always be there...right?
Well that's where I want you to be
But I feel like you will leave me one day
So many questions left unanswered....questions you cannot answer for me
I wish you were able to
Maybe it's for the best you need not know this
There would be no point
What can you do about it?
It's a burden I need to face on my own...no matter how much it hurts
No matter how many tears streak down my face..These unspoken words
When will it leave my lips?
Today? Tomorrow? Never?
Shall I confess?
Get it off my chest?
Been on the brink
Think I'm gonna sink
Going back and forth
Not getting anywhere
Even then, if I speak, where will that lead?
I've been holding back
Won't be long til I crack
I've tried my hardest to keep it at bay
Don't have to anymore when I have my sayA vast sea of glimmering blue oceans
Never ending intertwining tides
Bound in one motion,
Inept to tear away from its side
The ever radiant moon
Fading in and out
Trying to shroud itself by evermore shadowing clouds
Phasing incessantly naturally
In the end, only falling into the hands of vulnerability
And found to be once again enveloped in darkness's obscurity
Like ocean with tide and
Moon with darkness,
Can't help but be attached
Why do you insist on going your way?
That path you take
Can you not just stay?
Stay here, where you truly belong
For all our sakes
Do you not realize it is shattering who you are?
I believe you can become so much more
Just stop wherever you may be,
Come back..and continue your life here.. Where you once were before..
Can you not feel, no, see the immeasurable pain in the eyes of those you hold dear?
They are calling out to you
Begging for you
Wanting you, wishing to hold on to you
How can you walk away and not try to turn around?
I wish for you to return home one day, your home...
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