DESPERATE絕望

friend............?

i just cannot stop my crazy imagination    

living in imaginary world built by myself      laughing and cry ing 

i thought u care   but no one is there  nobody care

i gonna push , control

i act like a fool , ........................ alive ,smile when i cry

so thrilled ^^^ looking forward to mayday's big show

i love rock n' roll............     we are all god's kids  ... pray.......

god bless .................  still remember the things we used to say

still be nevours when i think of yesterday ........  never wanna forget about you >>>>

dying in the sun sunsunsunsunsunsunsunsunsun >>>>.. 

come back from beijing !! soso satisfied . ..... met my dearest brother & mother 

celebrating my 21 birthday .. i've been so old ... old woman ..sad..

i make three wishes . when can they come true ??  waiting ......................

i feel nothing . perhaps this is life .

most of time , the idea comes to my mind ,nothing gonna change until one day when i open my eyes in the morning ,this boring and quiet life come to the end . it's not bad ,exactly i feel nothing . i don't care . some time i may think about people having  showed up in my life. in fact , after things happen ,end .i wonder whether all those sweet and terrible things ever really happen . nothing matters.

waiting for someone who can change my mind even for just a minute . i am sure that the person will appear some time but now .

i never konw what things truely are till i get face-to-face with them . but i believe myself in my desire to live a better life .i can make it . now i have nothing but i am good .so if i want ,i can give up everything .i have nothing to be afraid of. just so so .