Want to thank friend for postinga playlist in her blog recently, after browsing it, and putting up a few of my fav songs on it, I realize that it was kinda kool having to listen to songs that I only can have on it,as most other sites dont actually allow that.... Anyways thanks @friend you saved my sanity. Noticed today while in the SB that alot of my friendz who I managed to chat with, still there and givign it heaps, only to realize that so much has changed since I been away, as I was kindly informed, one thing I do know is that topics in SB are just snipbits of each and everyone who participate in their, maybe certain topics are alittle hostile and mistakes are made, one thing we all know is that everyone makes mistakes, but only a few can step up to the plate and apologize. Stay happy keep smiling cozwen u switch off your pc, the world around us still revolves.

Anyways guys, and dolls even tho I have taken time out and stepped up my pace, I have found that my career life is pretty much ok and stable, we must look at life in general where employment is concerned is that nothing now is secure... Re: sharemarket downfall, well we all know what happened, and we here are still awaiting the ripples to disrupt our coastline, so at this stage I can say that I am doing ok, to those in the USA who maybe finding it alittle bit hard, my thoughts are with you all, and I do hope that life doesnt get too unbearable to cope with.

And last but not least, my love life is back in full swing, and I happen to wake up one morning and I felt this sense of light-ness around me, and inside me, dont be confused, I am still with the same guy, just that hes now at arms reach and if that is more than enuff to appreciate then so be it... I admire those who are in a relationship and appreciate the smallest of things about the other half. IF you see each other as him or her if its "us" or "ours" then thats Love right there.

Want to shout out to everyone on my list and say "I hope your day starts with a smile, and ends with a smile"  hugz go out to you all......

One more last thing before I leave... If anyone has read the book "Tuesday with Morrie" by Mitch Albom, then theres so much to life to look forward to and experience, dont put off anything, live each day, to its best. Dont let a terminal illness make u realize how much you wish you could have done. do it now.. time waits for no man.

Peace Out!!!

 

                              to view poem click on pic

been awhile since I stayed long enuff to chat to anyone or leave a commenet to those on my list, its not that I am ignoring people its probably cause work has been somewhat taken over. Well I havent forgotten anyone (on contrary) I difinitely  have missed EVERYONE. its almost time  tho that I am due to take a long overdue trip very soon, but more details on that as the time gets near, I wudnt want to jinx it LOL but trust me I am so looking forward to it that its almost giving me sleepless nights just thinking abt it (shudnt really think too much my brain-cells dont seem to funtion well in that category) heres a poem I wrote awhile ago hope you guys like it. Actually I hope it kinda makes sense. Have a great time everyone and god bless you all.... most of all D.Y, elle, silky, pepe and lydia.

 

 

 

For the longest time I would wake in the mornings and put on an armour, face my day as tho I was ready to go into battle, my eyes puffy, swollen from the hours previous and the last battle that I again lost, a war victim, with my heart aching, my head throbbing, my feelings numb I know if I dont call halt to rejuvinate I will again be force to surrender. The hardest thing is not having someone you can open up too, someone to listen, someone to comfort you, nor anyone to say "everything will be alright" In the past whenever I needed to be consoled I would just look at my mom and my heart was content, my troubles would just simply dissappear I would find the serenity of peace. She would never question me, just be there was enough, but she no longer is here now, dad would always come to my beck and call, just one word dad would come running, was it because I was the youngest of his girls? or was it because I reminded him of his mom? Nether -less in life, these two people became my anchor and my safety zone. Dad no longer walks this earth as well, so for the last 4years my world has taken a drastic change, some says you got to learn to crawl before you can walk, I simply gave up.Theres been one person who I have been dependant on, someone I love with every inch of my heart, someone who in good times and bad stood by me and guided me, the same person who I would abseil down a cliff to pick a exotic plant that no other humanbeing have ever attempted. But Its been a hard road to travel being so far apart, hard, bumpy, shakey... yet at our worst times we take a step back, contemplate the situation, and even with so much head-banging, we both stop,breathe, apologize, and find a solution that is acceptable. This last year I have looked at my life and think, even if you have family, they are to you just family, and friends? my friends to me are like candy, sweet at first and gone so fast... with the closest people in my life who I can be around with and I am able to have a reason to smile even for no reason at all....I consider them as my link to reality. Screw those who gives me headaches anymore as far as I can see, I dont need the dramas drumming in my head and making things difficult, people just got to realize that 2 moro is another day, you either gna spend it crying? or spend it smiling.. and for me I am gna keep smiling even if my day turns out worst, someone told me recently that I was not sociable, made me laugh, I turned and said, the reason why I am not its because nothing catches my attention. Do I prefer to be alone? probably am. But as long as I am happy, as long as he is safe, my life is content.

a funny experience happened tonight after I got home, I checked out the other halfs profile on friendster, and browsing thru his comments I noticed this chick had been sending him comments like one a day for how long who knows so many I lost count,being curious as I usually am, I checked out her profile. There on her background was a picture of herself partially nakid, thought to myself ok...hmmm, her profile picture wud have been a give away she was laying partially nakid with a pillow convering her mid section (dont try and imagine it) anyways, I sent her a email and asked her what the hell, she msg my other half and was mad told him that he need to put some sense into my head, well excuse me????? If a chick is gna post half nakid pics of herself on her site, and sends msges with love hearts twinkling away like dogs on heat and others everyday for what 2 weeks to another guy, doesnt that mean that shes hoping that something is gna happen? what wud any male think if they can get access to some chick who she thinks shes got a body to die for, gna expect from males well iI guess beauty is in the eyes of the viewer, as a female nothing she had was remotely worth a wink. Oh by the way she said shes got a hubby *wonder what hes doing while shes doing this kinda crap* anyways the night grew longer and we were blasting email and msgs at one another. NOW If she had a body like ksenia, or elle, or silky please!!!!!!!!!!! then go hard but this chick had rolls, and her thunder thighs had cellulite, and she tells me that its not the action that is cheap its the physical body in which god blessed her with, and im spose to be jealous? All I asked her was to cut with the msgs, and to stop tainting his site with her decease, and she thinks I am jealous? I sat there and thought abt it,. and figured how cud she say I was jealous of her?  for degrading herself for internet access I maybe nieve, but I cudnt bring myself to strip and post naked pics of myself on the internet. Anyways as we were blasting msgs via his profile, it alerted him and wen he viewed what was going on he called and actually laughed at wat was happening. Was it a laugh coz 2 chicks fighting coz of him? or was it laughter coz I told her to back the ***** off? I wud post pixs but I am not gna stoop to that level, and if this chick really had a husband then why does he codone it? maybe they are bisexuals? maybe he likes watching his so called wife do what comes naturally, or maybe he has a gay tendecy but anyways therers a time limit on this and I can only take so much. And If I aint gna stand up for myself then you know what screw it...  In the end if he keeps her on his list, and responds by whatever means, then I think its abt time I gracefully stand back and find the things in my life that will make me enjoy life alittle more better than sitting back and watch how his unfolds.