The Last Month & a Half

Wow. I can't believe it's been that long since I've posted a blog here on AnD. It's been an interesting and challenging month. I've definitely been walking through the valley. I couldn't say if I am coming out on the other side, maybe I am. I feel better than I have in a long time. That's something.

The last six months I was struggling with something that I swore I never would. Depression. I've been determined most of my life to be a happy person. Perhaps it was alot of the pressure that got put on me as the oldest pastor's kid. I know it was a lot of the internal pressure I put on myself. Coupled with the death of my grandpa and a mentor within 12 days of each other and the emotional agony of hope deferred and I had slowly become a mess.

The funny thing was I was slow at recognizing what was happening to me. All I knew was that I felt like I was drowning. Many times like I was suffocating. It wasn't until I had a conversation with my mom that I understood what was going on. My eyes were opened. And it was a blessed relief. So the last few weeks I've been making strides to take care of myself. I've had the opportunity to start going to a Korean church which has been amazing. I'm learning how to manage time by myself and time with other people. It's definitely a time of transition.

So there's the quick update. I'm off to go read and check out what's been happening. Read all the amazing stuff happening with friends and artists here on AnD.