My Birthday just went by on 17th of October and I would like to take this time to thank everyone who wished me a Happy B-Day. I went to Hokkaido with some of the guys then went to see Zombie land and then went and had a little drink with a couple of other friends. It was a nice B-Day and I wouldn't ask for more. I am now 22. I remember my past B-days and they were horrible. On my 18th B-day I was mugged and on my 21 B-Day I got into an argument with some relatives. I actually had a good time on my 22 B-Day so in all I am happy. I'm not too crazy about B-Days its all related to some funny philosophical thing I go by. If I took the time to write down my complete belief on how the world works "normal" people will think I'm crazy so I just conform. Look at society now a days. We live in an illusion all day every single day. People wake up and go to work or school like zombies. People put value in objects that serve no real purpose. It is all funny because on the other hand if people live to just survive like animals then they are just the same as the zombies I spoke of before. No one knows thy true self honestly. I believe that everything is itself and is a whole with everything else. If we speak of a God as a true being then God is one being which makes God part of the whole and not the whole. If we speak of God as the whole then that is a more true God. We are all connected by a link. We believe we are different from each other but we are not. We believe we should celebrate our heritage separately but we shouldn't. We believe we should set boundaries between different countries but we shouldn't. In the end we all live in the same place at the same time. This illusion of individuality causes our conflicts to flourish. People say conflict builds a stronger bond but in the end these bonds weaken. Our society is a living being just like every dog, every cat, and every fish. Society kills when it is hungry. Society builds government to protect itself. Society evolves through out time coming up with new ways to blind itself. Can we truly live deliberately? If you follow the path of Christ then you conform. If you follow the path of the Buddha then you conform. If you follow the path of others then you conform. Then who can you truly follow? Conform to yourself and your true self. 

The reason why I am posting this blog is because I feel like it is almost impossible to reach the understanding of a true self but it can be done. Someone ask me "Hey Tony, every time I see you you always seem to be thinking, What is it are you thinking about?" I was only thinking about myself. 

Sounds a little self-centered but oh wells. I still listen and conform to others because I'm still trying to understand living. Back to the "normal" world: I am still Soul-Searching.

Oh and P.S. I shaved my head 2 months ago haha so no more long hair.

I started laughing when I saw these pictures.

I've noticed that I've haven't really been myself more openly in public. That is because most of the people I know think I'm a strange person. To many strangers I appear threatening, but really I'm actually a very kind-hearted fellow. After doing some improve practice with BONG DY, Tommy, and Wilder I felt like I can be myself more. It felt good. Although I was nervous in some parts. I feel my body start to stiffen a little and my mind running wild with ideas and responses, but it is all natural. I didn't pretend. It felt as if it was all real. Maybe I can become an actor after all. I first doubt my abilities to express an emotion openly or even yet express it as another character. I'm not 100% confident in my acting because it was only improve today. I'm excited for actual script and character acting. I guess in the back of my head I new I was pretty decent at it, but I want to get much more better. 

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-Red Cliff (and Red Cliff 2)

-Casshern

-Once Upon A Time In China (Trilogy)

-Fist of Fury

Some Games I actually want to own:
-Borderlands
-Final Fantasy XIII
-Darksiders
-PS3 Console (to go with my 360)
-R4 (for my DS)

Some Books or Comics I want to own:
-Deadpool Classics Vol. 3
-Deadpool and Cable Vol. 3
-Deadpool: Suicide Kings Vol. 3
-Street Fighter 4 Vol.3
-Dragon Hunter (Complete Series)
-Bansky's Book
-I Am Jackie Chan

New car and parts:
- 97' Honda Civic HX (for 2k, Malay is trying to sell)
- Type R grill
- SIR Front end
- New door panels
- New Rear view mirrors
- New Wheels
- New steering wheel
- New Shift Knob
- Replace Transmission Mount
- Bleed air out of tubes
- New rear light bulb
- New Climate Controls

I want to make this list just to see how much I'm gonna waste my money on and that is a lot of stuff. I think I might end up spending over 2K or 3K. I'd better get a job or a gig quick!

I was talking to the guys at In N Out the other night about "The End of Days" or in other words Zombie Attacks - It was amusing. The first thing we talked about was having some sort of underground bunker. This bunker should be as big as a classroom and multiple exits - maybe about 2 or 3. I suggested it having some sort of oxygen system so that O2 can enter and leave in a circular manner. There should be some sort of power generator which can be manually operated or kenitically. We needed outposts to watch from above and a communication system in which we can communicate with each other - preferably walky talkys. I suggested that when it is at the brink of occuring we should have multiple vehicles that are stored away with supplies ready to up and run to the bunker location. After we get everyone assembled we give out orders to eliminate zombies who are close by the bunker and then send out scouts and scavengers to look for supplies at near by stores. I'm not exactly sure how effective this strategy is but it is worth a shot. I believe some kind of blue print should be made of the bunker so that we can bring in vehicles and people effectively.