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  • Blog Entry 008 -- Writing with Less Words

    Saturday, Jul 18, 2009 5:56AM / Members only


    Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=af8mNLO19yg


    Today’s Soundtrack: David Bowie -- Bring Me the Disco King

    A number of years ago I entered into a short story contest with Writer’s Digest. It’s an annual contest that is called the “Short Short Story” contest. This is likely because submissions are limited to 1500 words or less. Before I started out with this piece, I was convinced that there could not possibly be anything worth saying in 1500 words or less. I literally spent more time cutting down my story than I did writing the original. It was a horrible experience.

    Well, I’m putting myself through the whole ordeal one more time. I’m starting with a whole new short story for this year’s contest and will give it another shot. I’d like to post here the entry that never made the cut. After reading it this many years down the road, I can see why it wasn’t publishable; but, it is my creation. Feedback is welcome and appreciated.

    CHASING BLUE EYES

    by

    Daniel L. Black


    Some days a person really shouldn’t get out of bed. Until recently, I’ve always done the right thing. I’m not quite thirty years old and I’ve always gotten up at a reasonable time, gone to work, and finished the day with fifteen minutes in a good book. Then I met her.
    I worked as a janitor in the courthouse downtown. One fateful morning I was called out into the lobby to clean up someone’s spilt coffee. I could tell there must be a really big case today because the lobby was eerily quiet. Yet, through the bulletproof (not to mention soundproof) doors, I could see throngs of people pressed up against a line of riot-gear clad peace officers.
    It was none of my business and, frankly, nothing of interest to me, so I went about the business of mopping up coffee off the marble floor. I lingered a bit, noting to myself that one square tile was probably worth a years rent in my apartment. Just as I squeezed the last of the dirty water out of my mop, the doors to the street burst open and chaos ensued.
    Ten peace officers escorted someone whom, at first, I could not see. The officers’ eyes told a tale of their own. Whoever they were escorting into the courtroom was dangerous. Not wanting to get caught in the media circle that would undoubtedly follow this entourage, I grabbed my mop bucket and walked toward the janitor’s closet. As I passed through the detector (You know the type. They’ve got them in every government building nowadays. They test for metal and explosives, sense emotions, and read current thought patterns.), the group of officers turned away from me and into the courtroom. I caught a glimpse of the person they were escorting. She was the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my life. Just before I lost site of her, she turned her head back over her shoulder and looked directly at me. Blue eyes caught mine and have held my soul ever sense.
    At the janitor’s closet I stowed my implements of cleanliness. The woman’s image held fast in my eyes long after she entered the courtroom as if I had stared directly into the brightest light in the universe and then looked directly into darkness. I was grateful for this because I found myself clinging to the image with an earnestness I’ve not applied to anything else in my life.
    I finished my shift and headed back to my apartment. I did the usual evasion of eye contact routine on the Inter City Tram and then the same along the walk to the entrance to my apartment building. I checked my mail and then headed up the stairs.
    As I entered my apartment, I felt utter despair. I have no rational excuse for the feelings I had for this woman I’d never met. Mine was a life of mediocrity, at best. Nothing of interest ever happened to me. I looked about my abode and felt ashamed for the life I led, or perhaps more appropriately, didn’t lead. Reasoning was not with me that night. The fact that the woman was some kind of dangerous criminal did not factor in to my thoughts. Had this occurred to me, I probably would have thought to turn on the news and learn more about the woman. Intellect is not quite the same as common sense, however. If ever I had a shred of common sense, I had thrown it out with the mop water earlier that day.
    I didn’t bother with dinner that night. I took a shower and used the entire amount of water allotted to me. A ridiculously friendly voice came out of the exhaust fan somewhere and said, “You have reached your allotted amount of water for the day. Your environment appreciates you and shall provide for you again tomorrow because of your efforts toward conservancy.” I must confess, sometimes I’ve run the water just to hear a friendly voice; but that night I was rather disappointed to hear it. Sometimes you just want to wallow.
    I pulled the bed out of the wall and set about making it up. “Lights off.” I said into the empty room, and as the lights faded and darkness fell upon me like a brick, I collapsed into a slumber full of dreams I dare not mention here.
    A loud banging came from the front door. “We are coming in.” The authoritative voice came from outside my apartment. “We are peace officers and pursue peace. It would be more peaceful if you were lying face down on the floor with your hands behind your head as we enter this domicile.” The door opened just as I started to swing my feet out of bed. Two peace officers came storming in and pointed something at me which suddenly rendered me unconscious. I did not wake up in my apartment.
    “He’s awake.” I didn’t recognize the voice. “Have some coffee, Kid. It will help shake the sedative."
    I looked about and did not recognize my surroundings any more than I did the voice. I was in a police station; but it seemed different than I had expected. I thought it odd to be referred to as “Kid” until I got a look at the men standing in front of me. Both looked to be relics of a day gone past. Either one of them could have passed as New York City cops straight out of the twenty-third century.
    “My name is Detective Cumberlin and this is my partner, Detective Franks.” A man in a smart suit handed me a cup of coffee. Apparently it was Detective Franks, because the other man kept talking. “You have committed a crime under the laws of our nation, Mr. Millsner. Are you aware of this crime?”
    I tried to imagine what law I might have broken. None of the library books in my apartment were overdue. I didn’t own a transport, so I could not have been in a vehicular accident. I did run the shower a bit long the night before; but I had done that several times. “Not really, Sir.” I managed to stammer.
    “You have emotions for a woman whom you do not know.” barked Detective Cumberlin. “Our research indicates that Miss Morrison has given you no indication that it is acceptable to feel sentiments toward her.” He gave me what I’m sure was meant to be a serious look. “This is a serious crime, Mr. Millsner.”
    This had to be either more of my twisted dreams or some sort of joke. I had heard of this sort of thing; but I thought it was meant for guys who actually did things to show their affection toward a woman. My mind raced. First of all, who the hell was Miss Morrison? Surely they couldn’t be talking about the woman from court yesterday. It hardly made sense that they would be worried about these sort of right infringements upon a woman on trial. Besides, I had only seen her one time. She was the only woman I was crazy about.
    “Who is Miss Morrison?” I asked to no one in particular.
    The detectives exchanged glances. Detective Franks spoke first. “It is imperative that you are completely honest with us Mr. Millsner. The detection device at your own place of employment has documented your feelings toward Miss Morrison quite thoroughly.”
    Detective Cumberlin finished the explanation. “This was no passing appreciation, Mr. Millsner. I’ve never seen the sentimentality meter read so high.”
    So it had to be the woman going to court. I marveled that under these extenuating circumstances I was actually grateful just to learn her name. If this truly was a crime, I was going to be locked away for a very long time.
    “Have you had these sort of infatuations with anyone else?”
    Before I could answer “no” to Detective Cumberlin’s question, Detective Franks looked me dead in the eyes and added to his partner’s question. “Any other unsuspecting women, Mr. Millsner?”
    I simply shook my head in astonishment. I wasn’t even sure how I had wronged this woman. My thoughts were condemning me without any actions to prove their guilt. I looked to each of the detectives, perhaps pleading for a way out. It was Detective Cumberlin that spoke.
    “It is obvious that you cannot afford an attorney. You shall be assigned one by the county.” He opened the door and two peace officers came in. “These gentlemen shall accompany you to your quarters. I recommend you begin to formulate a defense. County attorneys are hand picked by the Placement Division for the Undereducated. We all know how efficient they are. Your trial is set for the day after tomorrow. Good luck, Mr. Millsner. Crimes of the heart are not well received by jury machines these days. They fail to see the logic behind them.”
  • Blog Entry 007 -- The Beat of Your Own Drum

    Monday, Jul 6, 2009 6:01AM / Members only


    Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=noVC5Jt2Gu8


    Today’s Soundtrack: Harry Chapin -- Flowers are Red

    Pardon the long introduction on the video above. Give it a chance, though; because, the song that follows bares a worthy message.

    Just about everyone on this site seems to be an artist of some sort. Some are professional while others dutifully aspire to become professional. Particularly on Alive Not Dead, artists ply their trade all over the world. The really great art can be global because the best art comes from inside the individual artist.

    “Individual” should be emphasized here. Imagine if educational systems around the globe attempted to mold young artists into a sort of stereotypical art that they deemed appropriate. How grey and drab would the future be? What would anyone look forward to? What little art that existed would be artificial and expected at best. And then, we’d have nothing to discuss here.

    So…those of you with children in school or soon becoming students, find out what’s being presented to your children as “appropriate.” Make sure they realize that the beat of their own drum is the right one, if only because it is their own drum.

    Have a wonderful day. Folks here never cease to inspire me.

  • Blog Entry 006 -- Rambling

    Sunday, Jun 21, 2009 4:31AM / Members only


    Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XkLI121OBms


    Today’s soundtrack: The Who -- Behind Blue Eyes

    I’m beginning to see how folks are becoming addicted to this whole “blogging” thing. I am having so much fun seeing what people are doing and experiencing. Alive Not Dead is proving to be a window worth looking through. I have to say “Thank You” to Mr. Eric Nakamura for mentioning it in my all-time favorite magazine: Giant Robot. Life hasn’t been the same since.

    I know it has been a while since my last post. For the first time in a while, my family and I spent my last day off out and about. We traveled East of Seattle, a bit, to a place called North Bend. There is an outlet mall there that has an Adidas shop in it. I’ve been on a hunt for a silly little thing as of late: a black Adidas sweat band for when I’m running and exercising. I know that I could order it from the Web site; but, that would just take all of the fun out of it.

    North Bend turned out to be a beautiful place. I’ve driven through it a few times and, regrettably, never stopped. It was a bit of a cloudy day this time, with a threat of rain that never came. It was a nice reprieve from the 28 days, or so, that we went through of pure sunshine. I lived in Hawaii for far too long. I’m really quite finished with the postcard weather. I know that sounds strange to most folks; but it’s the truth. I’ll take a good dark and drizzly day anytime. Please don’t attempt to overanalyze that into mine being a dark and gloomy soul mired in funk, though. I just like the weather; and Seattle generally accommodates my taste.

    My wife took all of the photos this trip. I’ll post a few of them here:


    The trees were amazingly green. I always feel at home with trees and mountains. The effect of the clouds moving through them was one of enveloping grace.

    On the way back, we stopped in Bellevue to check out Uwajimaya for groceries. We hadn’t shopped there yet; but kept seeing it mentioned on the Web. In truth, with a couple of exceptions, the Korean owned and operated store, H-Mart, has a better selection of Japanese groceries. Nevertheless, I can appreciate that there is a Japanese store in our community.

    From there, we went over to Lynnwood in search of the latest issue of Giant Robot. We have a mall closer to our apartment; but, the book store there never has the magazine. Borders in Alderwood Mall always seems to have it. It’s just a matter of figuring out where they are shelving it this month. I realize that the magazine is in a class by itself; but a little consistency would be helpful.

    Somehow, while at the mall, the vortex that is the Disney store managed to suck us in…again. The spirit of Walt Disney, himself, seems to channel unhindered through my fifteen month old daughter. My wife and I are helpless against it. We left this time with a children’s dish set, two coffee mugs, and two eco-bags. This was minimal damage, really, considering the possibilities.

    Well, there you have it. I know it’s not as exciting as most of what you’ll find here on Alive Not Dead; but the experiences are real, nonetheless. Thanks for reading. 

  • Blog Entry 005 -- My Japanese Coach

    Thursday, Jun 11, 2009 1:08AM / Members only

    Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VLpND5XpHY4


    Today’s soundtrack: Dir en Grey -- Vinushka

    At work, we are given 30 minutes a day for lunch. During this time, we are required to clock out and leave the premises. So…what do I do with this time? I sit in my car, eat my sandwich, and take instruction from my Japanese Coach.


    This isn’t my primary source for learning the Japanese language. However, it is convenient for when you’re sitting in your car waiting to go back to work. Do any of you folks who are not native Japanese speakers; but, who have learned the language, have any suggestions for learning the Japanese language? It is the one thing in this world that seems to consistently elude me.

    My problem seems to be in the retention of vocabulary. I can study for hours and successfully pass verbal exams administered by my ever-patient wife, only to wake up the next morning with a big hole in my head where the nihongo used to be. It’s immensely frustrating. Without a solid foundation of the language, I feel like the typical otaku gaijin that rightfully receives little respect from most Japanese people. I want to be able to hold a conversation with my family. I consider the learning of the Japanese language to be my biggest failure to date.

    Well, I suppose that’s enough whining for one post. Seriously, though. If anyone has any suggestions…I’m all ears. If I could speak Japanese, I could potentially move my family to Japan. I can think of no greater reward.

    I’m off to the gym. Have a great day!
  • Blog Entry 004 -- It’s Hard to Think of Titles

    Sunday, Jun 7, 2009 2:38AM / Members only


    Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TIIXXTqGCpg


    Today’s soundtrack: Death Cab for Cutie -- Talking Bird

    Umm…first: the photos. I’m splitting them up into groups, as the upload page was getting a bit unwieldy with so many. At some point, I’ll try to label the photos. I just want to get them posted for now.

    So, why so many photos? As can be seen by the quality of the pictures (or lack thereof), I’m not a professional. It’s just that when I am in Japan, I am constantly overcome by a desire to capture the feeling I have whenever I am there. Even with this last visit being three months, I felt my impending departure back to the United States as if it were some unbearable weight. I guess it’s a form of escapism; but, I use these photos and odds and ends from my visit to take me back in mind and spirit.

    Life in Seattle is going well, I suppose. I’m still getting used to the fact that I am selling sporting goods for a living. This time last year, I was a guest service manager at a resort in Hawaii. The good news is that I have more time with my family now. I was working upwards of sixteen hours a day and, often, seven days a week.

    I keep telling myself that maybe this is a chance for some “creative” time. I have hobbies and interests that have gone neglected for years now. The two major ones are writing and art. (I’m a bit ashamed to call it art, though, when participating in a community that is obviously full of the real thing.) Ideas are formulating in my head while I’m working out and while I’m closing up the store at night. I really should utilize this time, I know.

    Well…that’s about it for now. I need to get ready for work. Thanks to those of you that have visited my blog over the past couple of days. It’s very exciting to see visitors and comments. My wife’s blog gets thousands of hit’s a day. I’m happy with just a few new friends.  :-)
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  • posted on Monday, Sep 28, 2009 8:28PM  [Report]
    hey daniel! thanks for the lovely bday wishes, so sorry for the late reply, been very busy and then got quite ill, doh! hope you're well. :)
  • Official artist 
    posted on Saturday, Aug 29, 2009 8:57PM  [Report]
    backed~~
    Hawaii was super relaxed as always^^
    love there so much!
    this time first time been to the beach in the north(mokuleia/three tails...).got to see many many tropical fishes in water.excited!!!
    ha~alredy...cant wait my next vacation overthere.dont you miss your life in Hawaii??..well I know life in Seattle is fun too^^
    see ya!have a happy weekend!
    ma ta ne~
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    posted on Sunday, Aug 16, 2009 2:26PM  [Report]
    Thank you for the birthday wishes!^^
    I hope you have a wonderful day too.
    take care~
  •  
    posted on Saturday, Aug 15, 2009 11:05PM  [Report]
    hi♪
    happy birthday!^^
  • Official artist 
    posted on Wednesday, Aug 12, 2009 10:16AM  [Report]
    hai Daniel!
    I come here to say...
    happy birthday to you~~~!!!お誕生日おめでとう!!
    yea I know its kind of early.coz...I'm leaving here tomorrow..to Hawaii~~yay!!
    I wish you will spend a special day^^
    またね!
  • Official artist 
    posted on Friday, Jul 31, 2009 6:04PM  [Report]
    Hey thanks for dropping by and i realy like going to Japan too, i usually go once a year.... hehe
  • Official artist 
    posted on Tuesday, Jul 28, 2009 11:06PM  [Report]
    hi danie thanks for dropping by!
  • Official artist 
    posted on Saturday, Jul 25, 2009 11:13PM  [Report]
    Thank you very much for your kind birthday message!!
    Wish you Good luck, and all the best.
  • Official artist 
    posted on Friday, Jul 24, 2009 11:48PM  [Report]
    hai Daniel^^
    you've been in Hawaii??
    wow~actually my family is visiting there for my bro's wedding in Aug.its been quite long time since my last trip to Hawaii...any recommendation??we're staying in Oahu.planning to visit north area maybe~
    btw...your wife is japanese?
    and..yea!you should start learning Hiragana!!haha~
    have a beautiful weekend!
  • posted on Friday, Jul 24, 2009 9:30AM  [Report]
    hooray for someone that rambles as much or more (although better) than me! haha. Thanks for stopping by and saying hello.
  • Official artist 
    posted on Wednesday, Jul 22, 2009 12:32AM  [Report]
    thanks for the add!
  • Official artist 
    posted on Tuesday, Jul 21, 2009 8:25PM  [Report]
    well I guess it will be more easy to do sculpturing if with basic drawing knowledge.
    Anyway, thanks alot for your comments. I hope I can make sculpture better in the future ^_^
  • Official artist 
    posted on Sunday, Jul 19, 2009 11:20AM  [Report]
    ha ha, thz, i am glad to hear that :D
    wish u enjoy my works
  • posted on Sunday, Jul 19, 2009 6:16AM  [Report]
    hey daniel! thanks for your lovely words... how's you? hope you're enjoying a wonderful weekend... ^__^
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    posted on Saturday, Jul 18, 2009 9:41PM  [Report]
    Hi!(*^ ^*)
    thanks for friend's request.
  • Official artist 
    posted on Friday, Jul 17, 2009 5:19PM  [Report]
    Tnx for visiting my blog

    么么 (*^__^*)...嘻嘻
  • posted on Friday, Jul 10, 2009 4:47PM  [Report]
    thanks for dropping by too

    :D
  • Official artist 
    posted on Tuesday, Jul 7, 2009 10:54PM  [Report]
    man, thanks for your add ^_^
  • posted on Tuesday, Jul 7, 2009 11:45AM  [Report]
    Hello, thank you for your message, I am very glad to exchange with you.
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    posted on Monday, Jul 6, 2009 10:17PM  [Report]
    nice to meet you.
    thanks for comment.
    (*^ ^*)
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