*The waves thrust towards me. Unrelenting, cold waves.
I still turn my head when I pass by the places we've been to, hoping to catch just a glimpse of a memory. perhaps they still live there.
*A gentle smile that never returns, yet still I crave.
I try hard each day to do what seems effortless to you. Try to not do the things we used to do together. Trying not to think of your voice, your smile, your scent...
*The sun sets as drops begin to fall from my face.
I wish hard to forget you, then I turn around and wish you were still here. I know very well the strategic ways you used to let me go easy. Though I still play as though I believe them, as though I didn't know any better.
*I stride hopelessly on, with less and less grace.
Foolish though I am to feel too much for something that wasn't very much. It was all to short and sudden to mean this much, and yet before I close my eyes you are still on my mind. Still singing that one song, still with that same smile.
*here I lay quietly, remembering though you have clearly forgot.
I Pretend that I don't think about you. I try not to mention your name. I pretend that we had never met. Though I never take off the proof of your existence. I should find a place where I can bury these thoughts of you far from sight.
*Pretending what is has always been and what has been is not.
flutters in this vessel where my love lies. burning burning these ropes I remain tied. pitter patter I hear it beat no more. searing searing where your lips adored. sways so gently windows of memories pass. boring boring ever so deeply a love of chaste. sifting too thoroughly by fluent hindsight. burrowing burrowing I am hit at plight. carry through this masquerade. slitting slitting my release is made. shivers your name through my lips. carve carve this painful kiss.
