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• Pig= Those burdens..

  Monday, Jul 7, 2008 10:33AM / Standard Entry / Members only
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  Monday, 7th July 2008. Time now 10.34am, in my room..

  I am typing this because I am feeling so miserable.. Everything that shouldn't be happening in my life, those stuffs that I never thought will ever happens to me.. I feel so depress.. I don't have anyone to speaks to or talks to now..

  All those big burdens on me.. I can't push them away, they are way too heavy for me to handle.. I don't know what to do now.. Just fucking crying like a baby and trying to let out those unhappy stuffs inside of me that I had kept it for so so long.. Isn't this world all about pretending??.. Even when people are facing big problems like family problems, They still have to fucking pretend that they are fine, everything is ok.. This is what I am currently doing for the past few years of my life..

   All those problems.. How I wish everything that is happening is just a dream.. So I can wake up and just lead my life happily, but I can't..

  I blame myself for not able to study well, or should I just say I am born dumb.. Stupid.. For the past 17 years I had live on this earth, I couldn't find a aim for myself.. I doesn't seems to have any talents.. I am stupid..

   Singing??.. I doubt so.. I am not confident with my own voice, so how am I going to even be a singer?.. A singer without looks is rubbish, worthless.. People nowadays only go after their idol just because they look charming and beautiful..

   I am so down.. Damn mother fucker.. So much problems I am handling.. I wish that I can just completely shut myself from the outside world.. Give myself a good rest.. From all this fucking shit.. I hate it.. I hate whatever is happening to me..

  I am getting sick of all this shits..

   Fuck my good-for-nothing brain, fuck my singing, fuck my worthless health condition, fuck my life..

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