Monday, 7th July 2008. Time now 10.34am, in my room..

I am typing this because I am feeling so miserable.. Everything that shouldn't be happening in my life, those stuffs that I never thought will ever happens to me.. I feel so depress.. I don't have anyone to speaks to or talks to now..

All those big burdens on me.. I can't push them away, they are way too heavy for me to handle.. I don't know what to do now.. Just fucking crying like a baby and trying to let out those unhappy stuffs inside of me that I had kept it for so so long.. Isn't this world all about pretending??.. Even when people are facing big problems like family problems, They still have to fucking pretend that they are fine, everything is ok.. This is what I am currently doing for the past few years of my life..

 All those problems.. How I wish everything that is happening is just a dream.. So I can wake up and just lead my life happily, but I can't..

I blame myself for not able to study well, or should I just say I am born dumb.. Stupid.. For the past 17 years I had live on this earth, I couldn't find a aim for myself.. I doesn't seems to have any talents.. I am stupid..

 Singing??.. I doubt so.. I am not confident with my own voice, so how am I going to even be a singer?.. A singer without looks is rubbish, worthless.. People nowadays only go after their idol just because they look charming and beautiful..

 I am so down.. Damn mother fucker.. So much problems I am handling.. I wish that I can just completely shut myself from the outside world.. Give myself a good rest.. From all this fucking shit.. I hate it.. I hate whatever is happening to me..

I am getting sick of all this shits..

 Fuck my good-for-nothing brain, fuck my singing, fuck my worthless health condition, fuck my life..

Just yesterday, I went to watch the movie "Wanted" with my friend, kenny, I can only say that the show is amazing!! Great effects, Great storline, Beautiful actress like Angelina Jolie. HAhaa, she sure is hot! But ONLY TO BE DISGUSTED BY ALL THOSE RATS IN THE MOVIE.. 

 I have also watched movies like " You don't mess with Zohan" and "Never Back Down". All this shows are not too bad. " Never Back Down" is a great movie. I like the fighting and the storyline. Cool.

" You don't mess with Zohan" is totally lame and I believe you will laugh from the beginning of the movie to the end.

 Anyway, the main topic for this post is... RATS... I swear I FUCKING HATE RATS. RATS IS THE MOST DIGUSTING PESTS ON EARTH. I woner why does God create rats?? I mean, what the fuck? I just can't stand how disgusting they look..

 I have this fear towards rats at the age of 12 due to a bad prank from my primary school classmates.. Ever since then, I hate rats. Yesterday, while I was on my way home from the movie, out of a sudden, I heard this disgusting  noise coming from the left side of the walking pathway, to my fear, it was really a FUCKING FAT RAT THAT WAS FUCKING STARING BACK AT ME..

I SWEAR my heart was beating as fast as 140 or ABOVE. I couldn't do much but to walk as fast as I could, with the image of the MOTHER FUCKER staring back at me flashing in through my mind REPEATEDLY. And I really means REPEATEDLY.. I was only calm after I light up a stick to calm my nerve.. SIGH..

AREN't RATS DISGUSTING, PEOPLE??

 Take care all.

Sign off.

Hey people, Sorry for not blogging for such a long time. But of cause, I am still enjoying my life. And I seriously hope that my father will bring the whole family to Taiwan in July. I really hope so. It has been at least 10 years or so since I last took a plane.

 Anyway, as the subject of this entry, I receive a email from one of my friend about this person who Predictions always comes true. It kind of freak me out. I mean I don't really believe in this kind of rubbish but it seems so real. Here is the email.

Mr. Juseleeno, born in 1960(reportedly still alive in 2008), is a Brazilian who has made many predictions, and MOST have come to pass, including Princess Diana's death by car accident (which is instigated by someone near her and will probably unfortunately be written off as a car accident), 911 and the 2004 Indonesian tsunami. He sees the future in his dreams, and has an average of 3 to 9 such predictions per day. When he wakes up, he will write them down, and send warnings to those concerned. If it concerns only a normal individual, he will write a letter to warn him/her. If it is a famous person(celebrity, politician etc.), or matters concerning the public, he will not only send it to the individual himself/herself, but also related agencies, government, and media. He urged the media to publicise these predictions, but the reply always went along the lines of rejection for fear of arousing public panic.  

Future predictions:

2008, July: There will be an earthquake in Japan, which will cause a tsunami of 30 plus meters high to occur as well.

2008, 18th September: An earthquake with magnitude of approximately 9.1 will rock China , simultaneously causing a tsunami of more than 30 meters to occur, resulting in the deaths of more than 1 million people. Although this huge earthquake will happen after the Olympics have ended, there will be a series of relatively smaller earthquakes occurring in China before the huge earthquake. The China government, which is more concerned with the success of the Olympics, will most likely neglect to employ appropriate cautionary measures, thus the high casualty rate. If the China government does not publicise the occurrence of these minor earthquakes and evacuate people, the number of deaths will be as predicted.

2008, 17th December: terrorist attack in America

2010: The temperatures in some countries of Africa could be as high as 58 degrees Celsius, and there will be a serious shortage of water.

2010, 15th June: The New York Stock Exchange market will fail, causing an international financial crisis.

2011: The research on the treatment of some cancers will be completed, but a new life-threatening virus will appear. People who are infected will die after only approx. 4 hours of coming into contact with the virus.

2013, 1st – 25th November: Research on treatment of cancers, except for brain tumors, will be completed. An earthquake, caused by volcanic eruptions, will happen on Bahama Island of the Canary Islands. A gigantic tsunami of roughly 150 meters will result. America mainlands, Brazil etc. will be affected, with the tsunami pushing into the land as far as 15 to 20 kilometers. Before the occurrence of this gigantic tsunami, the sea/ocean water levels will sink by about 6 meters, and large flocks of birds will start to migrate.

2014: A small planet that has been gradually closing in on Earth might eventually collide with Earth, and this collision, if come to pass, will affect the survival of humans as a whole.

2015: By the mid of November, the average temperature of Earth could be as high as 59 degrees Celsius. Many people will die from the overheat, and international confusion and terror ensues.

2016, April: A huge typhoon will invade China, causing massive damage. The 43rd USA president, George Walker Bush, will enter the hospital, and faces a life or death situation.

2026, July: A super earthquake will occur in Sans Francisco, and it will be named 'The Big One'. Huge damage to surrounding areas. Many volcanoes will re-activate, and the height of resulting tsunami will be more than 150 metres.

Mr. Juseleeno made known his predictions in hopes that people will take heed of his warnings, so that these disasters may be avoided. He hopes there will be a major change in the thinking of people's mindsets in the time period 2007 – 2008. One factor will be the environmental issue of global warming, which is more serious than what some meteorologists assume.

Scary isn't it? I mean what the hell is going on?? Even let's say that Mr. Juseleeno really can tells the future, I believe he should really keep in to himself instead of making us, panic. Sigh. I really hope it is just a stupid email and will not come true.

 Sign off.

Yesterday night, I just couldn't seems to fall asleep. I was in my bed at around 12am and woke up around 1.30am and starts to roll around my bed till around 4am. I gave up. I woke up and walk to the living room and on the tv. 5am, I went back to my bed. And I guess I only manage to sleep around 5.30 to 6am. What is wrong with me!!!

 Maybe I have been thinking too much about issues like being a groomer or a singer. I really wish to be a singer. I mean been a singer in Singapore is very hard. Singapore is so small compare to Taiwan and Hongkong. And nowadays singers can bearly suffer. SO much rival everywhere. SIGH. I guess I have been thinking too much about this..

But still... I REALLY WANNA BE A SINGER!!!! *ROAR*

 Yesterday, I went to watch "The Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian with my Movie Kaki, Kenny. As for those who don't understand the meaning of "Kaki, it means buddy or partner in Malay. I should say that the movie wasn't as good as the first one but still this movie is not bad. I give a 4 out of 5 for this. Great show. I love Narnia, Harry Potter!  It's time to catch it if you have not watch this great movie!!! I believe you will love it.

 Sign off.

Not too long ago, I begged my dad to buy me a mp3. Ever since my last mp3 broke down, I had wish to get myself a good mp3. AND HERE I AM. I begged him to also get me a good sound quailty headphone like SENNHEISER HD 477. Although I know it is a consider a older model but still, better than not getting one.

 I got myself a Samsung Yp T-10. And I should it isn't too bad.

For me, loud music is important including a good headphone. Note that I don't use ear piece or earphone because it gave my ears a hard time. I can't wear a earphone for a long time because it will starts to hurt my ears. So headphone will be good for me! Comfortable for my ears and loud musics!! I love loud musics.

So my dad got me this Sennheiser HD 477. I couldn't upload picture of it, I don't know why either, but I consider this headphone to be a good one, not great but good. But I wasn't quite satisfy with the sound quailty, I mean as in a good bass and loud music and clear sound. It is just average. So I swear I am going to get a better headphone.

 But afterall, I still enjoy musics and happy enough to finally have a mp3 and also a headphone and try to enjoy the greatness of loud musics.

It never gets too loud for me.

Enjoying the life fill with musics.

Isn't that cool? HAhaa. At least for me.

And few days ago, I went to visit my ex collegue who was transfer to another newly open shop over at Suntec city. But the shop sure is small.

As you can see, it is like a very small corner of the whole big shopping mall. But still, I was very happy to finally see her after such a long long time. Like 3 months or so?? She was one of the best collegue that treats me like his brother. She is very friendly, very positive and always carry a smile wherever she goes.

That's Cindy and me. Thanks for everything, Cindy. I appreciate all that you had done.

There are still lots of updates, just that I am waiting for those pictures to send to me!!  So just continue to visit my blog yeah!!

Sign off.