*** PLS GOD BLESS THAT I GET THAT JOBBBBB ! ***

AND YES !!

<3 AND TRUELY ENJOYED MY 18TH BDAY!

LOVE YOU GUYS ! :D and surpises that you all gave me.

unforgettable bday !

Have this feeling of another weekend tmr.

gosh,. i wanted another sun! T.T

tutorials and quizzes still undone!

 

I'm glad its finally over for now. I jus wanted you to be able to get back to the one that i knew before. And i hope you really did it. (:

PPLE ARE ALL SO DAMN HARDWORKING NOW OMG!

AND i SERIOUSLY SERIOUSLY DAMN NEED A JOB~!

Phone bill came and ran up to a total of $230++. wtf.

I'm broke broke broke and damn broke...

T.T

gg to study for the study WSH test tmr. and online quiz for ECPRO to be done.

NOT forgetting that WSH project waiting for me. Hais.

LAST BT NOT LEAST.

THANKS SHUYI AND JIAWEN!

im really sooo happy you all still remembered my bday! touched.(:

actually its really the thoughts that counts. cos i realise now i am not lacking of anything .

except this $$$.

Great frens, and glad to knw you .

although that XX XX job is bad. but at least i've gain good frens frm there! :D

and yes. webbbyyyyy cam is <3!

xiaoooo zhu and evelyn! hahs she looks so damn with the face!

 

 

My life has been so damn fucked up nowadays.

wad is wrong exactly?????

!@#$%!@#$$ WTF!

i'm feeling tired alreadi. sicked of everything.

jus wanna throw everything away sometimes,

dun even want to think of all those things i needed to worry for 1 min.

i'm beginning to lose myself, my smile.

i can no longer feel any form of happiness within me..

deep down inside.

feels like i'm suffocating already.

those happy faces in school or in front of strangers,

was all like a mask.

A mask to cover up everything hidden inside me.

i wanna know the direction i am heading,

at least some clues on where i can proceed on..

I'm perplexed now.

Life is in such a BIG fuckin mess.

Should i conitnue or quit school, thats what i'm thinking abt so long..

Started school yesterday, to say the fact i have actually no interest in any modules at all. i find myself to be in same shoes like XX, choosing a course with noo interest at all in the first place, and find myself struggling now.

People are giving me so much suggestions, there's pple asking me to try n continue on, and pple are teliing me dun waste my time anymore. Seeing my gpa for sem 1 (1.375) ... i didnt have any confidence to get 2.7 & above for the sem 2 since the modules this time is like 3 times much more difficult than sem 1. I've play too much.

But regardless of all these, i realise that this is my OWN life. pple can only gif me ideas but not helping me to live it.

Told myself to STUDY and STUDY after the failure at O's. but then it seems like i'm gonna waste more than 1 yr.

School fees haven been paid, everything is coming slowly after that.

Paths decided to choose after maybe quitting school:

-MDIS tourism and hospitality management.

maybe im gonna call up and ask abt the fees first. i can complete the course within like 10 mths?

No more time to waste.

in the meantime, conitnue with wadever shit i needed to do. which is:

prepare for workshop safety elective at 1pm. gonna meet all new faces once more. -.-

Ok. fridge rebonded. (:

Prepared to be late for first lesson tmr.

 

 

Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew..