just a stupid moment i had... aha sht.

neh...i wonder about so many things... fck, man. i couldn't what i wanted to say this winter break... but im sure i'll be able to  say it later. :L but yea. i' don'r use my knet anymore lol. kinda sucks ass because... just because lol.... but i wanted to say to my family i'm actyally in love with somone i trust. but i feel that rejection from the other side of the family. i wish i rold them how much i was sorry but i couldn't the outcome of the action taken place at the time because i was led to believe <b>Lies</b> i wish i hhad led a better life with people talking nomally to me, and friends to talk too. but i led thwm away because i couldn'r take anything i gad to live for... all i want to ddo is sleep for a ever long too...I always blamed myself for everthing rejection that came my way....