It happened last night. It was between 3:20am and 3:33 am central standard time. It was the strangest feeling.

  I was suddenly, ever so slightly, in a daze. Then came a feeling of extreme loss. It was absolutely crushing and I felt as though I would hit the floor with the weight of this strange feeling that had come over me. My breath barely came to me and indeed it seemed difficult to breath at all.

  Just as it seemed I was about to lose consciousness to the strong sensation of loss, the daze strengthened. It seemed to strengthen enough to keep me conscious and aware of the feeling of loss. It wouldn't let me escape it. Soon the daze increased as to take away all pain and leave me wondering just what had happened.

  I still do not realize what brought this feeling on. It was as if something very important to me, somewhere, had been taken away forever. I have no idea what to think of the entire situation. I hope I never feel that way again.

  It is my dream to direct videos/movies for the Japanese/Nippon straight to video market. I would like to direct Samurai Dramas. I realize that the Japanese/Nippon straight to video market is dominated by Yakuza films. I would gladly direct one, especially if I could set it in the Tokugawa era.

  I have hundreds of Japanese/Nippon movies and television series on dvd. I am trying to learn Japanese/Nippon language. I have even been going to college to further this goal. Unfortunately the college I chose has stopped offering any helpful classes for this goal, other than Intro to film. I have taken the intro to film course and should be graduating with a two year degree next year in the fall. After that I shall go to another college to get some background, training, and hopefully a degree in directing.

  I discovered this site during one of my searches for information about Japan/Nippon. I noticed it has many actors from Jappan/Nippon and that some are in the movies I have. If anyone has any advice, or can help me achieve these goals please message me.