I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired of my school. I thought senior year is supposed to be your best, but it totally sucks. I am all alone in a sea of annoying nobodies, on my own fuckin' island...and it bites. Big time! No one seems to understand how messed up everything is. There like 'oh that's just how the school is'. Well, I don't give a shit how it is because either way it's NOT right. And what's even worse, is that I lie to keep up appearances. For some sick reason I actually care about my rep there, which pains me deeply. I'll tell everyone 'it's okay' but it's far from it. I feel like a prisoner...literally. All they need is orange jumpsuits and handcuffs. It's bad enough I have to see people I can't stand everyday but really, last I checked we didn't agree to assimilate. And no matter what they say, I won't. This is, by far, the worst year of my high schooling. And the sad part is, it JUST started...

The following except is from a quiz I took on Facebook. It might sound foolish but I totally agree with it. My mask, my pain. I belive it is my inclination to be this way. However, I am not certain of how it is but...

"our mask is pain. For some reason or another you just can't seem to find a positive outlook on life. You get angry when people try to relate with how you feel, because you're convinced they won't understand. Deep down you know there should be a million reasons for people to want to get to know you, but you often find yourself closing yourself off from those around you. You have your select friends, but can't help but want something more. You find opening up difficult, but you do find your ways to let things out. You have your good days, but even through the good times, you feel like there is always going to be those feelings that don't sit right."