Been decades - I guess - eversince my last post here..........

Was invited to his Xmas gathering.......oooooooohhhhhhhhhh - so XCITED about it. (duh!!)

Been telling myself over and over again that - its just a courtesy and frienly invitation and no more than that (been telling myself that since a decade...hahaha )

Well - maybe for this year 2009 - giving myself a false hope is better than NO HOPE at all.  At least to have something to wish and linger on, is much better compare to have nothing in mind.

To have a wish and hope - means that u will try and work hard for it

Although it may be dreadful and painful - but at least I know that........I'm just a normal human being and I am still ALIVE!! (thanx God..phew

HAPPY XMAS FRIENDS!! GOD BLESS!!

Last month..helped a colleague with her project............80 percent was done by me......and yet..she got increment of 700 in her salary due to the success of that project...and I got NOTHING.............no one ever knows that I was the one who did all the research and write up...she was the one that submitted it to the boss....and ..........

How do i felt? dumb................definitely so dumb. She felt bad about it and told me she wanted to explained to the boss..but I think....no need lah (double dumb)...as I don wan the boss to misinterpret the whole issue again.....

Frustrated...........dumb................and sad....................................

Aiii..thats life...God bless..................................

A girl-friend dropped by at my place..and wow...she was amazed with all the cassettes and the CDs..videos and etc of Beyond's collection that I have..hehehehe =p.  Been their ardent fan for a verrrrrry looooooong time lah. Well..maybe not that long comparatively to some of those fans out there but...can be considered as long enuf liao leh.  They are my inspiration for picking up my guitar and oso drum lessons from my church member =)

I never stop listening to their songs actually..errr..well..maybe that may not be 100 percent rite lah. Or put in this way lah...listen to their songs .the one..whereby when Ka Kui was still with us=(

Actually, I stopped buying their albums...the "latest" I have is the one they released after Ka Kui went back to the Lord............."2nd Floor Rear Block"

And start packing up everything except their CDs as I guess..it was a painful...painful news and experience. Sound sentimental eh? Well, I spend my whole free time practising guitars just to play their songs....and even practising my voice so that I can sing like them!! (as if lah I am that good!!) The whole school and the neighborhood know that I go nuts over this group. But alas..when they had their concert here...was not able to see them...cant afford the ticket =((

Listening to Beyond's song now..and another Beyond's fan told me....indeed..Ka Kui will always be in everyone...at least for his fans...memory forever...

So..anyone...if interested..do drop by..have jamming!! =) God bless!!

Was so down for the whole morning till.......he suddenly stopped at my place and asked me to go out for a cup of coffee - morning break ..as what he described it.

Huh?  We never go for breakfast together...and he won't even asks me out - i meant just me and him only lah...just a cup of coffee nia leh..y so anxious huh?

Well..went to a nearby kopitiam...order a glass of ice milo............

He suddenly blurted out that he felt sorry for what had happened yesterday.  Seeing that I was bombarded like hell and yet none in the group dare to comment anything.  He hopes that I was ok..dont take it too seriously and think too much about it...

Wow.........suddenly can see the sun shine so brightly and heard a lot birds chirping sound..haha  Well..it does make my day leh..as before that conversation..I was sooo down and dont know how to start my day and dont  feel like talking to anyone.....Wah......

Anyway...it was just for about 15 to 20 minutes talk nia lah..nothing much going on...just a normal colleage to colleague conversation with some words of encouragement from him...

I can see rainbows everywhere now..hahahah...(just over a cup errr...a glass of milo nia leh..please leh...)

Thanks for the encouragement..........................God bless