She cheated :[

 all she gave me was this!! not fair she wasn't even in it!! D:<

So Kelsey asked me to like take a picture everyday supposedly of myself and I asked her for the same thing~  So this projects starts for the Lunar Calender since shes in HK shes 1 day ahead and have more pics than me already... 

 

Day 1

She got this chicky and its like gigantic!

 I just got of work and went home so nothing special happened~~

Its the first day of school, again... Somehow i feel that this years pf high school is different and that i do not belong here. Maybe it is cause i'm a fifth year, also the oldest out of may students/ friends in teh school. but oh well this year is just used for me to relax and to have fun~ I just hope everything goes fine and nothing big comes up~

I know everyone has a question or two for life but for me since my life is messed i think i have a little more than you do...

Why do I have bad marks in school?
Why does good things happen to bad people and vice versa?
Why does tv teach us love can conquer all but now is just being used to take advantage of someone?
Why are there fake people in the world?
Why do people steal?
Why is there bad people?
Why is there hobo?
Why did Adam and Eve eat the apple of knowledge?
Why did God leave us by ourself?
Why does everyone have best friends and i have just connections?
Why did i just think of suicide?
Why oh why oh why...

Life to be more specific my life... Whats the point of it? before i would used to say make everyone happy cause i was a joyful person so they say. I have lost my integrity and lost track in life, kind of like a little boy lost his way home or just something like it. How can I make people happy when I myself is not happy? Throughout this life of mine i have learned a lot skills like Magic tricks, Cooking, Wood shop, Design, Art, Music, and some small little skills. Most of these skills would easily make someone smile. But it doesn't work on this very person i love so dearly...[Here comes a cheesy line] Oh how I would trade everything for her happiness. 

GAH I'M BEING TO DAM OBSESSIVE I NEED TO DO MORE PRODUCTIVE THINGS GAWD =[ I think this is why they have a saying "behind every successful man theres a woman" and i'm not being successful at all right now more like lan lai 懶泥... help me oh lordy. 

oh yea whats the point of signing on if your not even there to reply eh?  =[

 

 

I guess all I can do is wait... until she talks to me if she talks to me...
But dang it i'm so scared =[