These are my Favourite Male Singers who have the Sexiest Voice in the World:

          #5 ---> Bono (The Lead Singer of U2). To me, his voice is so rugged, at the same time, melancholy. All the songs sang by him have the charm that would touch your heart and direct all your attention to its lyrics and music.


          #4 ---> Rob Thomas (Solo Artist and the Lead Singer of Matchbox Twenty). His voice is the most sexy in his collaboration with Santana, Smooth! His expressiveness make his voice irresistible!


          #2 ---> Lenny Kravitz (Solo Artist). He has the sexiest voice in the world. The sexiness of his voive is being expressed to its fullness in Again! I feel sexy whenever I listen to his music! I just love him so so much, but definitely not the face though!

          Lately, my sleeping hours have been totally upside down. I sleep aroung 6am and wake up at 2pm. And I lose my appetite as well. I eat 2 meals a day only. What a healthy life that I have. I guess pretty soon, I'm gonna look like 37, instead of 27, although I'm only 22!

          It's just so hard to sleep at night. All alone ... ... That's why I sleep at day; it gives me the sense of security. The whole world is busy during the day, and that seems to calm me down. But the world rests at night, and that makes me feel lonelier, which leads to insomnia ... ...

          I have a thought. What if I'm dead right now at this moment, how long will it take for people to find out about it? I mean, people will start to worry about me only after I've been gone for a very long time. By then, I guess my dead body will be turned into dust. That is every singles' worst fear and nightmare ... ... die alone ... ... unnoticed ... ... nobody really cares ... ...

          Another thing is, in less than one month, I'm gonna be homeless, because I'll be moving out from my currently shit hole, and I'm still searching for a new place to move in. 

          What a great start of a brand new year!

          It's 12am now! Happy New Year to Everybody. I'm sure that you guys are having a great time now. But not for me. Definitely nope. Here I am, home alone, have no one to cheer with or talk to, feeling all so blue and sad. It's suffocating. Haiz ... ... How lonely and pathetic I am.

          My gosh! The loneliness and the emptiness are eating me alive. I just don't know how to cope with it. It's just so difficult and it makes me hard to breathe. I'm such a loser! A pathetic loser!

          Today in the gym, Sherman said that I look extra sad and blue, and he's concerning about what's wrong with me. So, it is obvious that I'm lonely. It's like I'm releasing some kind of aura or energy or the smell of loneliness + emptiness. I think I can be a pretty good ambassador for LONELINESS. 

          Well, I don't know what's wrong with me either. I guess it's because of everybody seems to have an exciting plan to welcome the new year, EXCEPT ME. Sigh ... ... My life shouldn't be like this and I don't want it to be like this either. I mean, I'm 22, still young, I should have go out and have some fun. And what the fuck am I doing here? Wasting my youth in front of the laptop! I'll definitely gonna regret it and hate myself for this when I'm old.

          Just yesterday, Colin called and asked me what did I get for X'mas. I told him the truth, which is nothing. And he finds it very hard to believe. Well, believe it or not, I don't get a single X'mas present this year or any other years before, and I don't even get a birthday present from anyone that I know. Not that I'm complaining because I don't expect to get one either. I'm just trying to state the point that I'm lonely, miserable, pathetic and sad here.

          But today, Sherman surprised me. He gave me a birthday present. And I really thank him for that. Although it's not something expensive, I love it. In fact, it's my first birthday present that I have ever got for the last 10 years, or maybe longer than that. His small gesture certainly did stop me from thinking of killing myself.

          Anyway, my new year resolutions? Well, none. Because I don't want to expect and hope for something, and then get nothing and disappoint myself in the end.

          I guess I'll just cry myself to sleep now. 

          Wishing all of you a great 2009 ahead! Bonne Annee!