well ... let me tell you today was a crazy day! it seemed that the whole world was against me. i hate when that happens.

at first i havent had much sleep last night. i guess thats a well-known and common thing among (young) adults. guess what happened! ... of course i didnt hear my alarm clock in the morning. when i woke up it was 11.15 am! i got up got dressed and left in a hurry to make it in time for my class. when i got there nobody was in the room. at that moment i realized that i was 2 hours late! ... i totally missed my class! ... i mean actually im the most punctual person! how could that happen to me?
oh well...so i decided to run some erands. i left my car at the campus and walked over to another one. i needed to make some copies for my japanese class. i was loaded with all my stuff for class i actually didnt need, walked in the office and wanted only 5 sheets of paper to copy. the lady suddenly handed me 2 huge folders, containing all the material. i was like "WTF? are you kidding me? how am i going to carry all of this?" on top of that i needed to walk over to a different building. (and again....only to make 5 copies!!!!!) ... guess what? it totally isnt my day today! the copy machine was broken! ... i was so pissed! i wanted to scream already! ... so moving on to the next building i wanted to re-charge my copy card! ... and guess what? ... again! ... the damn thing was broken! ... so i went up to the later at the counter and asked her where i can re-charge the card! and she told me i could do it at the library! ... you wanna guess where the library is located? ... exactly where my car was parked! about a mile away! ... i looked at the lady: " are you kidding me? ... ive been running around like crazy! i just wanna make 5 damn copies!"
the lady was pretty cool finally and gave me her card to make the copies! ... thank god!
on my way to bring back the huge folders my purse broke down! ... let me tell you! i was turning mad and furious. so i carried a broken and heavy bag and 2 stupid folders.
by the time i was back sitting in my car i remembered that i still needed some groceries. on my way home i stopped at the store. believe me! i was about to throw everything to the ground, jump on it and leave! ... i just wanted to buy some bread and milk! i was waiting 20 minutes at the cashier! nobody cared! ... all these stupid people in front of me! packed with food!
but i made it out (cant remember how long it took though!), got in my car and just wanted to go home! i got out of the drive way and suddenly there was another car coming from the right! it almost hit me! the guy looked at me as if he was about to kill me! ... dude! ever heared of driving careful and looking ahead? ... i would have choked that stupid prick if something would have happened to my car!

well...now im home! save! and actually i dont want to leave again coz its simply not my day to be out on the street! ... i felt like a target! like some kind of bullseye one shoots little darts at!
but i have class again tonight! hopfully my friend will drive there!

but i feel much better now that ive written the stuff down. i pray that tomorrow will be filled with much more enjoyment and glory! ... btw...the weather sucks too! so my mood is really bad anyways!

   

let me tell you ... the last week has been a crazy ride for me. and once more i realized that it is important to believe in (at least) something!

on monday my semester started again. i´m at university. but during the first week it feels like i´ve been running for supplies shortly before the world will fall apart. everybody is going crazy about getting into specific classes. the lectures are overloaded with people. it´s like hell is breaking lose. i hope this will be over soon!

and tuesday i heard of the big, troublesome news:
as for myself i´m german but i have a strong sense of belonging to the united states where i was spending alomst 2 years of my life.
i was living in san fernando valley ( a part of los angeles). i was going to school there. i have found family and friends. and even though they are far away i feel connected to them! ... simply speaking ... they are my second family! i love these guys!
it was around tuesday noon when i heard about 2 huge fires taking place in the valley. i was shocked and i instantly started to get more information on that matter. i didn´t know what to think or what to do when i found out that one of the fires was located in porter ranch (a part of the valley). that is where i was living. where all my friends are still living!
i was so worried! i knew that most of the people in the whole area had been evacuated already. i couldn´t reach anybody. i didn´t really know what´s going on. i just found out that the fire had already destroyed around 13,000 acres of land and it was only 70% contained.
so ... what are you doing when something like this happens? i was shaking, almost crying. i am a few thousand miles away. nobody was able to tell me anything. i felt helpless. i couldn´t be with my friends who have helped me through struggles and difficult times.
for me there was just one way to support them ... speaking a prayer!
i was baptized last year in april while i was studying in los angeles. it was a great honor for me. i found a church near my apartment. it was a mandarin church. maybe that´s a reason why i somehow strongly feel connected to the asian culture? since there were almost exclusively asians in the community.

well ... now it´s sunday. the fires have been a 100% contained. i feel relieved. nobody has been harmed. i´m glad!
for me it was another proof that it is always good to have trust and faith in something or someone. i mean ... for me there was simply no other way. i wasn´t able to go there. i wasn´t able to give support personally. the only thing i could do was pray for them.  ... and it helped!

you guys remember this? ... i almost cried when it got wrecked at the end of  the movie "Gone in 60 Seconds"! This car is the most awesome thing ive seen in years! ...         

well ... today is monday and i have 45 minutes left until "supernatural" starts. i´ve actually seen the first, second and half of the third season. but in english! so i gotta watch it again in german which is really bad. with the german voices you´ll never get the irony and the jokes they make! ... oh well!

the last couple of days were actually kinda exciting. today i met a friend whom i haven´t seen for the last three years, i guess! ... it was awesome! luckily, we found out that both of us have one or two classes together at university. i actually thought that i might be the only one of the people i started studying with, who still needs these particular courses! ... i was wrong and thats good!
for a few days ive been thinking now. ive read this blog posted on daniel wu´s  page where he talked about the importance of politics. i don´t think that anybody will read my blog always but if you do... go there and read it!
ive never been really involved into politics. i know that its important though! my parents used to pay me a little only that i´d go to the local elections in my hometown.
but daniels post made me think. and that´s the first step of real understanding. i think i was wrong with my thinking. and i guess i need to increase my knowledge about politics.
i mean ... how can i be able to judge without really knowing?
well ... daniel if you ever visit this page and read this blog ... thanks, xie xie, danke ... for letting me realize that fact!

so ... gotta go now! ... im out!

zai jian

well ... its been a while since my last blog. but here i am ... back and finally posting something new!
for the last almost 2 weeks i was home, visiting my parents and friends who live about 400 miles away, somewhere near berlin (germany). actually it is pretty nerve-wrecking driving all the way there, since it takes me almost 4 hours. (NOTE: it probably would take longer if i would pay attention to the speed limits! ... lol!) i dont make a big deal out of it. i am good in driving way to fast and getting speeding tickets! the first day i have spent with my family. just hanging out, chillin´! enjoying the last bit of warmth this year. now its starting to get cold and uncomfortable here in good old germany. so ... my family was chillin´ . my dad and me were having some beer. watching some dumb german movie on tv! ... you guys cant imagine how bored i was!!!!!

well ... the next evening i thought that i need to do something different. i didnt wanna spent another night like that! i hate nothing more than being forced to watch a movie i dont enjoy! ... but like always ... nobody was there! nobody had time!
so i decided to go see a movie at the movie theater. alone! ... by the time i got there i was trying to decide which movie im going to see. and then i knew! ... my friend called me up a few days earlier and told me about a really stupid and boring movie. he asked me NOT to watch it!!!! .... but what youre doing if somebody tells you not to do something? ... youll do it anyways cause youre curious!
i bought the ticket while earning strange looks from the employees. "Its a girl! the movie is dumb! and she is watching it!?"- LOOK!
so here the first thing i recognized:



well ... i couldnt help but this looked familiar to me:



alright ... "The Fifth Commandment"! ... i thought id watch it! ... i love action movies! ... oh well ... i need to say it different: i love GOOD action movies! ... but this one? ... WTF? OMG! ... im really sorry! ... rick yune ... i do like you! but this movie is CRAP!!!!!!!! ... there was so much whining and crying and drama! ... it started off in the 70´s. a black and cheap "shaft"-copy in chinatown. at first i thought ... omg ...im sitting in the wrong movie! ... but unfortunately i didnt! ... it seemed like a remake of tons of different 90´s b-movies! ... did i mention the film was huge bullshit? ... i mean if youre planning to make a action movie where the main character is a chinese assassin trained in martial arts for years ... PLEASE use your skills next time!
well ... i could go on and on and on! but i stop right here! otherwise the movie gets more attention than it deserves!
the next day turned out to be a greater success. i met up with my best friend. we were discussing the plans for the night. like always. in a city like brandenburg you wont find anything interesting to do during the week. so we ended up going to the movies! Again!!!
we decided to watch "babylon a.d."! it turned out to be great entertainment.



i wished i could have seen it in english! one thing you need to know about germans: they are spoiled! even with movies. everything is dubbed. vin diesel with a german voice sounds very funny! ... but im a fan of good CGI and action. so this movie was a MUST-SEE! ... ok ... it was not the best one, but it was a great opportunity for me to escape from reality at this night!

a few days later we had this special holiday in germany: "Day of the German Unity". its about remembering the time when the berlin wall came down and east and west germany was united in to one big country.
on that day we had a concert in town. it was awesome. PUNK ROCK is still alive not dead! normally im not into that kind of music. but the atmosphere was great. all these different people together! beer, partying! ... great time! ... needed that!



awesome band!

now im back at my apartment in giessen, near frankfurt. i loved being home with my parents. but it is even better to be back. spending time with my roommate and my cat!   getting the chance to watch my movies again! lol!

oh ... i almost forgot! ... i was watching "Alone in the Dark 2" ... speaking of rick yune! ... im a huge fan of the game and the first movie.
but one thing is clearly not right: christian slater playing the character of edward carnby in the first part! and now? rick yune playing the same character in the sequel? which is btw not really a sequel cause it has nothing to do with the original or the game! ... i mean the cast was great! but replacing a caucasian actor by a chinese one doesnt seem right to me! since it is a sequel!!!!!! ... (Note: please dont get me wrong! i enjoy rick yune! just not as this particular replacement!) ... but what do you expect if uwe boll has his fingers in a movie!?

alright ... i guess i have said all i needed to tell you about my last week! ... for a movie freak it was great all-the-way-entertainment!
so ... im out!

zai jian