Hi to all who reads my blogs, which may i add are not many!!!

Kung Hei Faat Choi or Kung xi Faat Chai (happy chinese new year)

So what is my chinese new year resolution??? Oddly enough, im going all out to attempt to make an absolute full of myself and do all i can to get Miss Selena Li to go out with me. Yes its a long shot, but hey thats what happens when you're born in the year of the tiger. If your gonna do something that you have your heart set on well most of the time the tiger usually gets he's prey!

And to all who reads these blogs from now on i ask for your assistance and help me achieve this pipe dream. I ask for any sugesstions and please get anyone you know or who you will get to to know and help me as much as you can.

Yes it sounds like a computer virus, but not. Lets just say im not gonna give up until ive finnaly met this wonderful person or unless im 40!

I am a man on a mission, so spread the word. No matter where you live, please help and you guys shall be rewarded, somehow. hehe.

Until further blogs, this is Nathan signing out and hope you have a great chinese new year. Cheers.

Happy new year to all who reads my bitter and tragic tales of my life and the fantasies i dream up every night as i ponder and fall asleep.

Ok, so where to start??? Well im not sure if you guys were aware but i was unemployed for about a year til last October. Now im happy to Work for the Metropolitian Museum of Arts. No im not based in New York(i wish though!) but the store in Sydney. Lets just say im like an office allrounder as i dont have a proper job title. Thanks Boss!

So most of you by now must be wondering what the title of this blog is all about. Well it wasn't just that stuff i wrote. that was just the appitiser!

Hmmm, where to start. long story short, Aimee Chan is out, Selena Li is in.

That was for all those lazy buggers who can't be bothered to read the rest of this blog. Yes you know who you are

So why is Aimee out and this Selena in??? As most of you know iv'e always had a massive crush on Aimee since like forever.

So much for Savage Garden quoteing "i knew i loved you before i met you, i think i dreamed you into life"

Yes there's a new girl on the block.

So who is this new girl who seems to have stolen my heart?

Well miss Li (no relations to me, my surname is spelt Lee) is a former miss HK contestant, TVB actress, very beautiful, from Canada(Toronto), so both girls are ver similar.

The smile says it all.

So why am i so gaga over this 'Selena'? Simple, her smile. Here's proof.

People, if you google her, you will notice she's quite photogenic but has a smile that can melt the biggest iceberg on the planet!

There are other things which i have noticed while checking some clips of her on youtube, and she has similar habits and twitches like me. Well it made me blush.

But as usual, Houston, we have a problem. She's got a boyfriend

What can you do??? Well in my case nothing. but the day i meet someone like her who may i say have favourable facial features, which in ancient times would have made her the perfect wife if you believe in Fung shui and other chinese heeby jeeby stuff like that. well lets just say it aint gonna happen anytime soon.

Well its time to go and cry me a river!

Ill be back soon for my next installment of my 2011 blogs and hopefully this year will be a good one. All we can do is pray and burn alot of joss sticks.

Bye for now. mwa

Wow, been awhile since i've written a blog.

Well wat have you missed? not much really besides the fact i have no job, drown my sorrow with soppy love songs and hang out with a past work collegue who's name will annonomous1 Pardon the spelling

Yes i have compiled what i believe to be the best 20 odd love songs ever. And the winnners in no particular order are

I dont want to miss a thing, She's so high, Everything i do, i do it for you, Amazed, I knew i loved you, Glory of love, iI just want to be your everthing, Against all odds, I will always love you, If ever you're in my arms again, A whole new world, Beauty and the beast, Have i told you lately that i love you, Nothing gonna change my love for you, Have you ever, Shape of my heart, Back here, Little Jeanie, Lost without you and Dont love you no more.

To all who read my blogs, reply back and have your say on my selections.

Sadely i did not include Unchaged melody from the Righteous Brothers, which is Miss HK 2006 fav song. Is that an Omen???

Hopefully it isn't.

Ok ppl. Got a situation. What do you do if your best friend is stuck in a time warp, And i mean litterally?

My BFF who shall be un-named is stuck in the dark ages and refuses to relise that this is the 21st century!

I do my very best to help this person see the light, but to no success. And it doesn't help when they say "ill be fine" or "forget about it" cause seriosly deep down inside i know it isn't fine or things to forget.

We all live in a dog eat dog world and only the strongest survive.

It is sad when you are so use to being a one man band and not atleast want help or a shoulder to lean on when your down and out. How does one survive like that?

I guess we are all individuals but if you cant rely apon friends, who can you. surely family is an important thing to have, but what happens when they pass away or move out of the house?

So many questions, so little time.

I just hope my help does not go unnoticed. If it does, what hope do any of us have on this planet.

please reply to this blog and give some advice to this person. It would be much appreciative. I hope they appreciate the help as much as i help them personally.

Well thats all i have to say atm. And still no luck with Aimee Chan! mwa

To all who reads, my blogs, happy chinese valentines day or Qi Xi.

Ok, so im guesing for most of you who read this and are not chinese may not know the story of Qi Xi.

ok where to start. One day many odd years ago lived a Cowherd. One day while walking by a pool of water, he was peeping on 5 beautiful maidens from heaven. He decided to play a prank on the girls and decided to take all their clothes. When the sisters found that their clothes were missing, the 4 eldest decided to make the youngest retreive their clothes.

The youngest sister eventually found the cowherd and demanded for her and her sisters clothes. He agreed to give the clothes back on the condition that they would be married, as it was custom that if a man saw a women naked on their first encounter, they had no choice but to get married.

The only problem was the Cowherd was a mortal but the maiden wasn't. The sisters eventually went back t heaven to ask the Jade emperor to bless the the youngest sister and the Cowherd's marriage. But he was enraged in that he was not ane of them, not an immortal.

now this is the sad part

There are two types of ending to this story, you decide on what you like.

One tale goes that the Jade emperor's wife was sad about these two people who fell madely in love with eachother could not be with eachother. She decided one day a year on the 7th day of the 8th lunar month, she would make a bridge from heaven to earth so they could be together for that one day.

The other tale goes the Magpies in heaven felt sorry for the couple and on the same day as the tale before, the Magpies would tie pieces of red string to make a bridge so they could see eachother.

Im so goona cry soon!

Ok, customs.

Don't know if they do this or not, but on the 7th day of the 8th lunar month all the single women were chaperone at night to find their future husband's.

Another thing that was done was if a women puts a needle into a bowl of water and it floats, they were ready to get married.

And to top it off, girls would compete to thread several numbers of needles on a red string in rememberance of the magpies.

Well its bed time fo me and yup, no luck today for me in the love department. Well there's always next year

Hope you all enjoy this blog. chat to you all later ppl. mwa and a big mwa to Aimee, not sayingf see reads this but hey, im the king of wishful thinking!

To all who reads these following blogs, i say thank you.

Ok so how should i start?Hmmm.

I can't believe iv'e forgotton what i was going to say, well the exact words anyway. I had it all planned while listenining to Lionel Ritchie on my Ipod on the way from my house to my Local Library, which is where i currently am due to the fact i don't have the internet at home(Note to self, must get internet SOON).

Ok, wow i get so side tracked. So from the start or as they say "In the beginning" i grew up in the inner  western suburbs of Concord West, Sydney, Australia until the age of about 8, well i think i did, til my parents split. Then i moved to the current area in which i reside now, which is Hurstville. Yes i assume most of you who read this blog has no idea where these places are, unless your from Sydney.

I had quite an ok of a childhood besides the one big incident that kind of changed my life.

Yes this may sound really stupid and absolutely crazy, but i remember this particular event like it was yesterday.

One of my Aunty's decided to open a chinese resturaunt and as with tradition, you open up the place with a BANG. Litererally 

So i was just hanging around around the bar, when all of a sudden, the next thing i hear were the loud banging of drums, cymbols and gongs.

If you guys have read my little profile thingy, you know where this is going. As with you first time readers, this is what happened.

Next thing i noticed entering the doors was this hidious big creature which seem to move as fast as lightning. Its big mouth looking like it wanted to bite me into pieces.

And the noise didn't help either.

Ever since that time, ive always been afraid of the Lion dance. That maybe a reason why ive never travelled to Hong Kong, which is my Mum's native Homeland or my Father's home, Guangzhou, which is where the Lion dance origionated from. Yay.

But slowly but surely, im trying to overcome that fear.

Sometimes i do blame my unluckyness on that faitful night.

The Lion dance is suppose to be Auspicious, and well i don't think i git any luck that night, and it has continued until now.

Lets skip a few years.

Well my School life was ok. Suprisingly, i didn't have many asian friends. Most of them were Australian.

I did have a great chinese friend, Alistair from my days i went to Strathfield North primary. Yes we are friends on facebook!! Although i haven't spoken to him for ages. I must say, he is a very lucky man. He's Girlfriend is very elegant and beautiful.

Makes me wonder whats going on with me?

How come im so unlucky with love. Yes most people say im impatient and that im still young.

The thing they dont understand is that when your struck with an incurable brain condition and you have no one to sare your emotions, your pain, the happy times, the sad, yeah you do feel like you want to end your life.

Im just hanging in  there due to the fact that i believe i have to much to do in this lifetime left for me.

I still want to get married, have children, take my kids to see their grandparents and great grand parents as much as i can, to see their smile and think, hey my son/ grandson has done well.

Thats really the only thing thats holding me back from doing something i will regret in my next life.

As with my unluckyness, im not just unlucky in love. Work, health, friends etc.

Yes i got the short straw.

yes surely there are less fortunate people out there. I know that. But as with me, well life sucks!

Lets skip another few years to 2005.

What started out to be another usual day at Tafe became an absolute nightmare.

I briefly remember what happened. I was discussing with my mum on the phone in the morning about a planned trip that we were going to take in a few weeks to Disneyland. Most of the day was ok. It had the usual learn about a car part then some prac work on brakes.

On our afternoon break, me and afew friends were walking to the canteen, when all of a sudden i felt dizzy and tired. I think i mumbled to my friend "i feel sleepy" Next thing i noticed, i blanked out and started to shake violently on the ground. I was trying to yell " help" but there was no sound coming out of my mouth. It was like i was gasping for air. After about 30 seconds, i started to come around, although my whole body felt like a tonne ok maybe 2 tonnes of bricks. I tried to get up, but i couldn't. It didn't help either the fact that i accidently hit my mouth on those industrial size bin. But there was only alittle bit of blood.

Shortly the ambulance came and i was taken to the nearest hospital, which was about 5 minutes down the road.

when i got there, they went through some basic checks, find my contact, then i said to one of the nurse "my right side of my body feels funny' and i assume you know what happens next.

I eventually woke up with a drip in my arm, resting in one of the hospital rooms. It was so bright, i thought i may be either dreaming or worse case, dead.

Mum was next to my bed in the room, very freaked out as would any mother.

I was eventually taken to a ward room, where i would spend the next 2 weeks.

The first night was torture. I didn't know wether or not to sleep, cause i was worried i would have another fit. I was eventually so tired, i just dozed to sleep.

The following few days were a combination of brain test and rest. My right side of my body still was quite stiff, and moving was very uncomfortable.

even after several different brain test, the doctors still couldn't find the trigger that sets off my seizures. Yay, that was comforting.

Wow i was a lab rat, yet there were no conclusion to my trigger. Sucked big time.

Eventually i was allowed home and Tafe. The first few weeks back at home was very unusual, well when it came to sleeping it was. Anxiety, depression and whatever you can think of gave me several nights of unrestfulness sleep.

I did get a good welcome back at Tafe from my peers and teacher. That was nice.

As with my friends, they were how can you say very lardy da.

But how can you talk to someone about your condition if they have no idea about it or refuse to want to know about it. Some friends i have.

That is why i am a tad eagar for a partner, well to find her or her find me.

I have been praying to Buddha every year since 2006 for miss Hong Kong winner Aimee Chan, but lets face it, it will never happen. So yesterday i went to make my annual pilgramige to the biggest temple in Sydney and pray that my one true love will be revealed to me soon.

But i highly doubt that my pray will be answered anytime soon. Somehow my wishes end up at the bottom of the well and there comes my unluckyness again.

Sometimes i do ask myself why do i bother? Maybe it comes down to watching those Hong Kong Tv drama series where there is a happy ending and the lovey dovey theme songs give me that sence of hope.

But in reality, Stuff like that don't happen, well not for me in this instance.

Why do i choose girls like Aimee Chan???

Is it to please my family and say hey, my life is pretty good, i have a beautiful wife and that means she will love me to the day i die?

But its not all about appearance. I guess the type of partner i would love to have is someone like Selena Li's character, Sum Yi in A change of destiny. Beuatiful, kind, careing, smart, creative, witty, protective, loyal, looks after her partner's parents before looking after herself which is so unselfish of herself.

The fact is those type of girls don't exist these days.

She is stubborn at times, yet so careing. Sum Yi stays with her partner even when he is disrespectful, uncareing, stupid, gambles he's life away and eventually goes insane!

In saying that, there's Nikki Chow's character, Ling Ka Yan. Similar  in that when she meets her future husband, he his quite a rogue. Very self centered, uncareing stuff like that, yet Yan bares he's attitude cause she believes theres a good man inside, and she's waiting to be there to see that man.

But seriously, you don't find those type of girls anymore. Its sad.

In saying that, what if there is a girl out there like that?

What am i to do?

Somehow i get the leftovers.

I get quite sad when i see couples walking together on the streets. I think how and why?

i don't know if this is true or not, but as with most of my friends, they find there partners through college, uni, church or nightclubs.

Maybe im not going to these places enough, well the church and nightclub kind of place.

I guess when you have epilepsy, you do hold back with the nightclubs, which is like a social gathering for the under 25's, As with Church, i have'nt been for a while.

So what is one to do?

I guess i could keep waiting and hope by the age of 60 i find that someone special

Not exactly feasable.Wow ive been goin on for ages. I guess i have alot to say at the moment!

But hey, who actually reads this, besides me?

I was thinking of travelling each year from next year at on Valentines day to Hon Kong, and wait by lovers rock for that someone special. But thats wishful thinking!

it sounds crazy, but it wont work.

I can't believe i wrote that.hehe

But like i said, no one gonna read this except myself.

Hey blogs re there to write whats on your mind, and this is whats on my mind.

I think ive written enough, so its time to sign out.