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My thoughts written down
Monday, Apr 27, 2009 11:34PM / Standard Entry / Members only
My first blog & from the looks of it, it doesn't look too good. Well, it depends which angle you look at it I suppose. The situation is pretty bad, but the positive thing is, I'm seeking help of some sort. I'm pretty sure a lot of people are going through what I am at the moment, but for me, I don't know what to do.
So basically, I have been studying all my life so far. But I hate studying so much. I wanted to stop studying while I was still in college. My motivation and determination to study just vanished. I really wanted to give up right there and then. Obviously, I didn't because all of my friends and family advised me to stay in education and get a degree. I listened to each and every one of my friends & family & like probably everyone, I continued with my education. It wasn't just their advice but I also wanted to do it so that my parents can be proud.
At this very moment, I'm back in phase one, where I have lost all sense of motivation and determination to continue with my studies. I'm repeating my 2nd year. Yes, I did fail some modules last year & now I gotta repeat the failed modules. But like an idiot, I told my parents that I am in my final year. They are all expecting me to graduate this year & finally find a career I can settle in. But my studies are not going very well, so when the time comes, I have to confront my parents about my whole situation. I don't know how they are going to take it. I don't know how to bring it up & tell them. & most of all I don't know what I should do when this academic year ends.
Most people would already know by the time they are 18 - 20 or maybe even younger what their dream would be. I don't know what kind of career I want to be in. Obviously, I have thought about many things that I might be able to do but there's always that bit of uncertainty. Also, with the economy the way it is, it is pretty hard. *sigh*
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