Monday, Aug 17, 2009 12:36AM / Members only
The first thing that I can use to describe my feeling right now is just --HELPLESS
I sent few emails to Melvyn and I know all the products I made is really sucks...
Very homemade,no standard at all...
Even sis and bro in law said so...
I received his mail now...
He told me dat none of my products impress him.
I tried my best...I dunno what to do anymore.
No one helps me,your demand is too high for me...
I dun have any experiences,but I dun scared to work harder and even work like a cow.
I never scared of load of work...I just need a job.
I dun feel like staying at home and doing nothing anymore...
Actually I am a tough gurl,I dun give up because of such small tiny stuffs...
Abd maybe now I have no more confident to myself...
I feel dat my baking skills really sucks,and I cannot make even a good breads...
Sorry,sorry... and sorry...I am not the best
What the hell...I can't stop crying right now...
I feel dat the world is so hopeless to me...
I never felt so helpless like now...
Am i choosing the wrong pathway for my future? I dunno wer to walk now...
I feel like there's no roads for me to choose anymore...I will just like an useless person and stay at home doing nothing and just online to chat and to tell lies and cheat people everyday...
I dun wan...please...take me outta of this kinda life...
I can't imagine dat I can cry while writing a blog...
Sorry to myself,sorry to dad and mom...sorry to everyone dat I can't do well...
I am sucks...really...!!!
I can't imagine that I will cry like this because a job.
What's wrong with me!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHH!
I can't cry!!! I have to make more products to impress him.
I can't just give up like dat...
I say I can means I can...I will make some puff pastries tomorrow...
Try my best!!! No failure for tomorrow!!!
Friends in Linda's blog concern about me...
A lot of people are right over there supporting me...like, MOMMY!!!
I can't just give up like dat,seriously...
I have to learn how to drive again tomorrow...I can't continue to cry now.
I have to get myself to bed soon.
Melvyn,wait for me...I will try my best...
I wanna work in your bakery!!!
Be happy,be tough,Joanna!!!
If you think you can,you can!!!
Good night...you are strong...
Tears throw away all of your weakness...and now you are energetic again...
Yah!!! Good night...
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