My blog

My Love Won't Walk Away

Tuesday, Feb 10, 2009 12:38AM / Standard Entry

I was distressed and upset because i lost my paycheck yestaurday. But in the lost, i have found Great love from God, i have found peace because I can peel my eyes from money, thank you Lord for the comfort you have given me in this passage. Give me strength to focus on your love, let peace fill me.

Isaiah 54:4-10

Dont be afraid- you're not going to be embarraseed

Dont hold back - you're not going to come up short.

You'll forget all about the humiliations of your youth

and the indignities of being a widow will fade from memory

For your Maker is your bridegroom.

his name, God -of -Angel-Armies!

Your Redeemer is The Holy of ISrael,

known as God of the whole earth

You were like an abandoned wife, devastated with grief,

and God welcomed you back,

Like a woman married young and then left, " says your God.

Your Redeemer God says:

I left you, but only for a moment

Now, with enormous compassion, I'm briniging you back.

In an outburst of anger I turned my back on you ----

but only for a moment.

It's with lasting love

that I'm tenderly caring for you.

This exile is just like the days of Noah for me:

I promised then that the waters of Nopah would never again flood the earth.

I'm promising now no more anger,

no more dressing you down.

For even if the mountatins walk away

and the hills fall to pieces,

My love wont walk away from you,

my covenant commitment of peace won't fall apart."

THe God who has compassion on you says so.

God is Great!

Add a comment
Frustrated

Friday, Feb 6, 2009 4:52AM / Standard Entry

I am having a really frustrated today. Everything just seems to go wrong! I have gotten pissed more than once today. Maybe i am just tired or maybe the room is too HOT. Maybe i am just too uptight about everything. Who knows. But i feel terrible. I just get really ticked off whenever i hear people wine...

Sometimes you do things for people and they are unappreciated.. sometimes they come back and blame you for whatever that goes wrong.

From now on i will mind my own business....keep out of people's business and you will be safe

I just hate to hear people wine before they even try to find a solution.. you have to look for a solution urself, the world cannot and does not spoon-feed you. You have to adopt an independent attitude in life. Maybe some people are lucky and can depend on others, but i have learnt this early on enough you cant depend on nobody, you have to try to do thngs yourself ... the only one you can depend is God.

Relationships are just not good for me today.

3 comments– Add a comment
Turning into a boiled Mushroom soon

Tuesday, Feb 3, 2009 6:47AM / Standard Entry

Uugged , i feel like a pan fried chicken in here.. and a mushroom too (been sitting at the office too long and sun baking my sides) Its too hot in here. I have already stripped off layers and layers of clothing (no pun intended)

Man, today is Monday again. I hate Mondays. Didnt do much yestaurday either because i was feeling so terrible because i caught the flu a...gain.

So nice today too, met up with my friend at fairview mall. I was surprised that she would come all this way all by herself. I really admired her strength since i know raising a kid by yourself is not a easy task. I hope everything will be good for her this year. And its really fun to go shopping with my best friend. She bought a really sexy top, that had me googling. Actually i bought the same top too last week...

I bought another top today, a pink blouse that i think i need to wear a tank inside, since everytime i tried to raise my arms up it goes up with me lol.

Just want to thank my dearsest mom for writing that encouring letter to me this morning. I will treasure it forever. Its so sweet that it really makes my day.

God i am really sorry i didnt want to go to church yestaurday, and being so stubborn and not wanting to pray ... sometimes i just suddenly get so emotional...

Aarrgh... My Boss just try to karate kick me right now. I am screaming like hell, hopefully our neighbors dont think we are nuts. They probably do already after what happened last time

Add a comment
Updates from Jen

Tuesday, Jan 13, 2009 1:07AM / Standard Entry

Havent updated this blog in a long time. Alot of things happen during this period of time but i didnt feel like writing. My Grandmother passed away last month on the same day when i had symptom of a DVT clot again. I received the bad news when i got out of the hospital so i didnt get to see her one last time. It still tears me up to think about her. She has been a wonderful mother, and grandmother. Although my grandmother is really strict she is very kind of her grandchildren. I could still remember her taking me down to Downtown when i was young and she would also buy a lot of fun stuff for JOJO and I. Even when i was 20, i still receive my grandmother's loving gifts. I miss her terribly and on the day of the funeral i cried like crazy. I was like a broken facet, couldnt stop crying. When they told me to draw the blanket for her before her casket was close, i really broke down. I couldnt believe after all these years, my grandmother is going for real. I even half expect her to jump right out and say she is ok.

But i guess she is in good hands now, she is now with God enjoying God's grace in His kingdom, i thank God for giving my grandmother the opportunity to know him and be baptism not long before she reached this stage. Her passing really change my view of life to see the importance of spreading the Gospel to everyone you know, everyone you care. Because one day when they have to go you still know that they are in save hands and that you will see them one day, some day, when its your time too.

So i've decided from now on i am going to help my friends and my Dad to know Christ. I really hope you will pray for me as this is a very difficult task. But i know God will give me the strength to do so as well.

Thats all for now

Add a comment
Please Pray for my Family

Saturday, Sep 27, 2008 12:28PM / Standard Entry

Been through a lot lately, my family and I. I have gone to the hospital at least 6 times during these 2 weeks. Last night, i plan to fly to Montreal to visit my relative but 2 hrs before my flight we got a terrible call from my aunt. My grandma is not doing well. It was a good thing we didnt board, luckily after some discussion we decided to send her to the hospital, my grand is in pain, in real pain i could only tell from her facial and bodily expression. She couldnt even speak, only moan in pain. I just cant stand to see her like that.

Fortunately we got her to the hospital and the doctor gave her some anitbotic drip IV and she is feeling better. We Got yelled by the hospital staff alot but hey you cant blamed us for being concerned.

You know looking at her makes me think about old age. How fragile a person is when you are old and frail, you really do need alot of love. it really makes me rethink about not haveing kids in the future, at least when you are old and sick, there is someone to send you to the hospital.

Sometimes i wonder why we need to age...

anyways please pray for my grandma , hope she recovers soon from the lung infection.

1 comment– Add a comment