Growing Pains
Sunday, Oct 11, 2009 1:12PM / Standard Entry
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I am offically Un-employed. Yup, i just lost my job :( boohoo. Even though i knew all along, its still kind of accept up to this point. Somehow i feel useless without a job. I know now i can and will have to resist those shopholic tempatations. Since there will no more MOOLAH.
Oh well, life is more than MOOLAH. But i feel sad... because having a job and working makes me feel uselful, without it i feel kind of lost , directionless
I also feel demotivated...
My bday just passed. and its great. I know i still have loving famiy, friends and my silly bf. I know its a blessing and cannot be taken for granted to have these. I know i need to thank God for giving me all these blessings in my life.
But somehow i also feel scarded... i feel like i am back to square one having to look for jobs and going for interview, and hoping someone would hire me.
It just miss working... being busy, running around doing things... engergy pumping in my blood.. I feel engergized when i work.. I never realized working is a blessing.
with the time on my hands, i need to rediscover another type of blessings, blessings that are apart from the materialist world, blessings apart from work..
What will these be. I dont know know yet. But i yearn to discover...
January 22, 2009
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