i'm confused. i don't know what you're feeling towards me. you haven't been straightforward about it. you asked me if I'll say yes to a suitor who'll sing my favorite song to me, and i joked on m reply.

you have been there for me. you comfort me when i feel like cying or am actually crying. you send me messages each and every day. you make me smile and laugh out loud. unexpectedly, you once called me to ask if I already ate. you used your company's phone to call me at you said the phone call was only limited to 5 minutes.

you said i was beautiful eventhough I do not think i am. you check up on me and ask me who i'm with. eventhough we're far apart, you never made me feel that you're hours away. you go to me when you're angry. you say sorry when i get mad. you make super corny jokes that makes me laugh.

hay. let's see where fate and of course the Lord takes us. :)

whoa. i got home from Cebu yesterday and it was one awesome ride. I didn't think that I would cry but I did because I really had fun and our group bonded that much and I am certain that I will miss them. Lord, thank you for all the opportunities that you've been giving me. I will forever treasure them.

I appreciate every people that I met there. they've been so kind and fun to be with. I know that God has a plan for me and I'm slowly discovering it. I lay down everything to HIM because I know that all things would turn out fine. :)

I gained a lot of weight while I was in Cebu. I look thick now! :( I need to exercise. haha. I've been eating 2 cups or more of rice in the span of 2 weeks! darn it. Cebu food is delicious!!

here are the photos of the trip :)

it's been quite a while since I haven't updated my blog here. i've been pretty pissed at some people from work and it's not healthy. I begin to complain and feel irritated! :(

Lord, I thank you for the patience. :)

Pastor Jaeson Ma replied to my twitter message! He's an awesome pastor!

follow him everyone! www.twitter.com/jaesonma

GOD BLESS everyone!!!!

The Causes of Insecurity
Dr Charles stanley
Psalm 8

Insecurity is a subtle danger. In order to recognize this problem in our lives, we must take an honest look at where it originates. Let's identify some common causes for a lack of confidence.

First, insecurity grows out of a persistent sense of being unaccepted. When we grow up thinking no one really likes us, we turn into chronically shy, unconfident adults.

Second, tragedy can initiate such feelings. Broken homes, the death of a loved one, and other relationship scars can be causes.

Third, a poor body image can damage self-esteem. The issue may be body shape, weight, birthmarks, hair loss, or anything else that leads people to see themselves in a negative light. The result is a sense of shame and self-consciousness that permeates every personal interaction.

Fourth, insecure individuals often have a history of feeling overshadowed by others. When this happens, they are preoccupied with people who seem smarter, wealthier, nicer-looking, more successful, etc. This creates doubt in their ability to achieve anything themselves.

Fifth, a serious "life failure" can result in a tremendous loss of self-esteem. Because we pour ourselves into our work and families, a setback in these areas has the potential of crushing our spirits.

If any of these causes sound familiar, examine your heart carefully for any resulting insecurity. Remember, this is a danger that can lie dormant for years before blowing up in your face. Don't allow it to fester in your heart any longer! Bring it to God, who wants to free you from its damaging effects.