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Now to  my randomness.

Tuesday nights just pull the refs legs for making wrong calls on our guys. Our one guy especially he didn't carry the ball, he didn't reach and grabbed the guys wrist. And certainly  didn't even walk. Just because our boys were ahead y'all(refs) called fouls to get the other team behind the line. That's because all they can do to help those others to catch up! > . <

So in the end of that rant there. It confirmed the refs chosen who they fancied the most is the other team! Didn't wanna see rezed kids win it, we can see how that team beat the wolves(our cougars rival team) then back then. Fixed man. Fixed.  After our boys game, the refs sprinted right off the court hiding in their hole!

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Tonights game though. Cougars vs Coyotes!
Coyotes had a couple of heights to their advantage.

Got really into the game on the boys. So much screamed for joy when they got their numbers higher. When one ref tried making ugly foul calls. Must have been really loud when screaming guys and the coyot locals were looking our way where we sat all 'geeZZ' """@___@""" looked around  at them "what? can't I cheer on for our boys?" hey I maybe quiet but once I get into my nephs game I come out of my shell and be a loud fan!

Yes, I admit it! I miss him.

Let's see what was the latest one,oh, Bodyguards and Assassin's was the last movie. Good movie! Still sad though he died in that one.


Now it just hit me. Do I miss him because Tony Jaa's movie is coming out tomorrow.

Maybe so.

Think of Tony, think of Nicholas.



Think of Nicholas, think of Tony it's --- been like that.

 
 
Love that guitar.

Ah, heck. Dig up my movies and watch some of his vids.


Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BcHnFy3zK-s

Can't find the Mando version song for Dragon Tiger Gate.

Haven't been on here for a while.

Things are nuts. Some stupid, some weird, some just plain I don't know.

Just been revolving around my nephews ball games. Proud of him I am. We are I mean. 8-1 games...

Life. Still shaking my head when freshmen still checking me out, as usual not paying attention after games waiting my nephew to come out. The varsity managers or JV looked over Eldest sis all watching and laughing at me. "What did I do?" just sitting here.

"You cradle robber"

Auntie laughing along what's happening.

Short hair is not doing me good. Can't get in as a student anymore..lol... damn haircut.. still short!

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first thanksgiving dinner cooking, and the food was allllll gone! while that found my moms cook book..looked through some I find interesting to make but will have to wait on that..

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christmas a little sad when our other baby nephew asked where his other grandma was at meaning my mom...

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other than that... new years... times... fam.. things..

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done talking time for showing... i know.. tired of korean stars. hey... i like some of their pictures...


























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well time to head on out... get the fire going again... feels like 8 degrees...

Well shoot, been a long arse while since I've been on here.
Ah, hell the ladies have Facebook.
 So don't need to worry about that bit.

New haircut. Honestly though, how do women with short hair stand this?
Seriously! How can you stand it?
It's driving me nuts not being able to put it back into a pony tail. *laughs*
I don't know it feels weird for me.

You know, I felt alive when I headed out of state.
Two states actually.
Bloody long ass 17 hour drive with my family I tell you.
Body has forgotten long road trips.
My aunt told us (two sisters) she'll take us to the San Manual Casino down in California few weeks back.
Just waited for the checks to come out.
If our rez checks didn't come out my sister can go alone.
But turns out. They did come in. My girl came running in the bedroom waking me up waving the check came in. It's time for powwow.

Ah, hell. Fast record packing at the last minute. *laughs*
Meet half way at the WA and OR bridge. Jumped on aunties ride.
We're off!
Well I tell you this. Now I where Reding is at. *laughs*
There's a good and part to this.
Bad one my cousin who wanted to get our rooms on her treat. Didn't go through.
So.
But the good news is..
Cousin was willingly to lets us crash at his place.
Bloody nice place man.
As usual.
at the powwow everyone from the home rez was happy to see us.
then they asked who drove?
oh my girl drove us...(laughs)
but it was nice to see everyone... bloody had a blast listening to drummers songs.
made me miss to dance.
uh i wanna dance.
but I can't...


Cousin was always protective.
I went to the bleachers to get a better view of the dance floor watching the womens jingle.
See what the day of age everyone is dancing.
Then stuck around when the mens category came on. Waiting for the Mens Grass to come on.
Out of no where my cuz popped up walking up to me then sat next to my feet.
Texted my eldest sister about him being protective.
"Ha! He's always like that." Making sure guys don't bug me.

It felt good.
gathering myself together.
taking care of myself..
taking care of my family.

funny when dad tells us to get out of the house for awhile...
we do...
he's none words saying..
get a life..
go mingle with the crowd...
or do something...

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Hhhhmm..

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Closing entry...





 

Pain

First came numbness
tugging strings of short pain
the feel of fear...
worry...
then it hits you...
choking
grasping your fear higher
into another level...
shallow breathes
so little..
shaking..
holding on to what's left
their passing
right in front your clouded eyes..
tears streaking your pale face...
kept calling.. and calling...
no response
no pulse..
empty glazing eyes...
calling..
sobbing..
laying you head at her arm...
still grasping...
imprinting her forearm...
week went by...
you sit alone for once...
it hits again hard...
the ache
the pain...
of knowing..
she's gone...

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No Need to Cry...

She's in a better place...
She's been called before...
But she stayed behind a little longer
After hearing you she says...
But you never said a word
when she thought she was walking...
Towards Grandma...
She stayed a little longer...
The pain was unbearable to her...
no longer taking it...
Seeing we're all set...
She was ready...
She was ready...
She was ready she says...
So she went...
the next day...
Hearing grandma calling..her..
She went...

Mama went to Grandma now...
No longer  in pain.
No longer suffering..
No more tears..
You said your good-bye...

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Video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ud4HuAzHEUc