hi, i was reading a message you left awhile ago in a thread from a Christian Forum on AnD. I myself is a Christian artist and I encourage you to give God another try. I was a hard-knock atheist. I would not believe Him no matter how everyone tries to convert me,until one day God personally touched me and I cannot explain it. But I was a changed person. But I still had my reservation. To make a long story short, God did many miracles to show me He really exists. It took awhile, and I was finally convinced. I got baptized and gave my life to the Lord. I pray and hope you give God another chance. Thanks for reading this.